1-27-2015

The time is  8:43 and i just finished downing a little over 3/4ths of a bottle of robotussin. Its about 4oz with 30mg to every 10 mls however much that actually is i don't know. I can still feel it in the back of my throat though. Its quite awful. I'm feeling very excited and decided on watching Howl's Moving Castle.

Its 9:08 and i'm starting to feel a little fuzzy and like im mildly intoxicated. All the nausea went straight to my throat too.

9:15
i feel very sick and cant speak very much. not because i cant but because i feel so sick.

9:29
so i threw up but drank the rest of the bottle so hopefully i still can feel a little bit.

its 10:00 and my head started hurting, though my head was hurting earlier so maybe thats it. I also feel kinda numb again and my eyes are fuzzy but not as intensely as before.

10:10
i'm feeling the same level of numbness but i watched a scene frome the movie and it really tripped me out it was not anything to out of the norm just like how i get tripped out when im stoned.

10:26
i'm feeling physically like im  in molasses when i get up and walk around. my reactions are delayed as well.

11:05
i was on the phone and rambling a lot and felt kinda like i was stoned. im going to sit and listen to some music. when i got up i felt grerat moving is very very fun and stimulating.

11:22
I listened to music for a while and my mouth was dry. i cant see anything with my eyes closed but i cover my self with my blabket and see a ton of shapes. its very magical. i think im going to continue.

11:34
i went back under my covers and faded back into nothingness it was lik my body was dismembered and my arms were just part of a lump mixed in with it i was kinda in this weird space dimention place. it wasnt like space but more like that windows 98 screen saver. i always see that when i close myeyes and try hard enough but it was ike i was part of it this time. time also seems to be passing slowly. it feels like much longer passed though i feel like alot of this is placebo effect? maybe. i really like moving though and the screen brightness is getting brighter. during my time in the nothingness i couldnt tell if i had my eyes opened or closed either. it felt so wonderful and infinate.

11:44
i suddenly feel like im coming down. i think i might browse the internet a bit.

11:54
i got up and danced. moving felt really nice. i closed my eyes but could still see eveyrthing prefectly.

11:58
I danced to a few fall out boy songs and it felt great. i closed my eyes and just kinda moved it wasnt very dancing like. but movement is very fun. i feel like if i sit down and get distracted the highness lessens but if i do something it increases. I feel worn out from so much moving though and also i need to use the restroom

12:03
Going to the bathroom i always very interesting when im on drugs. Everything is so overly lit and so surreal to everything else usually. I noted that my pupils were small which seemed weird and my vision kind of flickered the entire time. I definately feel the effects lessening but i still feel kinda in a substance when i walk just not as much as before.
I'm listening to Radiohead and i still feel very upbeat and happy(i mean this in the context that radiohead usually makes me quite sad and emotional). well maybe not happy but definately not upset or sad or angry. Just peaceful i think.
Even though i feel almost normal movement wise i still enjoy moving. my face also hurts. like my sinuses are infected or soemthing but that may be because of throwing up and it coming through my nose.

12:12
Time seems sorta messed up and it has been for a while. sometimes it passes normally but other times it doesnt. i still have a faint headache. I want to point out that before i threw up i was very numb and it reminded me of when i smoke weed and drink a lot. I get this overwhelming sensation of existing and just can't speak. I feel like if i do speak i'll die or something. I don't dislike it really but feeling sick wasn't fun. I'm definately going to get pills next time.Music also sounds nice, though i only really felt it at one point during my nothingness episode. other than that it just reminds me of when im stoned. I think dxm at low doses is a good chill pill. Another thing i felt when i first went under my covers was my tongue and jaw were fun to move. Or rather it felt good.

12:33
i've been chating with people on skype and honestly; i feel liek the Dude, dude.

12:57
it just feels like im looking out of the eyes of someone else like im not controlling my body. i get this feeling when im typing. The contrast is constantly shifting too.

1:03
i'm sitting against my wall listening to Boris's cover of Sometimes and its physically vibrating my wall, as if a plane is flying overhead.

Its now 1:36 and i feel I've completely comedown. I feel quite tired now and my head still hurts.

I definitely liked this experience and wish to achieve the second plateau at some point. I might even try the 3rd and 4th plateau someday but i can't imagine me getting addicted to this or doing it very often. The syrup is very unpleasant and i don't wish to drink it any more than i have to. i still enjoy some bomb ass weed over this too. I could definitely tell my short term memory was disrupted because when typing parts of this I'd forget to write certain feelings down until later. I remember everything very clear now though. I think because i was so eager it made the nausea much worse and having a headache all day didn't help make it feel better. Hopefully next time I don't throw up the drugs. I think i might drink a little less than the first dose i did this time, that way if i do throw up I'll have a bit more to trip on.