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- The boy was born with fingers shaped like keys. All except one, the pinkie on the right hand, had
- sharp ridges running along the inner length, and a point at the tip. They were made of flesh, with
- nerves and pores, but of a tougher texture, more hardened and specific. As a child, the boy had a
- difficult time learning to hold a pen and use scissors, but he was resilient and figured out his own
- method fast enough. His true task was to find the nine doors.
- • • •
- Door one he found as a kid; it was his front-door key. He did not expect this because it seemed
- so obvious but one day he came home from school and was locked out; his mother, usually home, had
- just begun taking some kind of sculpture class and was off molding clay and forgot to leave a key
- under the welcome mat. So he was unwelcome, in his own home. He cried for a bit and tromped on
- some pansies as revenge and got so frustrated staring at the lock, such a simple piece of metal
- separating him from his palace of food and bed and TV and telephone, that he stuck the index finger of
- his right hand inside. It shoved deep into the lock, bumping around, trying to find a perfect spatial
- match. Nothing clicked. But he’d enjoyed the sensation so he tried the middle finger next. Too big.
- The pinkie on the left hand: too small; it wiggled inside like a wire. It was the ring finger on his right
- hand that slipped inside, easy as a glove, ridges filling the humps and the boy settled it deep, rotated
- his entire hand, heard the click, and the door opened cleanly. Inside. He ripped his finger from the
- door and let out some kind of vicious delighted laugh.
- When his mother came home, two hours later, hands red with clay, he pulled her straight to the door
- and showed her the trick. Shove in, turn, click, open. His mother kept laughing. And I didn’t even
- want to buy this house! she said, holding him close. And to imagine, what if we hadn’t? The boy
- shrugged. He had no idea how to answer that question.
- The second key fit the lock of the bank deposit box that held all the securities of the family. The
- two had gone on a trip to the bank and the boy was bored in the room of security boxes while his
- mother spoke worriedly with an accountant. He stuck the pinkie on his left hand into their security box
- and ta da. He was very surprised. So was his mother. I didn’t especially like this bank either, she
- said. Can I have some of this money? the boy asked, looking with interest at the large piece of gold
- sitting in the box like a glowing turd. No, she said, but I’ll buy you a burger. They went to his favorite
- burger joint where the lettuce was shredded and the soda ice crushed, and she told him about how she
- was making a clay version of him. It’s you, she said, but you are surrounded by doors. You are
- standing on doors and wearing doors and your hand of keys is held up like a deck of cards. The boy
- splayed his fingers out on the table. Gin, he said.
- The third, fourth, and fifth keys opened his camp trunk, the neighbor’s car, and the storage room
- of the school cafeteria, respectively. He opened the cafeteria door one day at school when he was
- wandering around, not wanting to go home yet because there was nothing to do and no one to be with.
- All the other kids were off playing sports. The boy opened the back of the cafeteria with his right
- pointer, to his own almost dulled surprise, and sat with the frozen chicken nuggets for a while. It got
- boring quickly so he went home, opened the door with his other finger, and watched TV. His father
- was away at war. No one knew what war it was because it was an unannounced war, which made it
- worse because he could tell no one because that would cause great governmental problems. So he just
- held on to that information and when his friends asked where his dad was on Open House Night at
- school, he said, He’s away on business. He wanted to yell out, The business of saving everyone’s
- life! but he knew that would cause further questions so he kept his mouth shut.
- His mother brought home the clay sculpture. It was about two feet tall and looked very little like
- him, and the doors resembled flying walls. One day when he was home alone and she wasn’t back
- yet, having enrolled in another course, this one called How to Make Glass, he threw some baseballs
- at the sculpture but the clay held strong. The boy was twelve now. His hands were growing, but his
- fingers still fit the same locks. Somehow they stayed the size they needed to be, while the rest of the
- hand-palm, knuckles, wrist-grew with him.
