Before I start any of this, I would like to mention that this is not going to be written in one sitting whatsoever, partly because I have work in the middle of typing this and partly because I don't want this to turn into a wall of text completely unrelated to the given topic. For the same of starting simple, I'm going to start with something that is easier for me to explain: physical feelings.
	These come and go quite often, and some are stronger than others. The most common, though, is the feeling of paws. If my hands are not in use (like they are right now typing this out), they.. don't feel like hands. I feel like I'd have less control over them to an extent as they feel as though they have a completely different form than their physical one, and this sensation is incredibly real. If the tips of my fingers bump into anything while I feel this the sensation seems incredibly jarring and almost comes as a surprise when it doesn't feel like the tips of claws collided with that object. On top of this, if there's any form of breeze, I can feel it against what seems almost like fur as it shifts around slightly in the wind.
	Depending on comfort level and/or how awake I am, I can also feel a general sensation of fur, much like on my paws. If I'm tired, extremely stressed, or extremely calm I suddenly feel incredibly warm and I feel the weight of thick fur. I immediately have to change into the lightest clothes I can find at the time else I feel like I'm roasting in an oven. Much like before, the feeling of fur shifting in a breeze is very strong when this occurs, and the feeling of anything brushing against me feels vastly different. There are times that I sat there, brushing my hand against my arm slowly just because of how different it felt.
	The next common is FAR less common, happening once every couple weeks or so rather than a near daily basis. The feeling of a tail. There are days that I can't properly sit down in half of the chairs in this house because they don't have an opening in the back. I feel like I'm either sitting on it or I'm pinching it horribly as I sit. I also feel a weight shifting as I walk, and people have many times picked up on this acting why my hips sway more than the day before as I walk. Doors can also be evil, as well, because if I shut a door behind me and I'm too close I'll actually jump a little, feeling like I'm caught in said door. (Note: This is a rare occurrence, but it is one I feel should be mentioned). Again, the feeling of fur exists. At one point, I actually bought an artificial tail at an anime convention I was dragged to. I ended up wearing it when I wasn't around my parents, and even just the weight and the feeling of it swaying as I walked was very familiar and almost comforting, as for once it wasn't illusionary. It seems as though my mind tried to interpret subtle movements as something, though, as I became able to tell when someone even lightly tapped it. For obvious reasons, however, I can't exactly always have a fake wolf tail clipped to my jeans, so it was only on during increasingly rare occasions. Removing the tail left an incredibly odd sensation, still feeling the tail should be there, and the feeling of having a tail would remain for a few hours, sometimes days afterwards.
	The way I walk, while this is hardly an issue anymore, used to be relatively odd when I was younger, and I feel it should be mentioned. When I was really little, I'd often find myself not using my entire foot whenever I had no shoes to force my foot to be flatter. My heal would almost always be ~3 inches from the ground with every step, only being against the ground when I was standing still and I noticed my muscles began to ache from the unnatural movement. This rarely happens anymore, however, due to the fact that I've become more... conscious about how I walk regularly.
	There's another factor that I've always chalked towards stress, and it probably is a stress response, but whenever I'm busy or need to pay really close attention to something, things almost seem louder and more pronounced. On top of this, I become sensitive to certain smells, almost to the extent that it can be nauseating simply due to how strong they seem. A perfume I could normally tolerate will suddenly make me gag. I'll suddenly smell food from other departments of the store entirely, although I'm unsure if that's an actual event or my mind playing tricks on me. Something being dropped such as a coin is even more noticable. Again, though, I do count this under a stress response, but I want to list it. Due to how I feel about it, this is towards the bottom of this section even though it's common.
	The rarest, however, is the feeling of an entirely different facial structure. This is odd, and happens rarely enough that I can't truly describe the feeling. The most I can truly say is that I've tried doing basic things such as propping my head up with my hand only to find that I completely missed my chin by putting my hand where I felt my chin should be. Again, this is very VERY rare.


	I do understand that, physically, I am human in body. I to an extent appreciate that fact, because the life of a human is longer than a wolf's and we have so much more to use to our advantage with modern technology. For this reason, I am mostly fine with physically being human. However, it still feels rather.. unnatural... like I'm not MEANT to be human. There are days I just feel trapped by the fact that I have this form, because with it comes expectations and requirements that just.. don't feel right. Hell, even the body doesn't feel right most of the time until I start effectively feeling a different one. I've become very reserved as a result, and am practically incapable of actually acting the way I want due to fear of... well.. nothing. I know that makes no sense, but.. I don't know what I'm actually afraid of. I just can't bring myself to do it. Even by myself, alone, I can't bring myself to act in ways that would feel natural instead of forcing myself to act in a way that I'd be expected to act. I hold myself back constantly. Yet.. it's gone so long that I can't even truly pick specifics. All I know is lately I've been hitting those mental barriers harder than I have in my entire life, and it's confusing the hell out of me every time.