iFortiTude: Hey, long time no talk. How's it going?
Zeue: Yo, Diego dumped me so. Not feeling too good.
iFortiTude: I'm sorry to hear that. If I can help at all with cheering up, lemme know?
Zeue: As always, I will.
iFortiTude: Otherwise, how's things? Been trying to get enough sleep?
Zeue: How random to ask. e-o
Zeue: Uh, other than that things are fine as usual./
iFortiTude: Not really, considering the last time I spoke you'd spent quite a bit of time, up and playing video games.
iFortiTude: :P
iFortiTude: /me is a mom, IRL, so forgive her if she asks odd, worrysome questions.
Zeue: /me is a grown-ass man, so forgive him for being blunt towards such questions.
iFortiTude: lol
iFortiTude: A grown ass man who gets upset that someone gives a damn enough to ask such questions, rather than just being superficial. :P
Zeue: Didn't realise I was 'upset' to any extent, but alright..
iFortiTude: It seemed like it. I apologize, the 'being blunt' part seemed to imply that you're angry. Unfortunately, via text like this, sometimes true emotion is difficult to imply, and difficult to catch.
Zeue: Best to not try then, in my opinion.
iFortiTude: I'd actually rather you did. I like emotions, even the bad ones. It sucks, not trying to feel them.
Zeue: Eh, to each their own.
iFortiTude: You know, I don't think you're always like this, tho. Just with folks who try. I get it, and its OK. I mean, I freak out when people actually take the time with me too. I know it doesn't *help* to just say it, but for what its worth, all I really want is to be your friend and be there for you. I don't plan on hurting you or being weird enough that it pushes you away. Anyway. I can't remember if I've asked yet, but do you use an Android phone, or an Apple phone?
Zeue: Android.
iFortiTude: /me nods... Hmm.
iFortiTude: You usually play the like, first person shooter type games? Or are there any games you'd recommend for Android? I have a hard time finding games that keep my attention for more than like, a day, and it sucks.
Zeue: I don't play games on my phone.
iFortiTude: Oh. Okay.
iFortiTude: I put a few on my tablet, but there's no real room on my phone. Its crappy. XD
Zeue: I tend to stick to PC games.
iFortiTude: Really, the only game that I still once in a while play, is Terraria. And I think its partially because I can kind of blindly loose myself in collecting whatever it is I currently need, and/or digging like a goober, for hours.
iFortiTude: Its kinda brainless.
iFortiTude: AFK a few moments. Gotta get a drink.
Zeue: I like Terraria, but Starbound is better.
iFortiTude: Is it a sandbox-y type, too?
Zeue: It's Terraria - but in space.
iFortiTude: lol. Less digging, more aliens?
Zeue: More digging, actually. There's an infinite* amount of planets with an infinite* amount of dungeons, quests, and secrets.
iFortiTude: Hmm. That's cool. :D So, do you need like, a 'base house' on each individual planet?
iFortiTude: Or is it relatively easy to pop back to your home when needed?
Zeue: You have a ship, and can set teleporters down inside bases.
iFortiTude: Okay. :D
iFortiTude: I once marathon played Terraria to the point that after a week of doing so, when I *did* sleep, I dreamt about Terraria. -.-
Zeue: I do that with Arma all the time.
iFortiTude: If I get to that point I generally realize its time for a break. XD
Zeue: Eh, I've never stopped so.
iFortiTude: Yeah, but you're young and don't have a kid, so. XD I have responsibilities I gotta deal with.
Zeue: I own three and a half companies. I'd say that may add some responsibilities to my life.
iFortiTude: How can you game all the time and still run them?
Zeue: I don't 'game all the time,' that's how..
iFortiTude: lol Okay. I'm sorry. It just seems like it.
iFortiTude: What type of companies are they?
Zeue: Peccy Networks, my own-made company that functions as a 'parent' to all of my endeavours; primarily tasked with IT operations and technological development/research.
Zeue: Corelex Networks, pretty much a gaming-oriented service provider for websites and the such.
