alright so i started playing tf2 super casually in like late 2014 because i had no clue what i was doing

i didn't take the game seriously at all until like june 2015, where i started playing tf2center lobbies and sort of having fun. i met a few people that wee really cool and i'd lobby together with them. i'd already known some people who played comp tf2 like aug, pazer, and klutz, and i'd ask them about comp tf2 from time to time. at the time, klutz had just won iron, which i thought was dope as fuck and i wanted to play comp. i ended up lobbying a lot and seeing this guy called rico who played s17 steel hl. i ended up asking if i could backup for his team, i was supposed to play a scrim with them and then rico got ugc banned for cheating so i didn't. i ended up adding the new team leader and asking to sub for the team and cpzirb let me. the team had super cool people, ended up going 8-0 that season and winning steel. i met some super good friends on that team that i'd continue to play with (blake, thatguy6598, mezzi, cpzirb, sixtus, squirrel). i played like shit at first so i tried using lithiumcheats.xyz in pubs to see if that could help me, and ended up getting banned on skial. the sniper of my s17 steel team was friends with mike at the time, and we'd sometimes talk about cheats and whether he was going to cheat to win s18 silver on the same team. mike ended up making me a wallhack that he'd called m4risa.cfg, it was a sort of working dspaste that i'd use a ton if it worked (lol).

moving on to the next season of hl the roster really didn't change except for hl spy, i stayed on as sub and played with the rest of the team. i made a 6s team that was supposed to play iron with silver hl friends, but we got placed in steel. i didn't really know anyone good at the game outside of my hl team so i asked mike if he knew anyone that was willing to play 6s with us, he said he'd alt to meme with us. we added route and tickzf to the roster. at some point route decided he didn't want to play with the team, so we ended up cutting everyone on the team to essentially have a new roster of me / route / tickzf / mike / simmonsrb / + multiple ringers every match. we still scrimmed iron teams for the fun of it even though we got moved up to silver by that point. we ended up playing 6s scrims with ringers a lot, and i ended up knowing a lot of people on the s18 sjw hl roster. instead of scrimming iron 6s, we'd find iron/steel hl teams to pugscrim with gold/plat players, which triggered them pretty hard. it was probably the most fun i'd have that season, the pugscrims where we'd just fuck around, met some pretty cool people during those. simmonsrb had a esea team at the time, i'd backup for them and play a lot of matches even though the odd scheduling put me on shit scenarios like playing on my friend's laptop with 200 ping, weird stuff like that. thatguy6598 from my steel hl team was playing on that team too, which was fun. i picked up akemi for my ugc 6s team because people always had other scheduling issues, he was a pretty cool dude. even though i meant for that season to be a learning experience, and i'd sought out a mentor, no serious gaming occurred but i still think i learned a ton. during the season, i met strazyyy, a friend of my hl demo cray's who knew a ton about cheats and explained a ton about it to me. during the season i sort of got more involved into cheating and knew more cheaters, whether they made their own, pasted their own, or used gamebanana wallhacks (lol@dynamovic).

coming into the next season, the esea team was dead and i was going to quit playing with the old hl team to backup for simmonsrb's hl team, roadkill, or find a gold hl team to snipe on. i scrimmed with them sometimes but not often, the teammates there were all pretty cool people if sometimes memey. at that point pugscrims would sort of come to a close. one day mike and akemi got into some shit over akemi being a crackbaby or something like that, and akemi deleted me on steam. i was lft open at the time and i tried out for lpz / manlywhiteman's team with the intention of playing scout, but the vac wave occurred about a week or so after that. i pretty much lost a ton of friends over being vac banned (many of those who knew i'd been cheating prior to that lol). akemi or someone lied about me doxing akemi's dad to people on roadkill, i got banned from their mumble, and i ended up losing contact with simmonsrb, who i'd considered a really good friend for a long time over that. i considered continuing to play esea with hyphen, gus, and thatguy6598 but none of us had the time to dedicate to esea fulltime so that sort of fell through. after the vac wave my friend strazyyy introduced me to kelse, a cs hvhking / coder who'd help me w tf2 after pretty much the death of all dspastes. i don't play tf2 as much because my rep is shot to shit for cheating and being a huge retard in general which isn't really a surprise, i doubt i'll play on a team again. i'm super busy irl now so i don't have time for games now, and being on the other side of the country for 2 months basically means that i can't play games at all for 2 months.


s/o

everyone on nfz and roadkill and my ugc6s
cpzirb for nutty music
salt / jason for everything
simmonsrb for letting me try esea tf2
klutz for introducing me to comp tf2
mike the retarded paster
strazy for sending me cat snaps
gabe for nutty tf2 passion and always being super helpful
afterlife for being a neat dude
kelse for being rlly cool and having good music
vari for helping me w scout a long time ago
hyphen for being cool!!!
everyone who still talked to me after my vac <3