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- Noiz Dramatical Murder Re:connect Bad End:
- Do you want to relax already?
- Do you want to give up?
- Do you want to rest?
- Do you want to sleep?
- Is it okay to not open my eyes anymore?
- Is it okay to stop trying so hard?
- Is it okay to quit?
- I don’t know pain.
- Whether it’s paralysis or whatever, I don’t have a functioning sense of pain.
- Because I don’t know bodily pain, I of course don’t know what mental pain is.
- That was just a normal thing for me.
- I thought it was no big deal, that that was my reality.
- But it seemed like it caused trouble for people around me for some reason.
- When was it I realized I couldn’t feel pain.
- I don’t remember.
- The discipline in my house was severe, and my child’s body knew just how to fight against it.
- I don’t know if it was because of that, but…
- I would fall, cut my knee, rub the blood between my fingers, and go show my mom as I laughed.
- Because the red liquid flowing from my knee was so interesting.
- When mom saw that she twisted her face up and made me stop, confused.
- When I saw her reaction I became excessively happy.
- Mom, who usually showed such a stiff expression, looked confused, possibly because of me.
- I also fell down the stairs while climbing it carelessly.
- But it didn’t hurt, it was just a little hard to walk, so I went home just like that.
- It wasn’t till a while later that someone noticed it was broken, and because of that it took a while to cure.
- When I was in a fight and broke a finger on my left hand, I left it be and it became hard to bend.
- Nothing really long-lasting happened during the other fights, it’s just this finger that bothers me even now.
- As expected of my parents, they finally realized how strange I was and took me to the hospital, but they couldn’t find anything strange.
- They didn’t know a way to fix it, we all felt kind of spooked, but in any case there was nothing to be done.
- Because I didn’t know the pain of being hurt meant that of course I didn’t understand other’s pain.
- That’s why I didn’t know how much it hurt others when I fought.
- When my opponent would cry, I would wonder why the hell they were crying.
- An adult would always come around at that time and while protecting their child they would say decidedly.
- “Apologize properly! You may just be messing around but you can’t be so strong that they cry!”
- So strong they cry.
- How much is that?
- I didn’t understand that at all.
- At some point I became a hoodlum and got into all sorts of fights.
- I never lost at a fight.
- Because I wasn’t scared to hit people, or to be hit by them.
- Normally when you go to hit someone you’ll feel hesitation or fear of being hurt in response, right?
- It would hurt to be hit and you could imagine how the other would feel to be hit.
- But, that was useless for me, who didn’t understand pain.
- It didn’t hurt if I was hit so I didn’t know the other’s pain.
- At first I thought fighting and playing were the same thing.
- Seeing the kid crying after I hit him I wondered why he would cry over such a little thing.
- But as the fights piled up, I noticed my opponents seriously starting to hate me.
- Everyone isn’t playing. They hate me.
- I was shocked when I realized that.
- I was confused, wondering why in the world they would start to hate me.
- How should I become friends with everyone? There were times when I thought that, too.
- Thinking it may be fine if I didn’t fight, I stopped for a while.
- But, the fights wouldn’t stop coming to me and in that time my guilt started to lessen.
- If they feel like they should hit me, then I should do the same.
- They hate me, but why do I have to be the one worrying about it?
- I started to think that and I became feared by the people around me.
- It wasn’t just strangers, it was my parents too.
- They were the types who cherished their pride and appearance, and I think they seriously started to think that I, who kept causing trouble, was annoying.
- It was only my little brother who cared for me but my parents decided that he couldn’t be allowed near me.
- My brother was different from me, because he was a child who could feel pain.
- I don’t remember what number fight it was when I broke the kid’s teeth, but my parents dragged me away a room.
- That wasn’t my room, it had a toilet, a bath, and even a simple kitchen and fridge in it.
- My house is large so I guess I didn’t notice that my parents redid this one empty room.
- That room literally became my “castle”.
- I wasn’t allowed even one step out of that room, and my childhood basically passed in that room.
