Seth Rollens: I wish Viper would stop lurking and comes out for good, miss this fucker.
PrincessAsuka: Gah...
PrincessAsuka: It's all his fault.
PrincessAsuka: He put the nail in the coffin
Seth Rollens: Don't know why, even if I can see why he doesn't want to comeback I don't know he restricts himself from entering games.
PrincessAsuka: He made me love the game.
PrincessAsuka: "He is no friend of Hoshi..."
PrincessAsuka: >Team Hoshi and Team Viper team up next game to take down Brock Lesnar
PrincessAsuka: >Hoshi stabs Viper in the back
PrincessAsuka: >Viper is pissssssed
PrincessAsuka: I fucking loved it soooo much
Seth Rollens: What is funny to remark is that even back then games only had default events it didn't prevent them from writing history.
Seth Rollens: even if*
Seth Rollens: You have any contact with him ?
PrincessAsuka: Nope
PrincessAsuka: I don't even know who he is.
PrincessAsuka: And I want it to stay that way.
Seth Rollens: I know you would say that. Sometimes it's that one encounter that simply have to stay that way to preserve the magic.
PrincessAsuka: Nah
PrincessAsuka: I don't want to find out whether he's a big faggot or not.
PrincessAsuka: He's based as he is.
PrincessAsuka: And knowing details ruins it.
Seth Rollens: Kek. Do you sometime regret have known more about some avafags / added some people OOC ?
PrincessAsuka: Nah
PrincessAsuka: But I want to stop doing it now.
Seth Rollens: I know you said that Hoshi's friend backstabbing Hoshi and that Viper war influenced your presence here a lot and that without it you wouldn't be here, but is it really the case ? If you didn't have the idea to enter Hoshi's friend and if Viper didn't exist, would you still be here ?
PrincessAsuka: Nope
PrincessAsuka: I'd just get bored because I didn't win.
PrincessAsuka: And browse YLYL and other shit.
Seth Rollens: And you're sure you wouldn't have ever try to enter one of these threads again if you didn't win in that time span ?
PrincessAsuka: Yup
PrincessAsuka: I didn't really know any of the big memes in the games.
PrincessAsuka: I was addicted to other phone games.
PrincessAsuka: etc.
Seth Rollens: Still feels weird considering all the efforts you made for it right after and that you wouldn't did any of them if it wasn't for one game.
Seth Rollens: still feels weird hearing that*
Seth Rollens: How did you start hosting ?
PrincessAsuka: there was no game
PrincessAsuka: And I saw these guys hosting games
PrincessAsuka: and I was like
PrincessAsuka: >I can do this shit
PrincessAsuka: And I did it
PrincessAsuka: And I was like
PrincessAsuka: >I can do this shit... better than these faggots.
PrincessAsuka: Thus, the Hoshi games were born.
Seth Rollens: What was the reason why you initially started to host ?
PrincessAsuka: Because there was no game.
PrincessAsuka: And I wanted to understand the game better.
PrincessAsuka: And I wanted to recreate the perfect game.
Seth Rollens: And why ? For fame ? To satisfy your ego ? To prove others something ?
PrincessAsuka: Nah
PrincessAsuka: I did it for myself.
PrincessAsuka: Only myself, nothing to do with others.
PrincessAsuka: To learn
Seth Rollens: And why did you continue doing it ? What happened at the end of your first game ? How did you feel ?
PrincessAsuka: I don't remember.
PrincessAsuka: But I continued.
Seth Rollens: Was your goal to be the best ?
PrincessAsuka: Of course
PrincessAsuka: If your goal isn't to be the best, you should just quit.
Seth Rollens: And those who want to turn Hosting into a competitive shitfest will just kill it's purpose. Say that competition is good for business, it's an unhealthy goal to aim to be the best that will just drive you with things like jealousy, pride and greed, and ultimately kill the fun you have from hosting because you'll feel like it's never good enough.
PrincessAsuka: Yup
PrincessAsuka: That's what produces the best games.
PrincessAsuka: Sadly.
PrincessAsuka: Hosting is setting a goal
PrincessAsuka: And achieving that goal
PrincessAsuka: And setting bigger goals.
PrincessAsuka: You don't have to do it.
PrincessAsuka: But it's better if you do.
Seth Rollens: I don't care if my games are considered good or not, till I have the pleasure doing them I'm good with myself, knowing I'm not killing myself trying to aim for such a foolish goal. There's always someone better than you. It doesn't mean I don't put efforts in it, far from it, I simply don't seek a self-satisfaction like that.
PrincessAsuka: Well you'll start to feel it when people think your games are shit and becomes some filler before the next big game.
PrincessAsuka: There's nothing wrong with wanthing to do better than others.
Seth Rollens: I told you I didn't care.
PrincessAsuka: You're setting a bar.
PrincessAsuka: And whether that bar is something you create for yourself
PrincessAsuka: or someone else that you must surpsass
PrincessAsuka: It'll bring out the best in you.
PrincessAsuka: I've set my bars multiple times.
PrincessAsuka: Cancer Games especially.
PrincessAsuka: Someone has 700 events
PrincessAsuka: I'll hae 800
PrincessAsuka: and you can talk all you want about quality over quantity blah blah blah
PrincessAsuka: But I have my standards for events as well.
PrincessAsuka: So it's the numbers that matter at that point.
