eeeeeeeh wow :x that somehow kinda hit me harder than when you were mad at me. I'm glad you told me what the letter was about, because if you'd just given it to me I'd have assumed that you were trying to passive-aggressively shit on me (which isn't the case I know). I suppose the reason that kind of upset me is because I recognize I do the stuff... but I have a few bits where I want to explain myself

We are guilty of treating your tulpas more like entertainment than people, and we've been making an effort to change that, but honestly it's kind of hard to really grasp the personhood of someone else's imaginary friend that comes from a book they wrote when they were 16. I'm consciously aware of their personhood, but when someone is three or so layers deep in what is typically considered fiction, it comes a lot more naturally to treat them as entertainment. That said, it's not an excuse, and we need to stop it.

As for the Lorne thing, I'm almost sure I've said this before, but I find it really hard to try to publicly exercise any skill I have without a guarantee that I won't fuck it up and humiliate myself (yes it's going to be another tangent just read it there's a point). I used to do that a lot, and I'd end up hurting myself or someone else /and/ myself, and everyone would look at me like I was from mars and just interact with me in a really weird way, and I could just tell that I'd become "that weird kid" and I couldn't stand it :I I didn't try to help Lorne because I have no idea what to do, or say, or anything that could help other than just talking to her. I figured that it would be the most helpful thing I could actually do, and I didn't think it would seem irreverent or uncaring, and I couldn't really bring myself to do anything else. If I don't talk to her until she's feeling better, I lose because I'm a shitty fairweather friend, if I try to help I lose because I have no clue what to do and I'll trip over my feet and either ruin the friendship or paint an embarrassing picture of myself in front of one of the few people I consider a friend, and if I just talk to her normally I lose because I'm not trying hard enough. Uuuuuuuuugh.

I never tried to tell you who you can or can't be friends with, I've told you that I never tried to tell you who you can or can't be friends with, I've said this like 7 times now and I'm seriously sick of you accusing me of this.

Again, like I've said time and again, I am actually trying to misjudge Cordy, but I never ever see him speak, and I only hear about the creepy stuff he does, and then you whine about me assuming he is like you lead me to believe he is.

I agree with the last paragraph, although I can't get how passive aggressive it seems out of my head :II

yay shitty feels