What have I done...

Reason as to why nexxus goes insane.

After the battle, nexxus tries to live a normal life with her matesprite. but cant stop feeling grief for her fallen team mates. she goes back to the place where they fell and morns. She longs to join them, but doesnt want to leave her matesprite.

Every time she feels grief, the jem on her chest will glow and screams can be heard when ever it does this.  No emotions can be seen on her face and her heart seems to be dead.