Zeue: Solinr, a non-profit endeavour to provide free hosting solutions and consultation around the world; also leads my development branch.
iFortiTude: Cool. :D Does all of that pay well? Do you enjoy doing it, at least?
Zeue: And World Registration Systems Ltd, a service for managing events around the world.
Zeue: It pays very well, and I do enjoy it.
iFortiTude: Good. :D
iFortiTude: I'm just a motel front desk clerk who sometimes makes jewelry, knit, or sewn items to sell. Ffffh. Recently I've considered doing occasional tarot readings for a few creds, here on IMVU, but. Eeeh.
Zeue: Cool.
iFortiTude: Over the next two weeks or so, I'll be finishing painting my new place and moving in, and once we're in we can work on getting my kid's 50 gallon aquarium set up. He wants to do a whole colony of hermit crabs in there... XD
iFortiTude: So i'm going to have to get like, 250 lbs of sand to put in there, and a bunch of stuff for the crabs.
Zeue: Sounds like a chore
iFortiTude: Kinda, but my kid is twelve and on the autism spectrum, and this is all for him. So even tho it'll be bothersome for a while, I think that if it makes him happy its worth it.
Zeue: Maybe.
iFortiTude: Besides,. hermit crabs are fun. :S
Zeue: Never seen one irl.
iFortiTude: If you want, once we get them set up, I can send you pictures and tell you all about them. A learning experience. :D
iFortiTude: lol
Zeue: I've seen pictures of them and have studied some stuff about them, I think I should be fine.
iFortiTude: Awwh, alright.
Zeue: Soz, bubs.
iFortiTude: /me stands on her tiptoes and kisses your upper cheek, unless you stop her. Hah!
Zeue: (( Why would I wanna stop you? o; ))
Zeue: /me rubs his cheek with his paw. "Uh, thanks? o.o"
iFortiTude: ((I dunno. Weird lady giving you kisses? :P))
Zeue: (( You could suck my dick for all I care. ))
iFortiTude: /me nods. "I'm gonna say something, and all I really need to know is that you try to take it to heart, okay? I know you don't like talking about feelings, and I'm sorry that I keep bringing it up, but for me the way a person feels, and the way I feel emotionally, are important things. Your ex was an idiot. From what I saw, you deserved better, anyway. Please, don't think that all relationships are like that, or that what happened means you're not worthy of the type of awesome relationship you deserve, okay?"
iFortiTude: ((Not gonna do that. ... Prolly.))
Zeue: (( Your loss. ))
Zeue: Eh, I don't mind either way. I'm used to losing people at this point. At least I made him happy for a while.
iFortiTude: ((Fff. Not really. I'm near asexual, so. Doesn't bother me none.))
iFortiTude: /me grunts. "You shouldn't have to be 'used' to it."
Zeue: (( If you say so. ))
Zeue: Well I am, no reason to do otherwise.
iFortiTude: ((Besides. If I did do sexy stuff with you, I'd expect a little bit of emotion in return, and you don't really seem keen on that.))
Zeue: (( I provide, so you'd get what you want. ))
iFortiTude: How about this? How about we agree that if sexy stuff happens, we don't fight it? I'm not too keen on just jumping in the sack with folks, but I do like you, even if sometimes you're a bit frustrating, lol. (As I'm sure I am.) I don't sex just for sex's sake. Its more than a game, for me. So.
Zeue: I'd fuck you because you want it, and I'd make love to you because I'd want it. I'm not planning on -just- fucking you, but I'm also not desperate. Take your fill or don't, things will continue as they are either way.
iFortiTude: I don't want to fuck you, tho. That's what I'm saying. If we do have sex, it'd be making love, but because we both want it. Okay? Okay. I think we've settled on 'if it happens, it happens', so we're good. LOL.
Zeue: If you say so.
iFortiTude: Anyway. You can get sex from anyone, so its not like making love with me would be all that special. :P I'm not desperate either, but its rare that someone gets me to give a damn, and god help me I do give a bit of a damn about you, so. There's that.
Zeue: It would be for me.
iFortiTude: Yeah?
