[DM]
Hey, are you ok?
[ES]
* some minutes later *
no
[DM]
Fuck I didn't think so
[ES]
...
[DM]
You want to talk about it a bit?
You helped me by letting me talk so
[ES]
there's not much to say about it
I am a monster
and uncontrolled beast
ⓘ ATfloatytime is now known as DM
[DM]
What are you talking about?
I mean I'd just call you my friend personally
[ES]
I
cannot control
my anger
I act
without thinking
on impulse
[DM]
Well
That's not all there is to you
You're super nice and fun to talk to
[ES]
I shot him.
[DM]
Yeah I heard
[ES]
Not only once, but twice.
[DM]
I knew about that too
[ES]
And the worst part is that I enjoyed it.
I wanted to see him squirm.
Cry in pain.
Beg. For mercy.
[DM]
He hurt you. It's not weird
[ES]
Maybe a lot of people feel that way.
But I acted on my emotions.
[DM]
That's what most people do
I'd have done it
[ES]
NOT TO THE EXTENT THAT I DID
sorry
[DM]
Look, does hating yourself actually help anything?
[ES]
I'm doing it again
no
it doesn't help
but it feels good and I hate that it feels good
[ES]
and the vicious circle of self loathing continues
[DM]
You shouldn't hate yourself for being human. If it's something you really hate then you can try to control it, but squashing it won't ever work
ⓘ DM is now known as Terese[Barkeep]
[ES]
I can't squash it
It squashes me
[DM]
You're a strong bitch nothing can squash you
Put a harness on that anger and ride it to victory
[IF]
(lel)
[DM]
I know you can do it
If anyone can it would be you
[ES]
....
thank you
and you know what?
I think you're right
I've done it before
when I fought the imps
I was angry
wrathful
uncontrolled
but I was still me
in control
[DM]
And you won
[ES]
and I won
a grandiose victory, too
[DM]
So you just need to figure out how to be like that instead of crazy angry
And I'm here for you to talk to whenever if you want my help, you know
[ES]
yes
thank you
thank you so much
[DM]
Don't mention it
[ES]
:)
but
how did you know?
[DM]
Well
I talked to SS for a bit before this
The shit he said had me worried
But it doesn't really matter
I know he's not on your planet anymore at least
[ES]
oh so he did leave
I guess I got the message through then
[DM]
I might
Uh
Forget it
[ES]
?
what?
[DM]
I think I know where he is
[ES]
I
could not care less
as long as he's no longer in loaf
I don't care
[DM]
Yeah that's why I said forget it
[ES]
:)
so how are things working in the dungeon?
[DM]
I haven't made any progress at all
No idea what to do here honestly
[ES]
hm
I haven't played a lot of games to be honest
but maybe you are in an area you're not "supposed" to be in yet?
like your sprite teleported you there like a massive jerk
you're facing this huge monster
[DM]
My sprite does kind of suck
Maybe I can just go home and take care of the infestation there
[ES]
while imps and ogres are what we're "supposed" to fight
yeah, exactly
look for an exit
mark the dungeon
and return later
It's OK, you're connected again :)
[anarchy.esper.net]
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[DM]
[DM]
Alright I'll do that
Maybe I'll be able to get rid of the problem at home and figure out a better bow or something
[ES]
and more arrows
[DM]
I might need to go all native and make them out of sticks and sharp rocks
I don't think I own any more than this
[ES]
you can just make more using the alchesomething
[DM]
I could probably do that
But how is that more fun
[ES]
you can also combine stuff
its pretty expensive grist wise, or it requires some weird types
but I made a can of crow
[DM]
Well I have like 100 imps to murder
[ES]
so you will have plenty of grist
by the way, how do you plan on murdering all those imps?
[DM]
Not sure yet
Thinking about luring them away one or two at a time
[ES]
probably a good idea
who's your server player?
[DM]
Um
Let me check
[ES]
because they could probably help you too
[DM]
It feels like its been forever since I talked to the guy
[ES]
haven't really talked to mine either
don't trust the guy
→ [IF] has joined
[DM]
PH
Whoever that is
[ES]
puzzlingHistorian
I talked to her a bit
she's cool
[DM]
Alright I'll chat her up
You good for now?
[ES]
yeah, I think so
[DM]
Message me if you need anything
[ES]
yeah, I will
[DM]
If I'm not unconscious I'll reply pretty fast
[ES]
I think I'm returning to my house
gotta terrorize some more imps
maybe even an ogre or two
if I find any
also give crafting another go
see if I have better luck now
[DM]
Cool I'll catch up with you later
[ES]
also
a thought I had
[DM]
Yeah?
[ES]
since you use codes in alchemizing, do you think you could send someone a code and have them craft that item?
[DM]
Probably
I haven't done it yet but that makes sense
You want to test it out?
[ES]
yeah, but none of us have access to our houses right now
I'll message you when I get home
[DM]
Sounds good
I'll try to find something worth duplicating
[ES]
awesome
talk to you later
[DM]
SEe ya
* [DM] disconnected