The Burden of Life [Twilight] (Sad Feels)

>Princess Twilight Sparkle slowly walked over to the balcony of her castle
>Looking out over the Everfree, Ponyville, and the Sweet Apple Acres, she realized that this too had become another redundant habit that she would do
>Putting her front hooves up on the railing, she sighed to herself as she watched another sunset
>TS: "This sure is something that I've seen way too many times..."
>She looks down in sadness
>Agony has been her closest friend for the last few centuries
>She looks back up at the horizon, watching as the last glow of orange finally disappeared behind the land
>TS: "I wonder if the sun may ever set for me"
>She sighs again as a Royal Guard walks up to her from the castle
>RG: "Uh, Princess Twilight, someone's here to see you."
>Without acknowledging the Guard, she continues to peer into the distance with a weak
>TS: "...Send them in..."
>?: "Princess Twilight?"
>That voice, a voice that Twilight had grown accustomed to. It was the voice of her student.
>TS: "Nebulana! My faithful student! How have your studies been progressing?"
>She was a small filly, she had a blue mane with a coat slightly lighter than that
>But she had a look of concern on her face, she was worried about something
>TS: "Are you alright? Is there anything I can help you with?"
>N: "A-are you okay Twilight?"

>Twilight took a step back, confused at the unusual question
>Unlike her old friend Applejack, who had come to pass many centuries back, she had the ability to tell a lie if needed
>TS: "Of course, silly. Why do you ask?"
>The younger mare looked at the ground while scratching at the marble tiles with her hooves
>She finally works up the courage to say
>N: "Because I don't remember the last time I've seen you smile."
>TS: "Oh, um... we-
>N: "Its just like you don't want to deal with me anymore"
>Twilight started to form tears in her eyes
>She had never realized that her own apathetic take on life was now affecting the one pony that she could now even call a friend
>The student started to raise her voice at her master
>N: "And I know you're lying to me! You aren't okay! You haven't been okay in years!"
>Twilight is about to break down
>N: "What is wrong with you?!"
>That did it
>Twin rivers formed underneath the princess's eyes as she sobbed away as if she were a little child playing with her brother
>Nebulana stood their, waiting for an answer
>Twilight had been so exhausted of hiding her sadness toward life from the ponies that knew her. She couldn't appear to be weak, she was a champ
>But, with time comes change. Twilight knows this first hand. She is the very essence of change
>She had to say it
>She had to tell what has been on her mind for the last few centuries
>She had to free her soul from this burden
>After her sobs calmed down, she looked back up Nebulana, whom adopted a face of curiosity at her movement
>Twilight faintly smiled at her student, before placing a hoof on her cheek
>TS: "Oh Nebulana, you've truly grown into quite the mare."
>She looked back down, tears still in her eyes
>TS: "I can tell that there's no fooling you."
>She sighs before continuing
>TS: "If you want to know the truth, I'll tell you..."
>Nebulana just stared at her in wonderment
>TS: "Well the truth is..."

>TS: "...that I'm just tired."
>Nebulana grew frustrated
>N: "Tired? All this because you were a little sleepy?"
>TS: "Of course not, my little pony. Just listen to what I am about to reveal to you, alright?"
>N: "Okay... I'm sorry"
>Realizing her sudden outbursts may have been having a negative effect on her mentor, she told herself not to interrupt anymore
>TS: "Don't worry about it" and she shot back an appreciative smile
>TS: "I don't mean tired as in I want to take a nap. I mean it as... well..."
>Twilight struggled on how to explain that she wanted to end her life, as she had already completed her aspirations long before
>TS: "It's just that being an Alicorn really took its toll on me."
>N: "B-but how? You get to live forever! That's totally awesome!"
>Twilight chuckled to herself at the thought
>TS: "I used to think that too..."
>She pauses, planning out exactly what to say
>TS: "Have I ever told you the story of the mane 6?
>N: "Yah! You and your best friends went on adventures and destroyed enemies and stuff!" She says as she hops to her hooves in an excited manner
>TS: "Yah... we really were something. I wouldn't be anything without their friendship."
>Twilight sighs, reluctantly stating her point
>TS: "So watching them leave me for the afterlife, one by one..."
>Twilight looked burdened by her own depression
>TS: "I may never see them again. And its not because they've died off..."
>She whispers out
>TS: "Its because I didn't..."
>The two ponies are both at a loss for words
>N: "I, um, I'm so sorry Princess. I didn't know"
>TS: "Only if that was the only problem that I had to deal with"

>Nebulana was confused
>N: "Huh? But, what could be worse than that?"
>Twilight pointed her hoof towards Ponyville
>Twilight had flashbacks to her friends.

