I never said you were [gonna sleep around]. But talking about tying up some dude, talking about this cobalt thing, camming with suiters. Like come on, your sex drive is higher than ever now that we're apart.
12:25:35 PM
Like you wouldnt even RP with me anymore, or just talk with me face to face on skype when we were together. And suddenly now that you're single your libido skyrockets. You got upset with me for having a sex drive when we were together. And now this? It pretty much validates my theory that either you weren't into me specifically, or you weren't into having a relationship. Both are fine, that's life and all, but for a while it was making me upset
12:27:27 PM
Just today I woke up and like a switch I finally felt whole again and like I was over it. This cobalt stuff came up and I was finally able to say "If he hooks up with someone, I don't care". But forgive me if I don't have faith in you when you don't even know yourself
12:31:09 PM
Like I still wanna be good friends and all, I do, but as far as trusting which was your compass is gonna point? That changes all the time. You say "It's not like I'm gonna go sleep around" but you don't actually know that. You go with the flow with no regards for the future, so you can't accurately predict your future. No one can.
12:34:21 PM
So it's not like I expect you to sleep with a bunch of people. It's that I know that you're gonna do what you want regardless of what anyone has to say about it, because your stubborn and do what you want to do. You have an "only God can judge me attitude' which is why you get so upset when someone does judge you. You say "No one should ever change for anyone" so no one can hold you to any standard. You say "When you plan things, shit falls apart" so you don't have to keep commitments.
12:35:23 PM
That's who you are, and you're right at saying that you should be loved for who you are. And I do love you, and everyone in the group loves you. You're very loved.
12:36:50 PM
You're not a bad person, but you live for yourself and no one else. And I finally recognize this, and find it pointless to try to jump in on the "Kudoz please don't do this" train because it's futile
12:39:24 PM
Notice how there were only two people who didn't say "Watch your back, be careful, etc". Pat and I. Instead I said "he's gonna do what he wants" and Pat said "At least wear a condom"
12:40:38 PM
It's not a coincidence that the two people who dated you didn't give you any real advice