Zeue: Yup.
iFortiTude: How so? If its OK to ask about *those* feelings?
Zeue: You need to get it out of your head that I do not like to talk about my feelings. Just because I don't talk about them doesn't mean it annoys me or whatever. Also, because I like you. I can get whatever I want from whoever I want, sure, but in your case I'd prefer to let you want it naturally.
iFortiTude: You told me that you don't, the last time we talked. And I do want it, but I'm not desperate, either, and I do recognize that as much as we might like each other, there might be problems. I don't want either of us to get hurt, again. Yanno?
Zeue: I never said those words exactly, I apologise that you received that message. Also, hurt? My dick is a nice size but it's not like it'll rip you in two.
iFortiTude: /me shakes you violently. "You're a dick."
Zeue: o-o
iFortiTude: LOL You know I didn't mean physically hurt.
Zeue: I was implying that I would not allow myself to get hurt.
iFortiTude: I unfortunately, do not have that luxury.
iFortiTude: Besides, you may say that all you like, but I do know that deep down there's the possibility.
Zeue: Eh, oh well.
Zeue: Was worth a shot I suppose.
iFortiTude: LOL You say that like its never going to happen just because it won't, *today*.
iFortiTude: Why
iFortiTude: ?
Zeue: I only tend to try once. The rest is up to the other person, who normally either forgets it or never comes back to it.
iFortiTude: /me nods a bit. "Well. When the time feels right, if it feels right, you'll be the first to know. But you've only just... Had your heart hurt, and I don't want to hurt you more. But I also don't plan on walking away from you, Zeue. I like you. I haven't left, yet. That's gotta count for something, right?"
Zeue: If you say so.
iFortiTude: Hmph. Chu got me, Zeue. And yes, I do say so. *She tugs your chain, and instead of a kiss on the cheek, tiptoes and pulls you down just enough to offer one tiny kiss to your upper lip.* I'm not going anywhere.
Zeue: /me clears his throat, pulling his torso back up.
Zeue: Thanks.
iFortiTude: /me nods and smiles. "Mmmhmm. If you want, I can go hang in the Match room with you? Or we can cuddle and keep talking, here? Pick a spot? XD Just beware of up these stairs. LMFAO."
Zeue: I don't mind.
iFortiTude: Which one? Either one?
Zeue: Whatever you want.
iFortiTude: /me grins crookedly and sighs, but slips her hand into yours easily, and just stands here. "Are you playing that space game right now?"
Zeue: /me would look down at your hand curiously. "No, I'm working. Why?"
iFortiTude: I dunno. Just cuz I was wondering what you're up to, besides talking to me? And because I'm a bit curious as to what all your job and running your company entails. I mean... I'm not very technologically inclined, but it means something to you, so its important to me too.
Zeue: If we ever actually verbally talk to eachother I'd gladly explain.
iFortiTude: Awesome. I do have skype, tho I rarely voice or video. But, if you're ok with waiting a couple weeks to let me get settled into my new place (I'm in the process of moving) then I'd be happy to voice chat and see how it goes, and then maybe go from there. "D
iFortiTude: :D
Zeue: Whatever you want.
iFortiTude: /me shakes you gently. "I want you to feel OK with saying when you want something different than what I want. OK?"
Zeue: What? o-o
iFortiTude: You say whatever I want, a lot. I guess it kind of makes it feel like you don't say what you want?
iFortiTude: Anyway.
Zeue: What I want is irrelevant to me.
iFortiTude: But not to me.
Zeue: You are yet to ask me.
iFortiTude: I've been trying to ask you. What do you want, Zeue?
Zeue: I just want to be happy.
iFortiTude: /me squeezes your hand gently. "I want that for you, too. Even if your happy doesn't involve me. I mean, I'd like it to. But if it doesn't, I won't dislike you for it."
iFortiTude: /me kisses each of your fingertips softly, and just grins crookedly up at you. "Help me help you find what makes you happy?"
Zeue: Okay.
iFortiTude: And, please, please don't be afraid to speak up, before I ask, okay? I'm not going to go away if we disagree on something.
iFortiTude: You're stuck with me.
