[29/10/2014 03:25:17 AM] Tweaker: man
[29/10/2014 03:25:23 AM] Tweaker: do you ever just get sick of everything going wrong
[29/10/2014 03:25:59 AM] Tweaker: and feel like nobody respects you, and that asking someone to treat you better is so hard for them
[29/10/2014 03:28:30 AM] pbun: Stuff happening?
[29/10/2014 03:28:50 AM] Tweaker: I guess nothing different than usual
[29/10/2014 03:28:59 AM] Tweaker: I'm just especially sick of it now more than ever
[29/10/2014 03:30:01 AM] Tweaker: I just feel like a joke to everyone, because I get treated like a joke
[29/10/2014 03:30:23 AM] Tweaker: and when I asked someone to stop they found it easier to just block and remove me on everything than make a concerted effort to quit it
[29/10/2014 03:30:31 AM] Tweaker: and another person just ignored me and went on doing it
[29/10/2014 03:30:58 AM] Tweaker: and then people I think are my friends, or at least I thought were okay people, make fun of me behind my back
[29/10/2014 03:31:06 AM] Tweaker: and then I sat and I thought about it
[29/10/2014 03:31:19 AM] Tweaker: and I really don't know how many of the people I talk to on a regular basis actually like me
[29/10/2014 03:31:24 AM] Tweaker: as opposed to just like making fun of me
[29/10/2014 03:31:56 AM] Tweaker: and I take it, and I ignore it, because that's just what I'm supposed to do
[29/10/2014 03:32:10 AM] Tweaker: because if you react it gets worse and eventually it's supposed to stop
[29/10/2014 03:32:12 AM] Tweaker: but it never does
[29/10/2014 03:32:40 AM] Tweaker: and no matter what I do, I lose
[29/10/2014 03:33:58 AM] Tweaker: and for every person I subject myself to who I think is good for me I feel like I get a bunch more who aren't
[29/10/2014 03:34:02 AM] Tweaker: but I can't have one without the other
[29/10/2014 03:34:06 AM] Tweaker: so I take them all
[29/10/2014 03:34:07 AM] Tweaker: and I suffer
[29/10/2014 03:35:25 AM] pbun: Why can't you have one without the other? Why do you have to take them all?
[29/10/2014 03:36:48 AM] Tweaker: cause that's just how they always come together, for some reason
[29/10/2014 03:37:02 AM] Tweaker: it's the same situation I've forced myself into
[29/10/2014 03:37:17 AM] Tweaker: cause all of these people are in these big groups and that's like the only way to talk to them regularly at all ever
[29/10/2014 03:37:28 AM] Tweaker: but if you want to talk to just a few people you have to talk to all their friends too
[29/10/2014 03:37:33 AM] Tweaker: and I try and get along with everyone
[29/10/2014 03:37:38 AM] Tweaker: but some of those people are just so
[29/10/2014 03:37:40 AM] Tweaker: contrary
[29/10/2014 03:37:43 AM] Tweaker: I can't think of a better word
[29/10/2014 03:37:50 AM] Tweaker: you know enough about Tobin
[29/10/2014 03:37:58 AM] Tweaker: all I deal with from Tobin these days is screaming
[29/10/2014 03:38:01 AM] Tweaker: and insults
[29/10/2014 03:38:08 AM] pbun: I do, unfortunately!
[29/10/2014 03:38:12 AM] Tweaker: I hear "furry pedophile" at least 30 times a night
[29/10/2014 03:38:57 AM] Tweaker: I get chastised for playing games while in a call because otherwise I spend literally 100% of my free time in a call accomplishing nothing ever
[29/10/2014 03:39:18 AM] Tweaker: if I ever don't join a call, I get yelled at, so I ignore the calls. I ignore the calls, my phone gets blown up with messages and calls to get on skype
[29/10/2014 03:40:01 AM] Tweaker: I go in the calls, I listen to Tobin make fun of me because he's obsessed with Peter and obsessed with trying to impress him
[29/10/2014 03:40:30 AM] Tweaker: I ask him to stop and he finds every excuse in the book to avoid confronting the situation, and then makes it all about him, and then he acts like he's the one in the right and would rather block me than just admit he did something wrong
[29/10/2014 03:40:31 AM] Tweaker: ever
[29/10/2014 03:40:53 AM] Tweaker: and these are my FRIENDS
[29/10/2014 03:41:04 AM] Tweaker: the rest of the time I deal with people like Yarfy
[29/10/2014 03:41:08 AM] Tweaker: and all the people he hangs out with
[29/10/2014 03:41:12 AM] Tweaker: and I'm just a huge joke to them too
[29/10/2014 03:41:16 AM] Tweaker: and I can't do anything about it
[29/10/2014 03:41:22 AM] Tweaker: because if I block them they just try harder
[29/10/2014 03:41:26 AM] Tweaker: and if I go with it they try harder
[29/10/2014 03:41:33 AM] Tweaker: and it's like they literally exist to make me miserable
[29/10/2014 03:41:48 AM] pbun: Are they actually your friends, though? Honest question, not trying to influence one way or the other
[29/10/2014 03:41:57 AM] Tweaker: nobody, NOBODY will let me move on from the worst thing that ever happened to me
[29/10/2014 03:42:35 AM] Tweaker: cum on your sisters toes, feet LOL, FURRY PEDOPHILE!!!
[29/10/2014 03:43:19 AM] Tweaker: every time I feel secure again
[29/10/2014 03:43:31 AM] Tweaker: every time I feel like I'm moving on
[29/10/2014 03:43:36 AM] Tweaker: SOMEONE shows up and shoves it all in my face
[29/10/2014 03:43:42 AM] Tweaker: and yeah
[29/10/2014 03:43:49 AM] Tweaker: if they're not my friends I don't know who is
[29/10/2014 03:44:03 AM] Tweaker: these are the people who SAVED me from the LAST group of people who fucked my life over
[29/10/2014 03:44:14 AM] Tweaker: isn't that sad
[29/10/2014 03:44:22 AM] Tweaker: I mean don't get me wrong
[29/10/2014 03:44:26 AM] Tweaker: Tobin is the one being a freak
[29/10/2014 03:44:33 AM] Tweaker: and pretty much everyone else is cool
[29/10/2014 03:44:36 AM] Tweaker: but man
[29/10/2014 03:44:46 AM] Tweaker: and that's not to mention how I always get blamed for "ruining skype"
[29/10/2014 03:44:54 AM] Tweaker: because of everything that happened
[29/10/2014 03:45:04 AM] Tweaker: because of what other people did to me
[29/10/2014 03:45:12 AM] Tweaker: like I'm being victimized because they chose to defend me