Seth Rollens: What is wrong is to starting to take this shit too seriously and that people start tearing each other apart again because of meaningless debates such as who is the best, why I am not considered as good as X and etc. that people start ruining each others' games out of spite. There isn't a single best, you can have some objectivety but nobody is the absolute best host, and never will.
PrincessAsuka: I'm not debating
PrincessAsuka: I'm making badass games.
PrincessAsuka: That's about it.
PrincessAsuka: Talk is bullshit
PrincessAsuka: debate is bullshit
PrincessAsuka: You can say what you don't like about another host.
PrincessAsuka: Everyone has that freedom
PrincessAsuka: But that means nothing to the games.
PrincessAsuka: They can tear each other all they want, the arguement is in the game itself.
PrincessAsuka: This isn't a battle of words and cock sizes.
PrincessAsuka: You might be disappointed in me for derailing games etc.
PrincessAsuka: But if those fuckers are going to talk shit about me, I'm not going to let them do it without me having a say in it.
PrincessAsuka: I'd rather quit hosting than tell people defending themselves or what they believe in to stop.
PrincessAsuka: They have every right.
PrincessAsuka: I just host the games.
PrincessAsuka: And people are free to do as they wish.
PrincessAsuka: If it gets derailed, I wasn't good enough.
PrincessAsuka: Because in the end, no matter how shit everything is, people will stick to a good game, people who love these games.
PrincessAsuka: Even if they don't reply, even if they don't post.
PrincessAsuka: I'm going to host the best damn games.
PrincessAsuka: No one can stop me.
PrincessAsuka: I'll get off my lazy ass to do animated winscreens or whatever some day.
PrincessAsuka: What's keeping me is my software, but I'll get to a point where I'll replace my laptop if it gets in my way.
PrincessAsuka: Because the more I try
PrincessAsuka: The better the games are
PrincessAsuka: and the happier the people are.
Seth Rollens: You're free to do what you want, do what you wish. Realize this on the other hand:
Seth Rollens: Nobody is a hero
Seth Rollens: Nobody will be THE savior of these games
PrincessAsuka: I'm just a man in a starmask, buddy.
PrincessAsuka: I've been saying that since day one.
PrincessAsuka: Day
PrincessAsuka: fucking
PrincessAsuka: one
PrincessAsuka: It's all these faggots who assume I'm trying to be something.
PrincessAsuka: Because of their insecurities.
PrincessAsuka: No
PrincessAsuka: I just do my best.
PrincessAsuka: And give all I have to what I love.
PrincessAsuka: Hoshi's trying to be a leader, hurr durr.
PrincessAsuka: I just go, "Is that what you think of me?"
PrincessAsuka: Then I'm doing my job.
Seth Rollens: With passion comes perfectionnism, I just don't want you to end up torturing yourself because you'll feel like you weren't good enough.
PrincessAsuka: I love the pain.
PrincessAsuka: I almost died
PrincessAsuka: hosting second prom.
PrincessAsuka: Emotional Physical Mental stress.
PrincessAsuka: I feel asleep
PrincessAsuka: and woke up
PrincessAsuka: and the game slides were finished
PrincessAsuka: I didn't even remember doing shit.
PrincessAsuka: That's how tired I was.
PrincessAsuka: Dissidia Games?
PrincessAsuka: 6 hours of hosting.
PrincessAsuka: A week of prep
PrincessAsuka: I'm never good enouhg
PrincessAsuka: Never enough events
PrincessAsuka: The winscreen isn't good enough.
PrincessAsuka: My commentary is shit.
PrincessAsuka: I'm not the best with roster swaps.
PrincessAsuka: I get gender wrong sometimes.
PrincessAsuka: I can't edit fast enough.
PrincessAsuka: My games are incomplete.
PrincessAsuka: I miss image limit sometimes.
PrincessAsuka: I do games without backgrounds because I'm lazy.
PrincessAsuka: I take to long to post slides.
PrincessAsuka: My backgrounds are boring.
PrincessAsuka: I don't give people who are dead enough to do.
PrincessAsuka: UIDs, I must always have higher UIDs.
PrincessAsuka: etc.
PrincessAsuka: There's a lot of shit
PrincessAsuka: right off the top of my head.
PrincessAsuka: I can't sit here thinking that I'm hot shit
PrincessAsuka: because I'm not.
PrincessAsuka: I have to revise my events to make them sound better, now that they're over 100
PrincessAsuka: I have to write a new season code for Prom.
PrincessAsuka: Etc.
PrincessAsuka: The list goes on and on.
PrincessAsuka: I would like to be able to eat while hosting. It would be great if I was that good at it.
Seth Rollens: And it's that kind of shit I want to prevent you from feeling and thinking, but if you love being a masochist so much then go for it since it doesn't matter what I say anyway. Just don't fucking die while hosting a game.
PrincessAsuka: It's not being a masochist
PrincessAsuka: pain is a natural part of process and metamorphisis.
PrincessAsuka: To avoid pain is to avoid improvement.
PrincessAsuka: For the games.
PrincessAsuka: I'll take the pain.
PrincessAsuka: Because I'll shine for that one moment I host.
PrincessAsuka: And that makes it all worth it.
PrincessAsuka: It's what we live for.
PrincessAsuka: Giving these people are reason to stay here.
PrincessAsuka: This wonderful place.
PrincessAsuka: And I'll help anyone who needs it to protect this legacy.
PrincessAsuka: Advice, events, backgrounds, tips and tricks, anything.
PrincessAsuka: I'm doing all I can possibly do.