Zeue: Alright.
iFortiTude: /me wraps her arms around your middle and squeezes, in a bit of a hug.
Zeue: o-o
iFortiTude: /me chuckles.
Zeue: /me clears his throat, looking down at you.
iFortiTude: /me stays where she is, arms still 'round your middle, and looks up at you. "What kinds of things make you happy? Like, not relationship things, but, games or sights or places or types of people...?"
iFortiTude: I mean, I know about the space Terraria game, but what else?
Zeue: Socialising, domination, gaming, hearing people's voices, working, drawing.
Zeue: All that comes to mind right now.
iFortiTude: /me nods... She thinks a moment. "By domination, do you mean you being dom, or you being dominated?" She headtilts and crooked grins up at you.
Zeue: Either or, but I am bias towards being the dom.
iFortiTude: /me nods... "Me too. Tho, I don't do the either or thing. Being... Dominated makes me uncomfortable in very not sexy, violent ways." XD
iFortiTude: /me stays where she is tho, hugging you gently.
Zeue: Cool.
iFortiTude: Not really, but it is what it is. It makes finding dateworthy guys all that much more difficult, especially where I live.
iFortiTude: Which is probably why its been over six years since I dated anyone.
Zeue: Rough.
iFortiTude: I think you told me already - who is Armastus?
iFortiTude: /me is trying to remember.
Zeue: My ex.
iFortiTude: Yeeah. I don't think I met him. Why do you still wear the collar? Just not ready to take it off?
iFortiTude: No judgement. Just asking.
Zeue: I'm still his.
iFortiTude: /me considers this for a moment, then nods. "Okay." She squeezes you gently.
Zeue: o.o
iFortiTude: /me smiles a bit. "What?"
Zeue: Just lookin'.
iFortiTude: Oh? At me? Any particular part or reason? :P
Zeue: Breasts, I'm horny.
iFortiTude: /me blinks. And then laughs, blowing raspberries up at your face. "Thank you for your honesty."
Zeue: I prefer it that way.
iFortiTude: Can I ask a question, tho? Its a serious one, and I expect a serious answer, even if its an odd question.
Zeue: Stop asking that, you can literally just ask.
iFortiTude: Why is it that boobs are sexy? Like. What is it about boobs? They're literally just baby feed bags. Fatty tissue and glands. Why is that sexy?
iFortiTude: I don't get it.
Zeue: Genetics...
iFortiTude: /me headtilts.
Zeue: Bigger breasts = more milk production, hence the instinctful attraction to them.
iFortiTude: I mean, I get *that*, tho the milk is for babies, so bigger boobs = better baby making. But, aren't people kind of beyond that, by now? Or don't they like to think they are?
Zeue: Our genus has not been around for that long compared to others, so no. Besides, evolution requires there to be a force of change to actually do anything. There needs to be a benefit to smaller breasts or a much more important benefit in another trait to provide enough force to change a species' instincts. I can explain -a lot- clearer over voice.
iFortiTude: You actually explained that rather well, so thank you. I mean, I do get the instinctual thing. But I just thought most folks could think a bit beyond that? I dunno. Maybe I'm just weird and awkward, comparatively.
Zeue: We're not anything special, we're still animals...
Zeue: We don't -choose- that stuff, it's predefined in our brain structure.
iFortiTude: I mean, to be completely honest? I don't want a sex change. But, if, RL I was offered the ability to remove my breasts, I'd be all for it. I get so turned off when they're touched, its insane. And I'm not having any more babies, so, there's no reason to keep them. To me they're kind of like those few extra chairs you keep in your hall closet, just in case a large group of people stop by, but really you don't actually *need* them for anyting.
iFortiTude: /me is just weird.
Zeue: Yup.
iFortiTude: Sorry. XD I didn't mean to ruin your sexy thoughts.
Zeue: When did I say that you did...?
iFortiTude: You didn't. Its just it seems like it would.
