Is This About Mindblogger?

* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( how're you going, by the way? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Improving.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( 's good to hear )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Sorry about the other night, I... spooked.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( that's perfectly fine )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( take time outs when you need them, yeah? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (yes)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (My... dreamself told you most of what happened to me, I trust?)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( a bit, yes )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I was disconnected, for - seven sessions. Myra was the one who saved me, then. Her and Corpseparty.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I find myself thinking that by all rights I should've /died/ then.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( that's a hell of a while to be playing loose )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (It nearly killed me.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I still think about it. All the time.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Could I deal, if the linearities came unglued?)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( if Violet wasn't here to pull us together? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (And - the answer is no, I simply don't have the mental strength to deal with it again.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Bravado's how I dealt with it then, bravado's still how I deal with it.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( i don't think i'd be able to deal for long )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( so is there anything we can do to- to have a backup plan? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I've been studying the old literature. I think I might be able to get a backup lined up, for CF at least - don't have access to the infrastructure deep enough for any of the other networks.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( so CF'll have its own system, then )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( if Violet goes down, and CF's still working- people'll start flooding there, regardless of if they've disdained it in the past )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( do you think the system'll still manage? i don't really know how the dongle systems and all that works, to be honest )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I /hope/ so.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (The best I can do without risking trying it out myself is working from the old research. The many competing Transam linearities did a lot of the foundational work in the field - I'm just... not familiar with time and code and how they intersect yet.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( what if you talked to violet about it? she would have some understanding of it, presumably )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Yeah, if I can get a line to her, which is unlikely.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( i haven't gotten around to trying to contact her, though i rather should, given she's one of the few non-AWOL admins. she that hard to get ahold of? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (And here I go, trying to cognitive-distort myself into not trying. Very nice. I'll drop her a line and see if I get anything.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( hehe )

* epinephrineElectrified PMs artisticHourglass (Hey - if you've got a moment, I've been reading some of the Transam-era literature about linearities and wanted to ask some... implementation questions.)

* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Done, I guess.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( good to hear )

* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I've never been good at dealing with grief and loss.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (It's a weakness of mine.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( an understandable one. it's hardly an easy thing to deal with. )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Took me two especially appropriate session rolls and a seven-year Ring voyage with nothing to do to get over Myra.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( did you ever run across her in the bubbles? i heard a bit about the ship passing through several of them. )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Once.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (It helped.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( what was she like? )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( not just in the bubble, but when you knew her? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (She had a very finely tuned bullshit detector and a vicious sense of humor to go with it.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( i went on a reading binge, picking through old transam threads, ages back )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( part of an old project when i was being nosy, trying to work out who she might've sessioned with )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( wasn't a lotta posts from her that're still around )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( least, that i could find )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Mmhm. Go on?)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( mostly stuff about new Wastes turning up )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( was interesting seeing them progress from 'pull the other one' reactions to 'oh shit you got an occupation' )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( not really enough to get an idea of who she was, though, aside from the obviously witty )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Heh. I was on a different timetrav from her. Arrived at Sburb.org at timestamp somewhere 'round 20.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( oh? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I thought I'd /lost/ her, out in the dark days after the great timetrav splinter of Transamphibian's demise.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I really did. I'd almost even braced myself, too, session count 11 or 12 and - and dismissing her, because I was all right and there were still people on the Usuals 'cryption I enjoyed talking with...)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (And then we all landed in the forums with a thump.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I get a single private message.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" ("Nice to see you again", except with her usual rhetorical flourishes.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (After /that/, you couldn't pry me away from her for anything.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( ahah )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (She /liked/ me. I knew that was what it meant.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( well after all, what other reason would she have for making contact again? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Hell, if she told me the Seer Network was bad for me then I would've taken it out for her /then/, but of course that would've been ordering me around, and I suspect it would've been... a negative force on my emotional development.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Had to lose her to realize how much choice she left for me in the course of daily life.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (The highest honor you can pay a Mind player, ironically. Giving them just enough rope to hang themselves.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (We don't like being "saved".)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( mhmm )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (It's an insult.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( why? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Presumption that you can make choices better than the person who was born to make choices.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( and the idea that you don't always have the opportunity to make the 'better' choice- how does that get received? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (...Is this about Mindblogger?)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( uh- no? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (It could be.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( wasn't intended as such )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( sorry )
<bobbedNonsense> [To be honest, you haven't thought much about Aelf for a while now. Too many other things to worry about.]
<epinephrineElectrified> [The implications are obvious, you think. Your stepping in to do /anything/ about her is a product of you realizing that, by your standards, she no longer counts as a Mind player.]
<epinephrineElectrified> [Unfortunately, this is not obvious to other people.]
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( it was more a selfish question, if anything )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (...at some point I had to admit to myself that she was incapable of saving herself and that I had been /negligent/ for not realizing.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (She doesn't /act/ like a native Mind. I'd assumed she found /something/ of value in the transactions required to stay in the Seer Network. She thought she did, too.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (But she didn't. Doesn't know herself, gains no satisfaction from decisive action...)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Pity. Not respect.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (There's a certain amount of loss there, too, and I'm shitty at dealing with loss, remember?)
<bobbedNonsense> [You don't know what to say. Flick water, with an arm hanging over the edge of the raft. You feel like you fucked up somehow.]
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( yeah )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (...I appear to have rubberducked you again.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Apologies.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( ...rubberducked? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Programming term. Don't know what you're doing wrong? Explain the whole problem to the rubber duck. Aloud. In detail.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Effective problem-solving technique when applied to other domains too.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( ahh ok )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( well, i don't mind, really )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( i'm happy to listen, even if i can't promise any solutions )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (If I met her today she'd be a refractory, high-reroll Rogue of Light, rather than a role-shirking Sylph of Mind.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( huh )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I thought she wanted to work on something with me - she has a good archive she dug up somewhere, she says a Ring server, of a bunch of possible experiments to do, but... then she just)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Stops being an effective person)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (For days at a time)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (By the time she tries to pick up where she's left off, all the drive's gone out of it, and she's forced to start over elsewhere.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( it's a familiar pattern )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (It's an /exhausting/ pattern.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Presumably even on her end it's exhausting.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( yeah )
<bobbedNonsense> [Roll over. 'I didn't mean to make this about Aelf, I liked hearing about you, and Myra. Don't want to feel like shit for following that pattern myself, and for just being better at hiding it.']
<bobbedNonsense> [Wonder if you should go for a swim. Or sleep.]
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (...)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I'm sorry, I really don't have anything more that isn't about Aelf to talk about. She's just the problem on my mind lately.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( that's okay )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( i know how some things just kinda well up and take all the attention )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( do you want to talk more about her, or something else? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (No, not really.)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (In fact, I think maybe I should go now.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( take care, then )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( /me offers hugs? )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (/me hugs)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (I think she talks to you, yes?)
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (...Let me know if anything interesting comes up.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( now and then, yes )
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( alright )
* epinephrineElectrified PMs "Sal" (Since she appears to be incapable of basic functions like 'not wanting to kill yourself'.)
* bobbedNonsense PMs "Epi" : ( mhmm )
<bobbedNonsense> right
<bobbedNonsense> time for a swim
<bobbedNonsense> catch y'all later
<epinephrineElectrified> later
<tenaciousTheseus> Take care
* bobbedNonsense has disconnected from the memo