Mute Anon 13

>Twilight’s eyes widen
>”You talked…..”
>You’re in shock too
>It just sort of came out of you
>You try again
>Nothing
>You shrug at her
>Still can’t really talk
>Twilight looks concerned and almost a bit disturbed
>”I didn’t really know if you were capable of speech….”
>You sigh
>You write: “I told you that almost all humans can talk.”
>She nods slowly
>”It’s just I didn’t…um entirely believe you.”
>Twilight sheepishly smiles
>”I guess I should start believing you more often.”
>You don’t bother responding to that
>You just frown
>She picks up on your annoyance
>”I’m sorry. You’re not always easy to read Anon, even when you communicate through writing.”
>”I can see that you’re more complex than you first appear. I wish I could help you convey your emotions to ponies.”
>You cross your arms
>Where is she going with this?
>Is she just drawing out her apology?
>Still, she has a point
>Sometimes people can’t pick up on what you’re saying through sign language and through writing
>Even back on Earth
>It happened even more on this world since ponies here don’t really see you as a pony
>Twilight seems to be lost in thought
>Then she brightens up
>”I’ve got it!”
>You give her a questioning look
>”I can make you something that will express your true emotions!”
>She seems excited
>”Wait right here!”
>Twilight goes down to the library’s basement
>It takes several minutes, but she’s back with something that looks like a small whiteboard or canvas, a thin chain, and ink
>She sets them down at your feet
>Before you can find some way to question her about this, she’s already searching the bookshelves for something
>You shrug and just let Twilight do her thing
>She eventually finds her book and flips through it
>”Earth, no, Energy, no…Empathy and Emotions!”
>Looks like she could cheer right now
>Twilight reads through the desired section of the book and then puts it back
>Using her magic she lifts the small canvas into the air
>She then lifts the chain and through some rough collisions makes a necklace out of the two
>They begin to glow brighter
>She takes the ink and pours it onto the canvas
>Instead of darkening it, the black ink fades into the pure white canvas and sends ripples through it
>The object glows brighter and brighter and then settles
>Twilight exhales loudly
>”Done.”
>Since it appears to be a necklace of sorts you put it on
>You write: “How does it work?”
>She smiles
>”To activate it, simply put your hand to the canvas”
>You do so
>At first nothing seems to happen and then you feel something
>The canvas is no longer blank
>It reads: “Curious, Uncertain, and Excited.”
>You can’t see the writing because you’re wearing it, but you know what will be written
>You write: “So this will show my true emotions?”
>She nods
>”But you can’t use it all the time Anon. It uses my magic to work, and it will slowly take away from me. Only use it when you need it.”
>You put your hand back onto the canvas
>It deactivates
>She smiles at your understanding
>You cut your little mental celebration short
>You’re still going to have to confront “her”
>It takes a bit more coaxing from Twilight, but you leave the library together
>You’re looking around at every corner as the two of you walk through Ponyville
>Despite the fact that you two are looking to confront “her”, you don’t want to see her
>Thinking about her is bad enough
>A part of you doubts that this will go well
>You just want to be away from her, forever
>So you don’t have to be reminded of what happened
>And to not live in fear of what can or will happen
>Seeing she will leave you wishing things could go back to the way they were
>But they can’t, and you just wish you had never met her
>Sigh
>You feel that you can’t run away from this forever
>There has to be justice
>And with Twilight as an ally hopefully the bitch can realize her mistake
>You need to be optimistic that things will work out
>A part of you bitterly adds that either way you lose
>Through all of this you’ve lost someone important to you
>Someone you even admit you admired
>You push those thoughts away
>You can worry about this later
>Twilight nudges your waist
>Raise a brow at her
>She whispers
>”Over there…”
>She points a hoof upward
>”She” is a few yards away flying into the air
>It looks like she’s looking for you too
>She hasn’t spotted you yet, but your heart is already beating rapidly
>Twilight motions you to hide
>You frown
>You can’t confront her if you hide
>Why hasn’t Twilight mentioned a change of plans?
>She gives you a pleading look
>You give her an exasperated look, but comply
>You hide behind a nearby house
>Twilight calls out to “her”
>”Fluttershy!”
>You hear the flapping of wings and then hooves softly settling on the ground
>”Twilight Sparkle, I’m so glad you’re here!”
>”Anon is gone and I’m so worried!”
>Twilight replies very calmly, but you can tell she wants to say more to Fluttershy
>”I know where Anon is.”
>You suppress a gasp
>What is she doing?!
>Fluttershy gets excitable
>”Where is my sweetie? Is he feeling well?!”
>”Anon told me he’ll meet you at your cottage.”
>”I can’t wait to see him! Um can I just go to him?”
>No she cannot
>What is Twilight thinking by having you go to the cottage in the first place?
>Twilight clears her throat
>”Fluttershy maybe you should respect Anon’s decisions.”
>Her tone has an edge to it, as if to hint something to Fluttershy
>Fluttershy is oblivious to this but nods
>”Well, I can give him a nice warm welcome at my house. Tell him I’ll be waiting.”
>She flies off
>As Twilight approaches you from the hiding spot, you cross your arms at her
>Give her your best “what the hell are you doing?” look
>”Anon.”