Zeue: Then you think less of me than I anticipated.
iFortiTude: /me kisses your chin. "You're still his, but if he hurts you again, can I feed him his own testicles?"
iFortiTude: /me headshakes.
iFortiTude: If I thought so little of you as you worry I do, then I would not still be here, sweetheart.
iFortiTude: But, like you, I'm used to things going a certain way.
Zeue: Alright.
iFortiTude: So I can feed him his own testes, then? :D
iFortiTude: Good.
Zeue: I do not support nor condemn it.
iFortiTude: And if I see him, I'll tell him I'll do it, to his face.
iFortiTude: /me hmph.
Zeue: Okay then.
iFortiTude: /me hmms. She takes a step back from you, then looks at your shirt. "Are there shorts under there?" XD
Zeue: Wanna see?
iFortiTude: /me lifts up the bottom of your shirt. "Sure." But instead of looking, she ducks up under it and slips inside the shirt, with you!
Zeue: I'd prefer to do this.
Zeue: /me he would pull his shirt off, throwing it to one side.
iFortiTude: Awwwh, but the inside the shirt thing is cuuuute and snuzzly. *She chuckles, but wraps her arms around your middle again, and kisses your chest just once.*
Zeue: More comfy?
iFortiTude: Its just adorable, to crawl inside with you. *She shrugs.* This is okay, too. I mean, either way, we're still up close together, so.
Zeue: Mhm.
iFortiTude: /me mouthfarts on your chest. Just a tiny one.
Zeue: o.o
iFortiTude: /me tries something, experimentally tickling your ribs.
Zeue: /me shoves you off himself quite harshly.
Zeue: e_e
iFortiTude: /me holds her hands up, but stays back. "Okay. Sorry. No more tickling." XD
Zeue: /me clears his throat.
iFortiTude: Sorry. I just wanted to see if you'd laugh. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable.
Zeue: It's fine.
iFortiTude: /me steps close again, but doesn't tickle. "No rib tickling. What about the bottoms of your feet?"
Zeue: I wouldn't.
iFortiTude: I'd get kicked in the nose? LOL.
Zeue: I wouldn't go that far.
iFortiTude: I dunno. You seemed pretty pushy when I tickled your ribs. *She's teasing, gently, and slips both her hands into yours.*
Zeue: o.o
iFortiTude: I wonder what would happen if I did that while we were both naked together...
Zeue: Did what?
iFortiTude: Sat on your cock and tickled your ribs.
iFortiTude: /me opts for bluntness.
Zeue: I'd probably do the same?
Zeue: /me shrugs
iFortiTude: /me oh.
iFortiTude: Okay.
Zeue: Depends on what we were doing naked and why you were sitting on my dick. o-o
iFortiTude: Well, obviously, if I'm sitting on your dick, we're fucking.
Zeue: Oh, well then I'd probably want to fuck you harder for doing it.
iFortiTude: /me laughs! "So, in that instance, the tickling would be a good thing?"
Zeue: Just because it's sex doesn't mean I can't hurt you.
iFortiTude: Your dick can't hurt me, no. But why would you want to hurt me?
iFortiTude: /me confused, headtilts.
Zeue: You're obviously inexperienced in that regard.
iFortiTude: Actually, no, I'm not. I'd rather you didn't treat me like an idiot, thanks.
iFortiTude: :P
iFortiTude: I say again, your dick can't hurt me. Its not like its sporting knives or anything.
Zeue: If you think that an 11-inch muscle cannot hurt you when it's inside one of the most vulnerable and generally sensitive areas of your body then you may need a slight refresher.
iFortiTude: /me sighs and eyerolls. "Do you *have* to pretend its eleven inches? I mean, its not like its actually going to be inside me. Why be ridiculous about it? Why not just, you know. Go with the average size of six to seven inches?"
iFortiTude: A bigger dick won't make me like you any more.
Zeue: So I'm a liar now? Great. Glad to think that highly of me.
iFortiTude: /me sighs.
Zeue: you*
iFortiTude: I'm not trying to say *that*. But eleven inches isn't typical. And I don't understand why I even need to know how big it is? I like YOU for YOU. Not your dick, okay? If it was three inches, I'd still like you and I'd still want to do sexy things wiith you.
