[01:25] Skudzy: see like u dont even give me a chance to compliment you
you're doing it again
little retard
[01:25] Haerts: xD
hehe xd
[01:25] Skudzy: btw georg
[01:25] Haerts: yes afm
[01:25] Skudzy: how come we stopped talking cute things
:<
[01:26] Haerts: wot u mean???
[01:26] Skudzy: like
bae and cuddle talk and all that
i miss dat
[01:26] Haerts: i guess after all those serious chats the other week i thought id chill
and be more of a pal with you
[01:26] Skudzy: oh right
you wouldn't wana still do them tings?
[01:27] Haerts: I dont kno *-* but thought id take a step back from it
because its not fair for me to act like that with you and be like 'lol soz no relationship pls'
[01:27] Skudzy: yeah but
for example
without all the drama
do you prefer how it is now or how it was before
[01:28] Haerts: im happy as long as we are good and we are friends
minimum
that is my main priority
[01:28] Skudzy: minimum??
[01:28] Haerts: bcus i thought id lose u as a friend tbh
and i dont wna
and i thought if we kept going the way we were, we would end up falling out and not speaking
at all
[01:29] Skudzy: yeah
i mean yeah you're right
idk i mean i really liked what we had before but i was too selfish and tried to push it but i prob shoulda backed off and enjoyed it for what it was rather than trying to make it a thing
that's not to say i don't like what we have now ofc but yeah
[01:31] Haerts: thats true and thats what i kept thinking when you were pushing it like, but like you said its not fair for me to act like that with you if i have no intentions you know
and i really thought about it and i dont want to upset you or make things anymore complicated
[01:32] Skudzy: we can just talk about it you know
[01:32] Haerts: so I thought I'd be more chill and friendly with you
[01:32] Skudzy: whenever anything was like bothering me i'd talk to you about it
[01:33] Haerts: I don't talk about things that are bothering me very often
[01:33] Skudzy: i mean yeah i guess it would be best to take a step back
[01:33] Haerts: but i did try to tell you that
[01:33] Skudzy: yeah i know you don't b
[01:33] Haerts: why cant we just leave it as it is right now? but you didnt like that
[01:33] Skudzy: what do you mean?
[01:33] Haerts: so.. when we fell out and then you came back friendly i thought id just be more chill and friendly instead
[01:34] Skudzy: ohhhhh
tbh like
[01:34] Haerts: when we were talking about it and you were getting mad i jept saying like 'youre pushing me for something and trying give it a title and i dont want that.. why cant we just leave it as it is'
[01:34] Skudzy: i loved what we had, and i guess you loved it too
[01:34] Haerts: but you were too mad so
[01:34] Skudzy: but my feelings were just really strong that i just kinda lost the plot a little, and i guess you were right i was expecting too much
i'm sorry i got angry at you
but yea i was just really confused and probably expected too much as you said
it would have been nice to leave it as it was
things are sweet now too don't get me wrong, as long as we're close
[01:36] Haerts: I know and it's okay - but after everything kinda went a bit sour I thought it would be best to just remain really good friends c:
because i'd be super sad if we stopped talking :(
you will forever be my video game bae though
[01:37] Skudzy: yeah, i would too
[01:37] Haerts: best not ditch me for another e-girl
!!!!!!!
[01:37] Skudzy: does this mean you can't come visit at other points in the future ? :<
[01:37] Haerts: we will see ^^
[01:38] Skudzy: mmh ok
so you wana leave it at just friends ya? :3
[01:38] Haerts: but yeah basically, think if we carried on things we woud have just ended up falling out about things and it would have turned mega sour. As long as I've got your friendship im happy c:
I don't think it was fair for me to expect you to never want something serious from me
you're still my fave though :'c
[01:40] Skudzy: ahh dw about that
idk i just really thought it would happen
[01:40] Haerts: this is kinda sad lol ;-;
[01:40] Skudzy: because we're so good together
the best
well atleast i think so anyway, idk about ur opinion on it
but idk i felt a pretty strong connection to you tbh
[01:41] Haerts: never write it off the cards, never know what the future holds. I know we did get along really well ^^
but i think we should call it friends at the end of the day and see what happens
I don't want to be some girl who leads you on for months and months and then is like 'lol cya fam' at the end
[01:41] Skudzy: yeah i guess you're right
i'm really glad we can have this discussion
[01:42] Haerts: I'm impressed by how you've handled yourself
[01:42] Skudzy: hahaha what makes you say that
[01:42] Haerts: well.. you got pretty angry last time we tried to speak anything serious wise
[01:43] Skudzy: yeah i told you my feelings were all over the place
but since we've had some time apart
well not apart
but not 24/7 like it was
they've had some time to settle and for my thoughts to get in order
[01:43] Haerts: im glad c:
[01:43] Skudzy: this is gonna sound really bad
but please answer truthfully
[01:43] Haerts: yeah
[01:43] Skudzy: is it me or is it the timing
or is it both
[01:43] Haerts: hm
both I think
truthfully
[01:44] Skudzy: what makes you say that?
[01:44] Haerts: you know I really like you and think so much of you#
but there was always something missing for me you know? like that 100% attraction
but legit I wasn't using timing as an excuse
[01:44] Skudzy: what is it?
i just want to know as a learning experience
[01:44] Haerts: I got messed around way too much and legit was like 'no boys till i graduate' blah blah
[01:44] Skudzy: so i can better myself and move on
[01:45] Haerts: no its not something specific
like you know that 'spark' for me was missing
[01:45] Skudzy: you just didn't really feel that spark?
i see
[01:45] Haerts: despite me thinking the world of you
because i really do
[01:45] Skudzy: i mean it really hurts to hear you say that but i deffo appreciate you being honest with me
[01:46] Haerts: I know and I feel bad saying, but that is as honest as I can get
[01:46] Skudzy: yeah, and i thank you for it :3
[01:46] Haerts: you're amazing though <3
dont ever think you are just because im a little mess
you arent* LOL
[01:46] Skudzy: i'll always love you, you know that
you made me really happy through stressful times
and because of that
i've just started opening my mind to alot more things
and just doing whatever i can do better myself
such as the diets and the workouts and what not
and i have you to thank for that
you just make me better
[01:47] Haerts: aaaw ;-;
I'm glad though, and keep going like that ^^
you can always talk to me about anything
[01:48] Skudzy: yeah :>
[01:48] Haerts: and i will still motivate ur lazy ass
[01:48] Skudzy: haha
[01:48] Haerts: so next time i see you irl you better be looking buff yeah?
[01:48] Skudzy: LOOOL
gonna be hard to top what i already looked like but i'll give it my best shot
[01:48] Haerts: lmao
i believe
[01:49] Skudzy: :)