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- ...suddenly my vision goes dark.
- It's like a bout of anemia.
- I wonder if it's fatigue from exploring the labyrinth.
- "Hmph. Your face doesn't look it,
- but your vital signs have dropped."
- ...fu. There's a limit even to poverty,
- but it would be inconvenient if you collapsed in the labyrinth.
- Go rest for a moment. I will keep watch.
- His manner of speaking is harsh,
- but it's strange that Gilgamesh is worried about my body.
- I answer his highness's fickle words with "Well then," and lay down.
- ...The moment I lie down, I'm overcome with drowsiness.
- ...It's as though I've become tired right down to my bone.
- ...I give in to the exhaustion that falls on me.
- ...It's a short rest from the reality of this fight.
- ...For at least an hour, let me fall into a deep dream...
- DREAM
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- I was born from a lump of clay.
- The clay was kneaded by the hand of the gods.
- I was made to be a tool that could take on infinite shapes.
- I awoke in a wilderness.
- The first sight reflected in my eyes was the vast earth, the vast sky,
- and the walls of a city towering far away.
- Suddenly I could hear a voice calling out from afar.
- What made me open my eyes was not my mother's fingers,
- nor my father's reproach.
- I was troubled by that voice and my heavy eyelids opened.
- Newly awakened, I had no reason.
- For several years since I awoke for that purpose,
- My existence was merely running through the wild with beasts.
- But I had a goal.
- Because when my mother made me, I was given a mission.
- "Chains.
- You will return those bonds to us."
- And yet I had no soul.
- I could do nothing but live wild.
- I lacked a human's purpose.
- Each day was nothing but the joy of running wild with the animals.
- I was incomplete, but what I lacked did not exist.
- ...And yet.
- Sometimes I would stop and look to that far-off city.
- Beyond the wasteland, someone was calling out.
- I wonder who's voice that is?
- It's not my father's, and it's not my mother's.
- I felt as though someone far different was calling for me.
- Lamenting my senseless self, my father gave me a woman.
- Even just having met me,
- That woman became a good teacher.
- I learned wisdom and reason.
- I was taught the all the ways of both heaven and earth.
- In order to fulfill the mission I was given before I was made, a soul was breathed into me.
- "Enkidu."
- And then, for the first time, I spoke my own name.
- At that moment, the world became a completely simple thing.
- My duty.
- My mission.
- I had to show the wrath of the gods to the arrogant Gilgamesh.
- My heart leapt with joy.
- I raced through the wilderness like a shooting star.
- The meaning of my existence.
- The reason I was made.
- The thing that gave me life.
- I would bring punishment to a doll who, like me, had been made by the gods.
- But the one I sought out was still a young boy.
- Unlike me, he seemed to still be growing.
- Unlike me, it was said that his blood was mixed with a human's.
- He was still a child.
- Until he grew, I could not compete with him.
- I had to admonish him when we could stand as equals.
- And so I gazed at that walled city.
- I could hear that voice calling from inside.
- I pushed down my feelings and counted the days until he matured.
- As a child, above any other man on earth, he possessed a kingly nature.
- He was honored for his tolerance, prudence, fairness, and good morals.
- Everyone on the streets praised him, was charmed by him.
- He was the very image of an ideal boy king.
- I could only think that the gods were mistaken, thinking him arrogant.
- The boy Gilgamesh had no traits to be reproached.
- ...If there happened to be a problem, it was this:
- He honored the gods, but there were times where he did not obey them.
- Years passed, and the boy grew to adulthood.
- I realized the gods fears were well founded.
- In mere years, that boy became a completely different person.
- Despotism. Tyranny. Coercion. Levys. He lived selfishly in the lap of luxury.
- The people of Uruk despaired.
- They asked why things had become like this.
- The gods racked their brains.
- They said they hadn't thought it would come to this.
- ...but I knew why he had changed.
- I understood so much it hurt.
- From birth, he held a certain conclusion.
- Neither god nor human, a unique existence.
- Possessing traits of both god and man, his scope was too wide, too far,
- Even to the gods, the things he saw could not be understood.
- His great strength gave birth to greater loneliness.
- And yet he could not cast his crown aside,
- Just as I could not run from my own purpose.
- ...such intense ego.
- Once he revered the gods in earnest and loved people.
- But because of his existence
- He chose to defy the gods and detest humans.
- "You say you will remonstrate me?"
- We first met before a virgin bride's bedchambers.
- "Yes. With my hands, I'll right your arrogance."
- Rather than "arrogance," I should have said "loneliness," but I couldn't.
- I didn't want to wound his pride.
- Our fight raged on for many days.
- I was a spear, an axe, a shield, a beast. Able to freely become all things in creation, I was an opponent who taxed the power of the man who had laid claim to every treasure.
- "<i>YOU!</i> A mere lump of mud stands against me?!"
- Was he startled or angry, first meeting his equal?
- During that fight, he drew his most prized treasure.
- To draw a beloved sword such as that could have been nothing but a disgrace to him.
- First we pursued one another - an inevitability.
- But in the end, enjoying ourselves without restraint, we poured our all into that battle.
- That fight ended in... whose victory?
- His last treasury was empty, I had exhausted 90% of my clay.
- Unable to even make clothes, certainly my form was gaunt.
- After his eyes had gone wide and he'd had a hearty laugh, he looked up and collapsed.
- I collapsed to the ground as well and took in a deep breath.