- The sixth and seventh keys fit doors in France. His mother and he went to Paris to visit his father
- who was on leave from the mysterious war and together the three of them had lunch at a café
- surrounded by iron lamp poles and they ate crusty bread and soft cheese with red ripe tomatoes. His
- father looked older and stronger than ever, with big arms and a ruddy tan, and the boy stood next to
- him and wanted to push all his keys at once into the man’s palm, to click and turn his father open, to
- make him tell what was happening. Secrets. His father and mother shared a room in the hotel and the
- boy had the room next door, with its strange-smelling comforter and a weird phone that had numbers
- in different configurations. He learned how to say Ou est la porte? which means Where is the door?
- and the porter at the hotel, after ignoring the question for the first five times, finally showed him a
- door, standing alone, on the lobby level, hoping to shut the boy up. Using the middle finger on his left
- hand, the boy opened to reveal just a closet, empty, with a few clothes hanging up and several
- swinging hangers. The porter babbled in amazement, Mais qu’est-ce que c’est que ça?! and took one
- of the hanging shirts straight away to the maitre d’ at the restaurant who had been bemoaning the loss
- of it for more than a year and the boy said, to no one, I suppose I’m just going to sit here, and he went
- inside the closet and curled up on the floor. The porter, when he returned, brought the boy a glass of
- wine and a piece of apple. When his mother found him, asleep on the floor of the closet, she hugged
- him for a long time, and he showed her how his hand was international.
- At the Louvre, the boy felt the pointer finger on his left hand itch after greeting Mona Lisa under
- glass. He found the docent room the way a hound finds blood, and played gin rummy with a pooped
- guide whose earrings were little diamond stars. His father was off doing military business that day.
- When they returned to the hotel, the mother angry at the boy because he’d vanished, they found the
- father weary on the bed, looking worried, his ruddy tan fading like a bright couch left too long in the
- On the airplane home, the mother cried and the boy went to the bathroom and thought of his
- father as he peed, and then when he flushed he sent his pee like a message to his father because he
- imagined it flying out of the plane, free of him, into the world.
- Go win the war, the boy thought, and come home. Or, he thought, don’t win the war and come home.
- Or, he thought, don’t come home but make Mother stop missing you. Or, he thought, make me stop
- missing you.
- He rubbed his keys against his palm. He was almost thirteen. He washed his hands with the
- lavender airplane soap and returned to his seat.
- He didn’t fit his eighth key until he was twenty years old.
- His father did come back from the war after another year, but he was not the same man. He was
- scared of noises and he had a strange white blindness that he experienced when the day got too hot.
- The family considered moving, over and over, to cooler quarters; considered it, then unconsidered it.
- The boy took drama classes but always played the funny weird guy and never the leading man. He
- watched his mother take How to Make Glass II, the second in the series of five, and one afternoon she
- came home with a tote bag full of huge clear squares. She said this was her final exam for the class,
- and she’d gotten an A. Look, she said, pointing, no bubbles, she said. The boy asked her what they
- should do with it now that she’d made it. She said break it. So they took it outside and broke it in two
- and then his mother looked sad and sat down and the boy broke it in four, then eight, then sixteen, and
- his mother was still sad, she started to weep, softly, and the boy shattered the glass into hundreds of
- pieces.
- His first girlfriend bought the chastity belt as a joke. He couldn’t open it. They scrambled
- around, used the tin key that it came packaged with, opened her up, had sex anyway. Her underwear
- was thin and full of holes and the boy kept it that night in his bed, after they had parted, and thought
- about the way she butted her head into his shoulder like a goat. When they broke up, he walked to the
- bank and put the underwear in the safe deposit box right on top of that one piece of gold. His mother
- never said a word about it. The bank had changed ownership by now and had a new color scheme-
- navy and dark green-but the lock was exactly the same.
- His father went to the hospital for the blindness. He told the doctor that he saw whiteness
- everywhere, as if he’d been driving in the snow for days and days, and that he couldn’t find his
- balance or his peace. The hospital gave him painkillers and sunglasses. The boy’s father sat in the
- kitchen with a cup of milk in a mug, his palm covering the opening so he wouldn’t have to look at its
- white flat top and he said, It’s not like I saw anything that horrible. The son said, Really? and the
- father said, Son, the truth is I can’t even quite remember what I saw. Is it bright in here? he asked. The
- son looked outside at the setting sun and the lucid calm of dusk.
