I know you need time and space. That's why I'm making this document. The document you open and look at when you're ready to look at me with loving eyes again.

This is the list of reasons/things/whateveryoucallit why I love you:

1. Your eyes. The way they are incredible blue when you're happy and how they turn darker blue, grayish when you're unhappy.
    I love them, because through your eyes I can always see how you feel and that makes me feel secure. It makes me fee like
    I know you and that you're willing to share your thoughts with me.

2. Your blush. I know you always hide it, but it always comes out on our dates. Then you cover your face and when you blush
    and when you take the cushion or whatever else off your face, you show me your smile and the smile with your cheeks all
    red makes me have the most amazing butterflies in my stomach. It makes me happier than anything else on this planet.

3. Your smile. This kind of goes with the blush thing, but it's more general. When you're happy you smile in a certain way. Seeing
    or hearing you smile or laugh makes my heart skip a beat. It makes me get excited. I always want to share the happiness you
    feel and I can't always, but it's nice to know you feel it and it's comforting to see.

4. How caring you are. You always make sure I sleep. No matter what. You always take a little time out of your day to make sure I
    sleep some. Even if it's not enough, you always want me to try to sleep and that makes me feel looked after and cared for. I miss
    you caring for me.

5. Your sense of humour. You have the best and the worst sense of humour. You and I laugh a lot about the things we say and do, but
    more often than not, no one else thinks it's funny at all. I love the inside jokes we have, the shared laughters and the random laughing
   bursts we get when we remember old jokes or things that happened.

6. Your love for piercings. This might sound strange, but I love how much you like piercings. Talking about new ones you have. Thinking
    of getting new ones together and getting semi matching ones? (like the septum, so I start liking it.) Yea, I adore that about you. You're
   my alternative, mom would never approve, boyfriend, except you're perfect for me, no matter what mom says.

7. How organised you are. You organise everything. From your room, to flightrising. You just can't leave anything to chance and always have
    to have everything organised. I love that about you. It's an amazing feature for a person and it'll bring you a lot of opportunities someday.
    Don't loose it, it makes you super dorky and it makes me smile SO much, when you try to organise the mess of my life.

8. Your hair obsession. One of the first things you promised me when we first met, was that you were going to make my hair look good. You
    even spent a lot of time, that week you said that, looking at hairstyles that would fit me and that would look good on me. It was cute to see
   and I couldn't believe you would find a way to make my hair look good. Well you somehow do, even if you love it when my hair goes all messy.

9. Your music knowledge. We have like a gazillion songs for us, because you always find a fitting song for the situation. You always find a song
    that expresses how you feel so perfectly, it scares me. You've handled make-up sessions with music that made me cry, because the lyrics
    were so relevant. I love this about you.

10. How you take charge. You always kiss me first. You grab my hand to make sure I don't get lost. You tell me to cuddle up against you. You're
      the alpha in this relationship and you don't even know how good that feels. I don't have to worry about things, because you have it covered.
      You take control and that's really attractive. I know this sounds stupid, but it makes me feel safe within your arms, because I always know
      you got me. I might be a sucker because of this, but that's me. And if you ever can't take the lead, I always let you cuddle up to me to help
      carry the weight.

I think I should stop at 10. That's a good number. Once you read this, maybe make a list of songs that you think show us well or tell me how you feel about everything.
Even a hint to how we can save this relationship or if it's already saved at this stage, then yay.

I love you with my whole heart. You're my fiance and the man I want to marry. You're the one guy who makes me feel comfortable with who I am and what I look like.
You make me feel safe. And I hope you're willing to love me again. <3

I miss you

I love you a lottle.

You're my american dream

Forever yours
Heinrich Hohbach
(because you don't like it if I call myself Elliott)