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- so is there a chance
- i acknowledge all the things you said and yes i fucked up
- i broke your trust, i was inconsiderate, and i put stress on you that i shouldn't have. i'm sorry
- i'm not even going to try justifying how i thought or acted back then at this point
- i'm not expecting us to be friends again just like that or anytime soon
- i just want a chance to be on better/talking terms
- like yea i acknowledge my mistakes and i'm running away from them at all
- i do think that if i was more self aware or we had better communication from the start it could've been avoidable
- or at least not reach the tipping point where everything was just spilled at once
- being self aware would've made communication easier and communication would've made me self aware immediately
- and possibly able to stop myself from further making you uncomfortable in other areas as well
- communication is such an important thing in friendship for both of us and i think we just didn't handle it well
- such that we communicated to each other about our own issues but not about each other unfortunately
- in any case, right now the only perceptions you yourself have of me are from more than a month ago
- a time where i was making mistake after mistake
- so i don't blame that those are valid reasons for not wanting anything to do with me then
- but i'm hoping by being on somewhat talking terms, i can at least be judged for what i've been doing since then and not the mistakes
- such that in the long term future we might have something with a resemblance to a friendship again
- for the short term, i'm not expecting things to just change. i'm not planning to try to be involved with your business anytime soon
- for the most part, we'll still just be living our separate lives
- because i do understand that if we were to be friends again in the future, it's going to take a lot more time than what has passed
- and of course i know that when you lose trust in someone it's hard to regain it, and i can't guarantee you'll trust me like that again
- but no one can tell how things will go
- i guess my stance is that even if we can't be friends now, i don't want to shut the door completely on that potential
- despite all my messups, considering how things were in the months before that
- i'd like to believe we were both trying to be genuine in the friendship
- and i don't want to give that up
- to be honest, deep down, i wanted us to be like "partners in crime" i guess
- where we'd just be really good friends with similar personalities that can support each other as we both go through life
- because it's super hard to find someone that understands how i think so much
- not trying to justify how i acted, but if i really were to think hard about why it felt like i was treating you differently
- that would be it
- obviously that's not possible now, and i realised towards the later months i wasn't letting the friendship develop in a healthy way
- but i want to at least hold on to this connection instead of letting it die completely and permanently
- i know all those things you said are justified
- but a big part of why i took a month to say anything in the first place is that as much as i wanted to reach out to you sooner
- i wanted to make sure i'd actively worked on myself to where i felt i was in a good enough spot
- to never let this sort of thing happen again to anyone i interact with
- regardless of how talking to you turned out, even though being able to show you would still be good
- in any case, i'm really truly sorry for ever putting you through what i did
- i know i said a lot but this is actually the last thing i'll badger you about
- if after reading all that i said, you can see where i'm coming from
- and think we can at least give that small shot at improving our terms
- even if we're not going to be friends in the near future, to give time to potentially reconcile in the long term
- or if you've something to ask/clarify regarding what i said
- let me know
- but if you genuinely think there's no chance and you want to end this completely
- i promise you that i'll respect it and won't bother you
- i just hope that even if that's the case, you'll forgive me for my mistakes
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