- Truthfully, we could move no more.
- "Between us, only one move remains.
- If we can only defend, we're but two foolish corpses lined up."
- Even now, I don't understand the true meaning of those words.
- Did I want to ask "Then we end with a tie?"
- Did I point out "If this is foolish, there should only be one corpse"?
- Even so, I heard those words and went limp,
- as if to imitate him.
- I could only think that we were like a mirror.
- "Do you regret having used your treasure?"
- Somehow, those words left my mouth
- "What? If there is an opponent on whom it should be used, it was not wrong to draw it."
- Gilgamesh said that with a cheerful voice.
- From then on, I was by his side.
- Those days raced by.
- "Since you appeared, my storehouses have been in disarray.
- I should not be flinging my treasures about. You've given me a ridiculous habit."
- He was still ever the collector,
- but sometimes, it seemed, he committed the new use of his treasures to memory.
- It was one of my few accomplishments.
- There was a demon named Humbaba.
- We combined our strength and defeated it.
- I asked Gilgamesh,
- "Why did we determine to defeat him?
- It was not an order from the gods.
- That said, neither should it have been for the sake of the people of Uruk."
- "Ah, was it not to protect Uruk?
- If do not to defeat all the evils of the earth, the people would starve, would they not?"
- Then why? I pressed.
- He was a tyrant to the people of Uruk.
- Why would this man worry of them?
- "It's no mystery.
- It is because I was born to protect humans.
- It is a king's duty to build up this world's future and civilization."
- He said that, looking far into the distance.
- It was so far off that I, who had been made for a similar purpose,
- Could not discern what he was looking at.
- "And are there not different sorts of guardians?
- I am not the sort who simply protects. Sometimes, even the north wind is a necessity."
- That time, I completely understood him.
- "So I see.
- In other words, you favor the path that is certain."
- He laughed, embarrassed.
- His smile was like the breeze, and for a moment I could see the boy he once was.
- ...I understood why he preferred loneliness.
- Because the path he chose
- Was one that he had to walk alone.
- He said he was protecting the far off future that he saw.
- For that reason, if the king were to detest the gods and hate people,
- He must be nothing but alone.
- The more he thought fondly about the future of mankind,
- The more disaffected he became. Even ruler must reap their own results.
- And the king held nothing but the outcome.
- He, who was greater than any human, could not intervene
- with the "brilliant machine" that would give birth to that conclusion.
- "Well, it seems the final result will become a dull fabric.
- But beyond that, I will see it to its end."
- To his boasting, I succumbed and said:
- "I am a tool. Something you will decide is unnecessary.
- But until the world's end, I can continue to be by your side."
- "Fool."
- I thought his relief was something I would see only once, and never again.
- "Isn't that good... That's..."
- He continued thus.
- At that moment, I received words that were as brilliant and precious as a glittering star.
- At that moment, I had a true meaning. An ego.
- ENKIDU'S DEATH
- ---------------------------------------
- This is our last story.
- A story about the rift between Gilgamesh and Ishtar,
- About our battle with the Bull of Heaven that Ishtar released,
- About my final moments.
- At Gilgamesh's side, the Bull of Heaven was driven off with that weapon,
- The dark clouds that enveloped the world parted, and the earth was saved from a great flood.
- As punishment for opposing the gods, I would be returned to a lump of clay.
- Gilgamesh collapsed and clung to me desperately.
- "I won't allow it! Why must you die?
- If retribution must be handed down, then it is I who should be punished!
- Everything is mine, and mine alone!"
- Again, the heavens wept.
- I could not see, but I counseled him.
- "There is no need to mourn. I am but a weapon.
- I'm nothing but one of your treasures.
- From now on, countless treasures will appear that surpass my strength.
- So there is no reason or worth in your to wetting your cheeks for me."
- Indeed. I was a weapon. A tool.
- I was different from him.
- Gilgamesh was a child of the gods, and a hero who defied them.
- Unlike me, he had "real" life.
- I was disposable. Unlike me, he was a star of infinite worth.
- ...I had always longed for such a purpose. Detested it.
- If we were made by the same father, why were we such different creatures?
- "You have worth. An incomparable worth.
- Here, I will declare it.
- In this world, I have but one companion.
- Because of that... your worth is eternal. Unchanging."
- I was a weapon.
- But more than a weapon, I was one that could, surely, be replaced by the next era's weapons.
- My worth and mystique were for this era alone.
- I thought myself different from him.
- Different from he, whose compensation was to be alone for eternity.
- ...I remember his words from that time.
- I remember him from the moment I declared myself a tool.
- "Fool.
- We live together, speak together, fight together.
- That does not make you a person, nor a weapon. Enkidu, I call you 'friend.'"
- .........ah.
- Such grave sin.
- While knowing the weak, he did not reflect on the weak.
- While knowing the strong, he did not acknowledge the strong.
- There were none whom he acknowledged.
- To continue on as a solitary king was his greatest belief.
- I had inflicted an eternal wound on his pride.
- Gradually, the rain weakened.
- I had returned to my former shape, a lump of the wasteland's earth.
- After that, all that was left were the king's howls, so great one would think they were thunder.
- My memories end there.
- I was already a vanished regret.
- From now on, this is your future.
- A tale for you, human, unlike me.
- ...so now, I want you to ask him something.
- "Do you still love humans?"
- "Do you still remember your friend's name?"
- Will you abandon the faults of that distant era?
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