>She remembered the ecstatic Pinkie Pie, who's tasty pastries could be smelled from a mile away
>She remembered Rainbow Dash, the daredevil pony who would never give up
>She remembered Applejack, the pony who would never tell a lie, the one with the incredible work ethic
>She remembered Fluttershy, who preached that kindness always was the solution
>She remembered Rarity, who knew that reward would come through meticulous effort and generosity
>She especially remembered Spike, who was her number one assistant

>Twilight comes back to reality
>TS: "Before I became a princess, Ponyville used to be the stomping grounds of me, my friends, and the whole town which seemed to function as one nice friendly unit."
>Twilight sighs
>TS: "I wouldn't go five feet before someone I knew showed up. Sometimes we could talk, sometimes we would play, sometimes we would relax."
>Twilight looks back down, sits on her haunches
>TS: "Nopony that I've ever truly known is alive anymore. They're all gone..."
>Nebulana didn't understand, she was a princess, she could just make friends right?
>N: "Can't you just go out to Ponyville again, and make new friends?"
>TS: "I wish it was that easy..."
>Twilight thinks about the burden of being a princess
>TS: "Every time I walk anywhere, I am treated like I am some kind of goddess. To the point where I can't just be considered an equal friend! I am always the master pony. Ponies do unnecessary favors for me, they bow to me. Oh and that's something I hate, when everypony bows to me! I am just a pony, don't make me out to be the great regal leader! Let's just put it like this. I haven't met a pony that has gotten to know me as a friend, besides you, in centuries."
>Twilight looks out to the darkening sky
>TS: "Even my old princesses have left me. Cadence, Luna, and even Celestia."

>Nebulana formed an idea in her mind
>N: "But they were all Alicorns and they've moved on. That means eventually it, well, you know, it should happen to you to!"
>Twilight's expression of agony does not change
>N: "It should work, right?"
>TS: "It doesn't work like that my faithful student... they were all born princesses, they weren't given eternal lives, just longer ones"
>N: "But you're an alicorn too!"
>TS: "But I was transformed into one. My life may never end. I may have been burdened with immortality."
>N: "Why would Celestia do that to you?"
>TS: "Oh, well she couldn't have known, it was totally beyond her knowledge, beyond anypony's knowledge, she helped shape me into the pony that I am today. Or at least the pony I was..."
>TS: "I don't have anything against her. I loved her."
>Twilight thought about that phrase.
>The pony I was
>The pony I WAS
>TS: "The pony I was..."
>Nebulana looked at Twilight with clear focus and respect
>TS: "You know, I used to be quite the pony. I would read my books, learn about friendship..."
>TS: "But I was adventurous too. I fought off many villains with my girls, enemies like Nightmare Moon, Sombra..."
>TS: "Not many knew that I was actually a little more athletic than I appeared. I showed everypony when I placed 5th in that Running of the Leaves Race" she chuckles
>TS: "But that was the past. None of that remains."
>N: "What do you mean?"
>TS: "Well, I've lost everything. I learned all there is to learn, there is no more enemies to fight, friendship is a concept long gone to me..."
>TS: "I can't even bring myself to read anymore..."
>Nebulana, for the first time in her life, took pity upon the Princess.
>N: "I'm, I just, I'm so sorry for you Princess."
>TS: "Yah, I know..."
>Twilight looks into the darkness, creeping up on the ponies

>TS: "Yah, I'm just tired. I should have died long ago. I have lived for far longer than good. I can't go on like this forever. I need to die."
>Nebulana started crying at the statement her mentor made
>Twilight wouldn't stop, she couldn't stop. Not now.
>TS: "Life for me is too difficult now. Even with all the influence that I have over all the ponies in Equestria, my life in a sense has dribbled down into nothingness. I don't have anypony to be friends with, nor do I have anything to live for. My life is complete, yet I must linger on."
>Twilight closes her eyes

>TS: "And, I just want to complete my life so that I may go to a place where things are right. Being a Princess, its just not me. I long so desperately for the days in which i could just throw sleepovers with my friends. I miss the days where my friends and I were equals with each other. I miss the days where I could just lie on the park bench with a good book, learning about some character's adventure. But I just truly miss the days where I was just another mare. Just another mare with her friends. My friends..."

>Twilight reveals her true feelings
>She finally did it
>Her student now knows
>Nebulana has one more question to ask
>Twilight settles down as she fires away
>N: "Princess?"
>TS: "Yes?"

>N: "W-will I turn into an alicorn?"

>Twilight looks back to her student, smiling at her, she puts a hoof to pet her mane
>TS: "Of course not. I would never do something like that to you.
>N: "Thank you. Princess Twilight"

>Nebulana eventually goes home, yet Twilight remains on the balcony all by herself in the darkness
>Peering into the vast night that wrapped around her, she could only think one thing
>TS: "May I ever see my friends, may things go back to the way they were?"
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