- The eighth key fit the cabinet at a weaponry store. He went there for his college war survey class
- to learn the difference between muskets and spears. The man who owned the weapon store had a big
- belly and cheeks stretched over his face like poorly upholstered furniture. He would be hard to make
- in clay. The man was reading a book called How to Meet Girls, and when the boy asked to see some
- stuff, the man said he’d lost the key to the back cabinet where the small revolvers lived. The boy felt
- his finger itching, walked over, and opened it himself. The man’s cheeks raised a full inch on his face,
- furniture renewal. The boy shot some targets and felt like a soldier and wrote a brilliant report. He
- read How to Meet Girls cover to cover.
- His mother came to his college graduation. His father could not because the light of the sun
- blinded him and seeing people all dressed in one kind of uniform reminded him of the army and made
- his head feel like it would explode. I can’t stand it, he told his son. All those bodies on the lawn in
- black graduation gowns. It’s like one huge goddamn foxhole. His mother wore a dress she’d made in
- her sewing class, with contrasting patches of velvet, burlap, silk.
- He went to France for a graduation present. He returned to the Louvre, deciding he wanted to play
- more gin rummy. He located the door, but when he stuck his finger in the lock, it didn’t fit anymore.
- They had apparently changed locks since his last visit. This made him feel unsettled, as if kicked out
- of his own home. He wondered if that finger would find a new lock now. He thought: Yes. And no.
- And I don’t know.
- He met a French girl named Sophie, sitting in a yellow-and-brown wicker chair at a café, eating a
- butter-and-sugar crepe. He fell in love with her within a couple of days. She puffed her lips when she
- spoke, like the French do. In bed, he put his finger inside of her, the ring finger on his left hand, the
- finger that means marriage, as if to turn her inside and unlock her body. She came fast; she was loose
- and loving, and loud, and luscious, but she hadn’t been locked, either. I love you, she told him, after a
- week, with a thick French accent, lips puffing. He decided to stay for the rest of August. They made
- love all the time and he told her his “uncle” couldn’t see because he’d watched bad things in the war
- and Sophie said, What war? and the boy shook his head. I don’t know, he said. Some war somewhere
- kind of near here.
- When he left France, Sophie said she’d write but she only sent one letter total. He returned to his
- hometown and found an apartment near his mother and father. He went to the man, still sitting around
- the kitchen.
- Do you know who were you fighting? he asked.
- Some other guy, said his father, stirring his tea.
- What did you see? asked his son.
- Not much, said his father. Some blood, he said. I think something got taken away from me, his
- father said. I think they took something from me but I never even felt it happen when they did.
- The boy placed his right hand of keys into his father’s open palm: the security box, the neighbor’s
- car, the closet in France, the docent room at the Louvre that had been changed.
- You say you’ve opened eight so far? said his father. Which is the ninth?
- The son waggled his ring finger on his left hand. Well, go open some doors, his father said,
- squeezing his hand. The one you open with the ninth key will be connected to the woman you will
- marry. Maybe.
- The boy took his hand back, and agreed that would be very sweet, if it worked out like that. He had
- been feeling a vague dissatisfaction at the mundane nature of the other eight keys. There was a report
- on the news that NASA had lost the key to the space shuttle, and so the boy called up right away and
- offered his assistance. The whole flight over he had the national anthem singing in his head. NASA
- took him straightaway to a sealed white room with serious people who shook his hand and had fierce
- eye contact, and members of the FBI lined the walls in case he was a terrorist in disguise. The boy
- tried all his fingers twice but none worked. The NASA people shook their heads, and he heard
- someone say, I told you so. He had a fleeting feeling of terror that the FBI might arrest him for
- something his father had done and an even bigger wish that an FBI man would arrest him, take him
- aside, and tell him what had happened. What is the greatest mystery of your family? he asked the
- older lady on the flight home, as they watched the movie without sound, and she looked at him
- thoughtfully but never answered. At home, he shoved his finger into every door he could see for a few
- weeks, but decided to stop, as it was starting to make him unhappy, and signed himself up for a
- sculpture class.
