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Please forgive me for what I had to do. I can't lose you. Even in the face of the Apocalypse itself, I just can't. Not you, not your sister, not my sister. Difference is, I know Midnight and Ros will do just fine making sure Anya stays safe. Ros needs to be careful not to heal, but he can do it. I believe in him.

You two, though? You've got the worst of it. The Apocalypse fell harder on you than even the Garou. I won't let you eat your own and be eaten. I won't let her ruin herself. I promise. I owe it to you. That's why I had to do what I did. That's why I brought you all the way out here, away from prying eyes. I'm sorry if I hurt you both. But when this all ends, if it ends, I'd rather you be alive.

Even if I'm not.

As a Garou, I have a duty to fight the Wyrm. Even if I try to hide from the Apocalypse, the Apocalypse will find me. I know that. I know I could easily die before it's all over. I'd rather die keeping you safe. Knowing when you wake up, if you wake up, it'll all be over. You'll be okay.

I don't know if you can hear me. You're in deep sleep now, the both of you. I put you in a closet to keep you safe from the sun. I tried so hard not to hurt you. I hope so much that it was enough. But I want to tell you, before the Dancers come knocking on the door to this cabin. I want to tell you I love you and I hate that I had to do this to you. I want to tell you that it's truly been an honor to be married to you. I'll wear this ring all the way to my grave, and I hope you will, too.

I want to tell you that at the end of this, maybe you'll see the light again, like you always wanted. Like we always talked about. You have to face the night before you can see the sunrise, I guess. You'll see it, and your sister, and Anya, and Ros, and all of you...

I guess I just don't know if I'll be there to join you.

I want to be. Truly, I do. But the Wyrm is a great and terrible beast. Even the threat of a manifestation has brought down entire tribes. Now that the Apocalypse is here, it could spell the end for the entire Garou Nation. I think this finally proves that you weren't tainted all along. If you were tainted, you would thrive at the hands of the Wyrm. Not suffer, like you did. I guess now it might be my turn to suffer.

I guess I just wanted to say, sitting here in front of this closet, that, well... I love you, Jackdaw. I love you and I don't think I've said it enough.

And I just wanted the chance to say it one last time.