- When I was locked up in that room I would cry out and yell as I pounded on the door.
- But no matter how long I waited the door wouldn’t open.
- A maid carried meals and snacks and stuff to the room and slid them in through a small window like door in the door that had a key.
- I was dealt with like a prisoner.
- Even though we’re family.
- I cried and yelled thoroughly, and pleased to be saved.
- I would be violent, wound myself, and cry again.
- A lot of days passed like that but one day I squatted down and thought to myself.
- No one is going to save me even if I scream and cry.
- Even if I hurt myself, no one.
- If so… I have to live so that I can live on my own.
- No.
- I “can live even if I’m alone”.
- I became enveloped in that thought.
- To me, that became the truth.
- If I could live alone, no one else around me mattered.
- If no one cared whether I lived or died, I could think like that about others.
- That became the “natural” way for me to live.
- Like that, other than myself the reality around me was vague.
- What face, that hairstyle, what clothes.
- Everyone was the same.
- They were like dolls to me.
- No one would understand me, so I had no reason to tell them about me.
- But even so some one strange person really did understand.
- That was me.
- Me, who was spat out by the world.
- Doesn’t change whether I’m here or not.
- The fact I can live alone means it doesn’t matter whether I’m here or not.
- Other than not feeling pain, I could also barely feel others touching me.
- The only thing that could really feel was my tongue.
- For some strange chance I could always feel a strange, new feeling when I bit or twisted my tongue.
- Even when I decided to pierce my whole body to “make a hole” out of it, only my tongue hurt.
- Ahh, this is pain, that’s what I thought.
- That’s why I felt strangely moved and uplifted when I pierced my tongue.
- But I got used to it fat.
- Of course, just one part couldn’t make me understand pain well.
- I just started to think that it was by chance that that one part of me could feel, unlike the others.
- For me, who couldn’t feel any pain at all, there was Rhyme.
- Rhyme was a game where your brain “was attacked,” and your body would feel false pain.
- This was pretty groundbreaking to me and when I first played I felt just like I had the first time I got my tongue pierced.
- This is what pain is, I thought.
- But, no matter how much it hurt it obviously didn’t come close to the real thing.
- That thought was always in the corner of my mind, sneering at me.
- But it was a place where I could feel pain so I continued it.
- I, who won fights in real life, held many victories in Rhyme as well.
- It must have been because I didn’t feel pain.
- No matter what happened I could calmly evaluate what happened and think up a counter attack.
- If I lost because I knew pain, wasn’t it better that I didn’t know it?
- What kind of a profit would knowing pain bring anyway?
- I don’t need pain.
- To me who thought that…
- There was a guy who fought who knew “losing pain”.
- That was Aoba.
- When I was on a roll in Rhyme I decided I wanted to fight a veteran player.
- I started to investigate on who the strongest one was.
- As I did I found someone who had a succession of victories, just like me.
- “Sly Blue”.
- When I researched him he didn’t play Rhyme anymore, but I was really interested in him.
- I wanted to try fighting someone as strong as him.
- As I continued to research “Sly Blue” I ran into Aoba.
- And I challenged him.
- It wasn’t formal, an informal, raw battle.
- N: …It’s my pleasure to take on this battle. (Or something)
- …The result was my overwhelming defeat.
- Impossible.
- Up until then I hadn’t lost a fight or Rhyme. I thought it was obvious that I would win.
- That’s why I.
- Lost at Rhyme.
- When I came to terms with that fact, my chest throbbed and the back of my neck throbbed with annoying heat.
- The feeling of “losing” pierced my heart.
- Thinking back on it now, I know that that was also “pain”.
- The only play I knew pain was Rhyme.
- Losing at Rhyme brought forth a feeling I had never tasted before.
- …Do I wish for real pain?
- No. There’s no way I wish for it.
- …Or I shouldn’t.
- I can live even without pain. I can live alone without anyone’s help.
- But, really.