- In the second class in the series on figure sculpture, the boy met a woman he wanted to marry.
- After a year, they married. They spent the gold piece in the safe deposit box on the wedding and did it
- up, and also did it dark so that his father could stand it. It was a night wedding. His father stood at the
- microphone and made a toast with his eyes closed. The son danced with his bride, luminous in her
- white dress; his father never once looked at the bride for fear his head would explode. That night, in
- the hotel room, the bride looked at the ring on his key finger and asked him what that one opened and
- he said he didn’t know. They made love in the big hotel bed with the strange-smelling comforter and
- fell asleep face-to-face, feet tangled together.
- They went to Paris on their honeymoon and found the closet in the hotel that the boy, now a man,
- could open, and when the porter wasn’t looking, they snuck inside and made love. Due to the intrusion
- of the walls, sex was uncomfortable in the closet, so they ended up going to the front desk and getting
- a room anyway. There, on the bed in the hotel, the man told his new wife about his father and the war.
- He told her everything he knew which was very little but still, other than the quick “uncle” confession
- to Sophie, he’d never told anyone. He had to continually smother down a fear of the FBI busting into
- the wiretapped room and taking him to FBI jail as he spoke. The new wife was understanding but
- equally confused. We were at war then? she said. The man said, You are the first person I have ever
- really told. Her face was dim in the light of Parisian dusk, filtering through the windows and turning
- the room golden. He felt glad he’d married her. They went downstairs and had a feast of duck in
- apricot sauce in the hotel dining room and the porter, who was now significantly older, recognized
- him and gave him a free crème brülée. After dinner, the porter insisted he open the closet again,
- which he did, with embarrassment, because to him it still smelled like his wife’s desire and not like
- an abandoned closet in the least.
- They found a good apartment in town, near his parents. They got a dog at the pound who had been
- abused but was responsive. His mother came over with teas from around the world and sat at the
- kitchen table in her patchwork outfits, and she and the dog got along. The son still tried to ask his
- father the right question that would reveal everything but all he ever got in reply was a sad shaking of
- the head.
- On his thirtieth birthday, he was walking to work, to the factory where he broke glass for a
- living, when he heard screaming in the streets. He passed a TV in a bar, and the local news was
- explaining how a little boy was locked in a metal shed by accident and the door was too thick and
- couldn’t be banged down. The young man took a detour on his route and went toward the noise and
- the banging. Apparently the boy had been in the shed for hours and air would run out soon. This was a
- special boy too-the one known about town whose elbows were pointed in such a way that made it
- easy to open tin cans.
- As he approached, the crowd, who knew him well, parted willingly when they saw him walking
- over. He could hear the boy inside the metal room, sobbing up the air. The young man with the hands
- of keys paused a moment in front of the metal door. He could feel his finger itching. He wanted to
- wait for a second and hold this moment, the moment before he became a finite person. He could feel
- the air ringing with it-his life span a life span, the world a round ball. The crowd screamed and the
- boy sobbed and the young man put the ring finger on his left hand in the lock.
- Click.
- Hero.
- The trapped boy ran out crying, gasping, elbows in wings, and the town lifted the young man
- with the key fingers on their shoulders and they wrote headlines and gave him a medal and the mayor
- shook his now-complete hand.
- After the award ceremony, he went to his parents’ house. His father was sleeping in a quiet dim
- room, and the young man slipped the medal over his father’s head. He’d passed many doors that day
- and thought: so I can’t open that one or that one or that one. From now on, all the doors in the world
- were as closed to him as to everyone else. The older man kept sleeping and the young man hummed a
- song to himself inside the cool dark room.
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