Bocchi Tensouki

Prologue

I hate human beings.

when I think about being betrayed by them, I just can’t believe to human anymore.

that’s why I avoided social life as much as possible.
for that reason even though I’m already 29 years-old, I still don’t have girlfriend and friend.
there is a reason for my character to become like this.
the time when I’m still a sixth grader elementary school, someone accused me for stealing lunch money.
the class assembled to search for the bag containing lunch money but still can’t find it, then the girl who become the class representative suddenly shouting aloud.
And, for some reason, the bag is in my desk.
it was a very evil plan of someone, that’s what I feel till now.
or, till that day. I was a very popular boy, there is a possibility that it was the work of the one of the jealous guy for accepting class girl representative love confession to me.
incidentally for the children, they won’t hink about the consequences of their deeds, it was very cruel experience.
I frantically insisted that I didn’t steal that lunch money.
but, the situation is very grave with the evidence in the form of bag with lunch money inside my desk, so no one believe me.
homeroom teacher, class-mte, even my parents.

From that day on, the surrounding student began to avoid me.
till that time I still held my expectation for my friends, I’m trying to make the one that close to me understand my situation, even those guys began to avoid me.
And, moer people avoid me.
when I’m still an elementary school student, I already know what it’s means to distrust human.

Junior high, high school, and college, I still continue to avoid others, as it is I’m continued being a lonely person.
when I’m working for a company, I tried to avoid social event with other peoples at the best of my ability.
And last year, when I’m commuted in a train for work, I become culprit of molesting incident.
It is a false accusation of course.
I continued to insist it’s not my doing.
but, the judgement still said that I’m guilty.
no-one believe in me, none.

my distrust toward humanity become more and more severe.

when I’m judged as guilty for molesting accident, I lost my job, originally my relationship with my family and relatives is already thinned, almost cut-off.
Nearly a year, without jobs I eat by using my saving, I become a walking corpse.
One day, when I’m walking in the park at night I heard scream of a woman.
I immediately run to the direction of the scream sound come, just in time before a young woman is almost raped by a man.
the man is holding a knife, I’m flinching, but I must help that woman.
I’m struggling with that man and the result is, that knife thrusted and piercing my chest.
while I’m aching with the pain, I desperately asking that woman to call an ambulance.
But, while screaming, that woman running away.
instead of calling an ambulance.
maybe she was entering panic state due to confusion, that’s beyond cruel.
and, the man who stab me, he takes out a mobile phone with shaking hands.
But, either because he just realized what he just done, eventually instead of calling an ambulance he is running away.
I’m left alone.
before long my eyes feel hazy, my conciousness eventually fading and, just like that I--------------die.

While thinking about how shitty humans is.