- The first time… was when I was a kid.
- I was hated by my friends and I hated that I didn’t know pain.
- When I was locked up in that room it was inevitable that I felt painfully sad.
- Would this have not happened if I knew pain?
- Over and over, I thought that so many times I almost went mad.
- If I could feel pain…
- But, no matter how much I wished for it that was a feeling I would never be able to acquire.
- I want to know pain.
- I was assailed by that thought, and would turn my eyes away from it.
- I came here living like this.
- I can live even if I don’t know pain.
- I lived this far knowing that but… that guy.
- Aoba used scrap to try to break into my heart.
- “I have one thing to tell you. This world… probably isn’t as terrible as you think it is.
- He said something that I didn’t understand.
- But when I heard those words something was born in my heart.
- I didn’t know what it was right away.
- Warmth, brightness.
- “Hope”.
- …I forgot those things a long time ago.
- Those useless things…
- …Because of that guy I.
- Do you want to relax already?
- Do you want to give up?
- Do you want to rest?
- Do you want to sleep?
- Is it okay to not open my eyes anymore?
- Is it okay to stop trying so hard?
- Is it okay to quit?
- My heart became ragged trying so hard to live while thinking I could live alone.
- As that started to happen, I was assailed with one thought.
- What I really wish for…
- Something that I should never wish for, that will never happen, “pain”.
- Since then…
- He thought the parts of me that didn’t hurt, hurt, and was absurdly caring about them.
- He somehow brought me back to this world.
- There was no guy in my life before him who was like that.
- There were a lot of people who got close to me because I was like this icon of my rich house.
- When they told me themselves that that was the case I got really mad.
- Surrounded by darkness, he wriggled his way into a space where only I should have been able to fit.
- …Aoba.
- A: …!!
- I open my eyes to a terrible, shocking pain.
- A: …. …It hurt…!
- When I try to figure out what’s happening, I feel pain again.
- I don’t know where it hurt before but… now it’s my back.
- It’s completely black around me and I can’t see anything. It’s like I blacked out.
- When I try to move around I can feel something warm clinging to me.
- Something soft like a hand is resting on my neck, shocking me.
- Could this possibly be…
- I stare hard at the thing that’s clinging to me
- ….So it’s like that after all.
- A: …Noiz!?
- N: …
- Noiz is embracing me from the front.
- As if in answer to my call, I see his neck move as he breathes a sigh.
- Neither of us are wearing anything.
- This is…
- Probably not reality.
- It’s the same room we’ve been in since I started scrap.
- Which means, basically…
- Scrap failed?
- Noiz shudders and moves to change his position in holding me.
- A: Ow…!!
- A pain like when my arm was cut runs through me and I grimace.
- Even if I just move my head a little to see what’s going on, the skin on my arm tears and starts to bleed.
- Why, so suddenly…
- Was it there before?
- No, but…
- I feel strangely uneasy and I look at Noiz.
- I gaze steadily at his face in the darkness… and a chill runs through me.
- N: ….
- N: ….kuku fufufu
- N: …It hurts.
- A: …
- Noiz laughs while looking down, and says it with a sigh.
- It hurts?
- I’m sure he said it hurts just now.
- But doesn’t Noiz not feel pain?
- A: Noiz, right now you…
- I grab Noiz’s shoulder as I say those words in order for him to meet my gaze.
- N: Ow
- Noiz grimaces.
- I’m sure I didn’t grab his shoulder that hard but, but I apologize reflexively.
- A: Sorr…. …!?
- I look at Noiz once again and then open my eyes wide.
- There are wounds like knife cuts all over his body.
- It looks like how the wound on my arm feels.
- I look down at my own body and it looks almost exactly like Noiz’s.
- A: Eh, this… why…
- N: Aoba…
- I’m bewildered by this confusing situation and Noiz moves his face near mine.
- They catch me, right across from me.
- A: …
- Blank, muddy eyes, like a black hole.
- They’re looking towards me but not looking at me.
