Spaghettio

Listen, when I write this I am not sure what my desired reaction is, I guess just understanding.

The thing that I value the most in a relationship is that the person can make me happy and you make me happier than I can imagine. I have been contemplating telling you for a long time and I guess I waited too long. For a long time I kept brushing the feeling aside, not wanting to ruin the friendship which we have. When I heard that you were with Matt, I guess I never really got over the idea that one day we were going to be together and I felt really sad. Listen Sonic, I don't want you to break up with Matt, I don't even know if there is any mutual feeling, what I do know is this. I hate waking up, I hate going to school, I hate the fact I don't have friends, I hate that my parents or teachers don't think that I am enough, and when I get home I have to do assignments that I don't enjoy and are not useful. I know that this sounds like I am guilting you into taking a step which clearly would get in the way of you being happy, but I have all these problems in life and time in and time out you are the only one who cares enough to talk to me and support me when I am down. You make me happier than I can even describe day after day, no matter how bad I feel. I just thought that you should know that I want to be with you. Please do not do anything because of this, I still want to be your friend and I know that Matt makes you happy.