Zeue: Good for you, now fuck off.
iFortiTude: I'm not leaving. If you want to go, that's fine tho. I would like to keep talking to you, and work this out.
Zeue: Simple, don't treat me like a lying sack of shit that is pathetic enough to lie about something so fucking irrelevant such as the size of my genetalia. Otherwise, I'd prefer you do me the courtesy of leaving.
iFortiTude: I didn't treat you like a lying sack of shit. I got upset, because guys do that, okay? And no. I told you, damnit. You're stuck with me. I don't *want* to leave, and I don't *want* to fight. I'm trying to tell you that I'm sorry.
Zeue: I don't block people often, but if you really want to treat me like shit like that then tell me now. I will get rid of you myself.
iFortiTude: I do NOT want to treat you like shit.
Zeue: You just fucking did.
iFortiTude: But if you want to block me, then fine.
iFortiTude: But I'm not going, and I'm not blocking.
Zeue: Answer my enquiry.
Zeue: Now.
iFortiTude: Like I said, I'm trying to work this out.
Zeue: You have 5 minutes before I take this the wrong way.
iFortiTude: To talk this out with you instead of ruining a friendship or more. Okay?
iFortiTude: Take what the wrong way? I told you. I'm sorry.
Zeue: You'd be the only one ruining shit.
iFortiTude: You're the one who's blowing up.
Zeue: Oh yeah? I thought I was the one who just simply tried to state a fact to go along with my point. You're the one who's treating me like a piece of shit liar.
iFortiTude: I am not treating you like a piece of shit. I haven't blocked you or yelled at you, like you have *me*.
iFortiTude: I even apologized.
Zeue: "sighs and eyerolls. "Do you *have* to pretend its eleven inches? I mean, its not like its actually going to be inside me. Why be ridiculous about it? Why not just, you know. Go with the average size of six to seven inches?" "
Zeue: -eyerolls-
Zeue: -pretend-
Zeue: -ridiculous-
Zeue: -'just go with an average size'-
Zeue: How fucking judgemental.
iFortiTude: You know what? I'm fucking crying and have been since you blew up.
iFortiTude: Are you happy NOW?
iFortiTude: Does it make you feel good to make folks feel like SHIT?
iFortiTude: Congratulations. I tried to be nice, and to be there for you and all I got was kicked in the teeth for it.
iFortiTude: So if you want to block me, go ahead.
Zeue: Oh shut the fuck up, you know the answers to those questions. To clarify, it's -no- and -no-. It's not my fault that you called me a liar. You're the one in the wrong here, not me.
iFortiTude: I shouldn't have given a damn in the first place. Everyone's like this.
iFortiTude: Every last one.
iFortiTude: So go away.
iFortiTude: I can't do this anymore.
iFortiTude: I'm sick of trying.
iFortiTude: You wanna block me? Go ahead.
iFortiTude: All you wanted was a chance for some nookie anyway.
iFortiTude: You didn't actually give two fucks.s
iFortiTude: So go away.
Zeue: /me sighs.
Zeue: Calm down, man. This is taking it too far. Even though you're the one in the wrong here, I'll do the better thing and get over it. ¬¬
Zeue: Just please calm down, hun. I do not -want- to leave, okay?
iFortiTude: No.
iFortiTude: I'm not going to 'calm down'. You know why? I called you out on shoving your dick size, whether its real or not, at me like it was a badge of honor and now you're fucking butthurt over it because all it was to you was a chance to get your dick fucking wet.
iFortiTude: And I'm tired of it.
iFortiTude: 'm tired of actually giving a shit only to be treated like this.
iFortiTude: So block me.
iFortiTude: Go away.
Zeue: You called me a liar, for no reason.
iFortiTude: I called you a liar because eleven inches is MEDICALLY MASSIVE. Seriously. It is 'go to the hospital now' big. Near impossible. Do you even get that?
Zeue: Seriously, look at this from an objective point of view. You are throwing away a potentially great friendship just because you don't like my dick size, lmao.
iFortiTude: Can you see why it'd be hard to believe?