- I can’t find any of Noiz’s sharpness anywhere, and there is a loose smile floating on his lips.
- An unpleasant feeling shocks my temple.
- A: …Noiz…?
- N: …haha…
- Noiz laughs feebly and presses his lips to mine.
- A: !
- An electric shock of pain hits my lips and I pull back, surprised.
- I try touching that place with my tongue.
- …I can taste blood.
- My lip is cut? But why?
- He didn’t bite it. He just brushed it a little…
- N: Don’t run, Aoba…
- Noiz whispers those words, begging rather than sweetly and wraps his arm around my head to pull me close.
- A: ! Ow….
- It hurts like the back of my head was cut.
- The place where Noiz just touched me.
- …It can’t be.
- A: …
- I breathe out a tortured breath and stretch a finger out to Noiz’s arm.
- I try to hold my hand still as it shakes, wrapped up in an unpleasant feeling… and try to touch his arm.
- N: Hurts…
- …Of course. It’s like I thought.
- Blood wells up where my fingers touched.
- Like it has its own consciousness, the skin just split and blood bubbled.
- Despair blooms in my chest and starts to grow.
- We get cuts where we touch each other.
- I don’t know why, but for some reason that’s happening.
- This isn’t reality. It’s inside of Noiz’s heart.
- Basically this is a world that was created for his heart’s content.
- Noiz can’t feel pain.
- But when I touched him he clearly said that it hurt.
- That means that Noiz can feel pain here.
- Because he wished for the pain that he never had?
- Even if he temporarily wished for it, this…
- A: Noiz, why…
- Interrupting my words, Noiz pulls my head again and kisses me.
- A: Nn gu… Ua…
- N: Haa… ….it hurts…
- I feel pain like something sharp has cut into the side of my mouth and I try to separate our mouths.
- The back of my head also hurts where he’s holding me, and in a slight panic I try to push Noiz away.
- N: Tsu…
- Noiz groans, the places where my arms and hands touched making wounds appear.
- I move my hands away hurriedly, but Noiz holds me more firmly.
- A: Mu gu…! It hurts…!
- The pain in my arms and my back make me open my mouth to let out a silent scream of pain.
- Noiz should hurt as well so why…!
- No, Noiz originally didn’t feel pain so he must be feeling the pain so much stronger than I am.
- Even so…
- I open my mouth wide at the terrible pain and look up at Noiz.
- N: Fufu…. …it hurts.
- A: …
- Noiz is…
- Laughing.
- While grimacing from the pain.
- That expression looks painful but to me….
- It somehow also looks tranquil.
- N: This is… pain…
- A: Noiz… …!
- Noiz tugs on my head and kisses me again.
- While kissing me, he gently strokes my abdomen.
- A: U ku… gu…!
- His movements are sluggish but they’re splitting my skin.
- I can hear the sound of my skin tearing. I can hear the sound of the blood oozing out.
- But that’s not all the pain that’s assailing my body.
- Noiz’s kisses are ripping my lips to shreds, and my mouth is filling with a warm liquid that’s not spit.
- A: Go bu…
- The built up liquid pour from my mouth.
- I sniff, and the strong scent of iron fills my nose.
- N: Haha… Haa… …I always wanted this….
- He pulls his tongue, which is now like a weapon, from my mouth and whispers those words in my ear.
- N: I always wanted to know this…
- A: A! Noiz, stop, Noiz…!!
- Noiz’s finger touches the cut that he made from my chest to my stomach.
- Pressing gently into the cuts, he ends up sliding his finger between the cut skin.
- A: Aaa…!
- A: Ow, it hurts…! Noiz!!
- N: N….
- He gouges the place where my skin is split, thrusts his finger violently into it, and presses hard.
- Blood and gruesome pain flow out of me from deep inside and heat spreads.
- A: Hiiah…!!
- N: Aoba…
- Noiz licks the tears that spill from my eyes due to the pain.
