X-files Part 10 The Izzy Talk

[01:29]	Arkalest	Sam: Later that week, on a late evening- Nearly 11 PM- Someone knocks on your door.
[01:30]	Sam	rubs his eyes and sets the book he was reading on his lap. "Come in?"
[01:32]	Arkalest	Izzy trots in, wearing a pair of jean and a t-shirt. "Hey." She sounds tired.
[01:33]	Sam	"Hey yourself. You're up awfully late."
[01:38]	Arkalest	"So are you." She trundles over to your bed, flopping down.
[01:39]	Sam	"Well, not like I was getting much sleep anyways, and it beats laying in bed doing nothing."
[01:39]	Arkalest	"Sort of wanted to check on you. They're squeezing the life outta you as well, I guessed."
[01:40]	Sam	"Some, I don't really mind though. I'm kinda glad they've been keeping me busy, and even if they weren't I'd be going about this pace anyways."
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[01:46]	Arkalest	Izzy barely hides her frown, head low. "I....See."
[01:48]	Sam	"look. I. . . Sorry. . . I guess I ain't doing you any favors. But it's. . . This is something that I can. . . I. . . that I can focus on."
[01:53]	Arkalest	"No it's..It's okay, man." She rubs her neck, looking down as she does so. "I guess we all...Got our objectives?"
[01:54]	Sam	"More like. .  . I'
[01:55]	Sam	"I'm not really sure how to do anything else really. I just. . . this kind of thing is familar, but trying to. . . I dunno, do more with myself? For myself? I don't even know how to start, and considering what I want. . . it's probably better if I don't, at least not yet."
[01:58]	Arkalest	"..........Yeah."
[01:59]	Arkalest	Izzy sighs, her hands tormenting the coves in a estless motion. "I suppose it's...It's a thing that needs to be...Addressed."
[01:59]	Sam	"They've got me signed up for therapy here actually."
[01:59]	Sam	"It's a start I guess."
[02:00]	Sam	"I'm just. . . sorry to see you hurting over this." he says quietly.
[02:01]	Arkalest	"No, it's..Okay. " She tires to make a dismissive hand gesture. "Can't help it."
[02:01]	Arkalest	"Just...Take care of yourself, okay? Don't give up.."
[02:02]	Sam	"I didn't give up before, I ain't planning on doing so now."
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[02:05]	Sam	"What about yourself? You seem pretty. . . down here, things not going like you'd hoped or. . .?" He leans over and pats her back reassuringly.
[02:06]	Arkalest	Sam: It tenses a bit under her touch. "Nah, 's fine. they're just...Wringing every drop of attention i have." She touchess her temples, shaking her head. "You can spend onl so much time concentraing."
[02:07]	Sam	"It drains and wears on you like nothing else will. . . Maybe some time off for you to relax is in order?"
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[02:08]	Arkalest	"Yeah...Maybe visit my parents..."
[02:09]	Sam	nods. "Be good for all of you I think.'
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[02:10]	Arkalest	"......Yeah."
[02:11]	Arkalest	There's an awkward silence, and then she looks away. "I...Thik I should go..."
[02:12]	Sam	"Izzy, I'm. . . not sure what it is you want to ask me, but. . . I won't ever think poorly of you just for asking a question."
[02:16]	Arkalest	She works her mouth. "I.....Nevermind, it was a silly one. I can wait."
[02:17]	Sam	"Just cuz you can doesn't mean you should. But it's up to you." Sam sighs
[02:20]	Arkalest	".............Yeah." Izzy stands up, and reaches for the door- But not before shooting you one last  longing, lingering glance. "...good night."
[02:21]	Sam	nods, not quit sure how to respond.
[02:22]	Arkalest	Sam: You feel someone's gaze drill into your back.
[02:23]	Sam	"Think I should go after her then?"
[02:26]	Arkalest	Sam: Neph looks up from her position at the feet of your bed- A tentacle slithers off her back and undulates in a sort of questioning motion
[02:27]	Sam	turns to Neph with a downcast face. "I just don't really know what to do. I. . . She's a good friend, better than I deserve really. I just. .I don't think I could. . . do her right like that but. . fuck this ain't doing her any favors as things stand."
[02:33]	Arkalest	The dog nods slowly,  and trots over to you, sitting down next to you as to tell you to continue talking.
[02:34]	Sam	"I just. . . I can't say I don't /like/ the idea but. . She deserves better, and if I thought I was good enough I would without hesitation but. . . I don't think I am. Not sure I ever would be."
[02:35]	Sam	"And I'm pretty sure that's the worst possible thing I could say to her."
[02:39]	Arkalest	Neph sighs, and butts her head against your knee.
[02:40]	Sam	"/me pats Neph on the head and takes a deep breathe. "I want to be wrong I think. And. . . so much of what I though I knew turned out to be false that . . . well I probably will be wrong about that, won't I?"
[02:48]	Arkalest	She nods again, eyes closed.
[02:49]	Sam	"Well. . ." Sam stands up "I best get going before I lose my nerve." He quietly heads to Izzy's room, hoping she's there.