- Doing that, he causes more wounds to appear, and blood mixed with tears flows down my cheeks.
- N: Aoba, too…
- Noiz takes my hand and brings it to his chest.
- By now he should know that when I touch him he will feel pain but even while knowing that…
- N: Touch me…
- A: !? No, Noiz, let go…!
- I’m hurting this much so Noiz…!
- Noiz pulls my unwilling hand and I can feel the pain of new cuts there.
- That pain makes me lose strength and he presses my finger tips to his chest.
- Cuts form.
- Just like that…
- Noiz presses down on my hand gently, like he wants it to sink into the cut.
- A: Noiz…!!
- N: Fufu… Aa…
- While grimacing Noiz lets out a sound like he’s in ecstacy.
- My hand sinking into Noiz’s wound becomes covered in blood and sinks slowly into his flesh.
- I feel like I have to say something. Cold chills are running through my muscles.
- A: Noiz!
- I shake off his hand and pull my fingers from his wound.
- N: Ha…
- A: …
- The feeling from my fingers being cut still remains… and they shake.
- Soft, warm…
- Noiz, covered in blood, leans down and presses his forehead to mine.
- Again, the slight touch causes a wound that shouldn’t have happened at all.
- N: Aoba is also feeling this pain…
- N: I’m happy, that I can feel the same pain like this…
- His says it with a blurred voice and touches my thighs.
- A: !?
- He opens my legs wide.
- This posture…
- More than the pain in my legs, I’m frightened about what Noiz is going to do from now on, dread fills me.
- A: I don’t want, that…
- My voice shakes and I can’t talk well.
- Noiz’s hands are gentle as he touches my opening.
- I gasp for breath when terrible pain hits me there.
- A: Noiz, don’t, sto…!
- N: What I want is… pain and…
- N: …Aoba.
- A: Hu ah…! U AAAAAAaaaa!!
- …I literally feel like my lower body is being cut to shreds.
- I can’t register what’s going on. I don’t want to do it.
- …Just.
- A: Ah gu… u…
- What I feel is, my whole lower body overcome with such a great heat that it feels like I’m on fire.
- It’s like poison mixes with the blood and runs throughout my whole body.
- Red and black flash before my eyes and I can’t see anything.
- Buzzing fills my ears, and a scream like a roar builds inside of me.
- …I think, so a human’s body was this fragile.
- N: O, w…. …haa…ah
- A: Ah ah… …ka ha….
- N: Fufu… it shurts… fufufufu
- Jolting with the force, pain from my lower extremities reverberates in my brain.
- The illusion of red blood covers my eyes.
- What is this liquid bubbling in my mouth…
- Noiz moves and I hear a wet sound from below.
- The liquid from Noiz and I is pooling around us.
- I gulp… and I don’t have any strength left in me.
- N: Aoba…
- A: …N oiz… …wh y….
- Noiz’s tongue, clad in blood, licks my neck like a sharp knife.
- He sips at the blood there lovingly.
- It goes beyond the pain… and tickles.
- N: Always, always… what I wanted to know, what I wished for…
- N: I’m feeling that right now with my whole body…
- A: …
- No.
- No matter how real this pain feels it’s not reality. It’s like Rhyme.
- This is the world inside of Noiz. A world filled with the “pain” that Noiz wanted to know.
- But, if… Noiz was special because Noiz didn’t feel pain.
- If everything lost the ability to feel or feel pain, Noiz would lose his specialness.
- So that may be what this world is trying to tell him.
- Either way, the two of us are just laying around, unconsciousness, in the real world.
- We’ll lose our chance to return like this.
- … We have to return, fast.
- But… I can’t tell him.
- The me right now doesn’t have the confidence to tell Noiz that this isn’t reality.
- I mean I…
- failed at scrap…
- …This world is wrong.
- But, how should I rescue Noiz who’s captured by this world?
- Is it okay for me to take Noiz away from this when he’s so happy to be able to feel pain?
- I… don’t know.
- Already…
- A: …!!! Uaah…!!
- Suddenly I feel a scalding pain and I choke.
- My voice won’t come out. It’s hot.
- I can’t breathe, and I open and close my mouth uselessly.
- …Little by little I realize that it’s “pain.”
- Noiz touched my soft cock.
- A: Gu…. ….
- He grasps it softly but the pain fills my head and swirls around in it relentlessly.
- A: UA A…!! Let g… Gu AAh…!!
- N: AAh… ha…
- I can’t see anything other than red anymore.
- Red mixed with darkness.
- Due to the pain of him thrusting into me from behind, vivid pain is assailing me from inside of me.
- Noiz is as gentle as though he loves me, but basically he has no strength.
- Even so… it hurts. It hurts so much I can’t take it.
- Even if he touches me softly, lovingly, it hurts.
- If this were reality I might already be dead from the pain and the blood loss.
- But I’m not dying.
- Because this world isn’t reality.
- A: …fu… ku….
- Thinking that, I suddenly start crying.
- Not cause it hurts. The hot droplet drips down my cheek.
- I want to save Noiz but I can’t.
- Even so, Noiz wants this to happen.
- Noiz’s heart thinks that this is so much better than returning to reality.
- I’m the one who dealt the decisive blow.
- Because I failed at scrap.
- Noiz’s broken heart is already…
- Even if I want to tell him, I can’t tell him anything. It won’t reach.
- A: U… … Noi z….
- I raise myself, clenching my teeth and covering and dripping in pain.
- I stretch my hand out to Noiz’s shaking arm.
- I know if I touch him it will hurt him. I can hurt him.
- Even so…
- I can’t think of any other way.
- A: Ku A! U….. uu….
- A: …Noiz…
- Crying, I slowly wrap both of my arms around Noiz.
- N: Gu… kuu…
- We’re both hurting with wounds. Hot gasps are falling from our lips.
- Trying to crush that, I hug Noiz.
- A: Noiz… Open your eyes…
- A: This world, is not… real
- N: …
- A: Noiz, I’m begging you… let’s return, together…
- A: This pain, is not real…
- N: …..fu
- N: Fufu hahaha
- Noiz laughs.
- Embracing me while I embrace him… while his face warps with pain.
- N: That’s, fine… it doesn’t really… I, already
- N: …I’m tired.
- A: …Noiz…
- N: With this, I can be with everyone….
- N: Because I understand everyone’s pain… that’s why…
- N: I’m… not the only strange one anymore
- A: AAAAaa…!
- Noiz moves, penetrating me.
- I don’t know how I’m accepting him down there, and I won’t know unless I look.
- The wet sound is getting louder and louder.
- The movements have gotten smoother…
- The light sounds get stronger.
- A: …..u…..
- …It’s no good after all.
- I can’t get Noiz out of here any more.
- Even though I know this isn’t reality, I’m starting to black out because of the horrible pain.
- I don’t even have the strength to break this situation with words.
- That’s why, at least.
- I… hug Noiz with the last of my strength.
- I hug him hard, filling the embrace with the words I can’t say.
- N: Tsuuu… ! Ku ah…
- A: Aa… haa… ….
- I don’t know if my eyes are open or closed anymore.
- Our breathing is faint, and we’re embracing each other as if it could ward off the pain.
- If Noiz says that he wishes for this more than reality…
- Then at least I want to hold him with all my heart.
- We won’t die. Because this isn’t reality.
- If so, then just a little…
- I want to make sure that Noiz is satisfied with me being here.
- I…
- A: U… Noiz… …Noi z…
- I can’t gasp or shout, I just open my mouth and the words dribble out in a tearful voice.
- N: Aoba…
- Covered in blood, Noiz moved inside of me.
- As if to say it’s okay now, I relax.
- That’s why I hold Noiz’s head to my chest.
- The smell of iron mixes with the warmth of our lives…
- I…
- A: …..Noiz
- N: …I’m, happy
- N: Aoba…
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