>She nervously looks at you
>”I think you should communicate with her alone.”
>What the hell?
>That’s even more bad news!
>”I know this different than you expected, but I’m looking out for you.”
>”I have your back, trust me.”
>You shake your head
>Trust is not something you’re so willing to give out anymore
>”Just this once.”
>You purse your lips
>You can’t really see a reason Twilight wouldn’t help
>But you’re still uneasy
>”This needs to be resolved one way or another.”
>She adds more sternly
>You throw up your arms in defeat
>Screw it, you’ll go
>Twilight looks relieved, but your anxiety has increased now that you’re really going to the cottage
>The walk there was anything but pleasant
>Many times you kept thinking about turning back
>In fact a few times you did try to turn back, but Twilight kept encouraging you
>Other than that she didn’t try talking to you much at all
>This all made the walk feel much longer than it should have
>But eventually you did arrive
>Twilight gave you a small notepad and pencil
>You stored it in your pockets
>You take a deep breath
>Knock on the door
>It only takes about one knock, before Fluttershy swings the door open
>”Anon!”
>You panic as she flies toward you
>Her forelegs are spread and ready to embrace you
>You dodge her and glare
>This doesn’t seem to concern her
>She just lands next to you and smiles
>”I’m so glad you came.”
>She motions for you to step inside
>You avoid eye contact and take several deep breaths before entering
>Fluttershy is too giddy over your arrival to notice your anxiety
>She nuzzles you and you flinch
>You’re getting pissed and nervous with each second
>”Sweetie would you like something to eat?”
>You ignore her
>You’re not sure where to start with her
>You sit in the middle of the cottage and think all the while Fluttershy stays close by
>”Is something wrong?”
>Put a hand to the enchanted necklace
>Or more specifically the canvas
>That’s what you’ll call it now, the Canvas
>”What is that Anon?”
>She asks sweetly
>You don’t acknowledge her
>It’s activated
>The words it displays are: “Fear, Betrayed, Frustration.”
>Fluttershy’s ears flatten
>”W-what is that? It’s not saying very positive things…”
>You sign, its how you feel
>”But I’m here with you.”
>You glare
>You sign, because she raped you.
>She whimpers
>”I didn’t Anon, I pleasured us.”
>She fumbles with her hooves
>”I saw you enjoying it mister…”
>The Canvas changes
>It reads: “Anger, Annoyance, Frustration.”
>Fluttershy notices
>”I think you’re j-just a little confused sweetie.”
>You take out your notepad and pencil
>You write: “That’s not true! I do not want to be intimate with you EVER Fluttershy. And you took my choice away from me!”
>You’re grinding your teeth at this point
>Fluttershy stammers under her breath
>She regains her composure
>”Are you sure you don’t want me to find something you might like?”
>”How about we finish that massage, from the spa?”
>You will not give her a chance to violate you again
>You drop the notepad and pencil
>You sign to her, tell her you’re out of here.
>”No!”
>She looks at you
>Oh no…
>Your heart jumps
>You can’t move
>Her words and demeanor are radiating authority
>It’s like being a child again
>And a parent is angry at you
>Only worse
>Fluttershy is giving you the stare
>Your Canvas keeps reacting to it
>It displays things like “Fear”, and “Overwhelmed”
>”I’m your caretaker, and I am responsible for you mister.”
>”I can’t have you running away again.”
>When did you run away?
>Did she mean after…she did things to you?
>You’re trying not to shake
>Breaking eye contact between the two of you isn’t working
>You’re stuck
>”I’m going to give you a relaxing massage sweetie.”
>Her voice is calm for a moment before becoming stern again
>”I want you to take off your clothes and lie down on your back.”
>Where the hell is Twilight!?
>You resist for a moment, but Fluttershy stares at you more intensely
>You just want her to stop looking at you like that
>It’s enough to make you want to breakdown
>Without thinking of the consequences you take off your clothes, including the Canvas, and lie down
>A hoof rubs your stomach
>You wince and try to avoid it
>You do NOT want her touching you again
>This entire experience is causing you to hyperventilate
>Twilight said she would be here for you!
>Fluttershy stops staring at you
>It’s a small relief
>But you’re still stunned
>Oh shit!
>Fluttershy notices your panic
>”Ssssssshhhh”
>”Let’s get you relaxed and remove that tension.”
>Your body won’t move
>Some sort of subconscious fear of the stare is keeping you in place
>Fluttershy starts by simply rubbing your stomach
>Her hooves move up and down
>They feel warm and soft, but also very dense
>You internally scream at your body to move
>To get away
>But you don’t move
>Instead all you can do is let out breathes of anxiety
>Even that is disappearing
>Her massage is relaxing you
>She moves onto kneading you
>For a moment you surrender to her
>You don’t curse her when she reduces the tension in your legs and feet
>You sigh in content at the feeling of her warm coat pressed up against you
>And you even get a little sleepy from her kneading
>Her delicate touch turns you to putty
>”See? Nothing to fuss about sweetie.”
>She giggles and a hoof rubs your stomach again
>You almost smile and close your eyes
>Then you feel delicate rubbing on your manhood
>It wakes you up like a slap in the face
>You panic again
>Unfortunately all you can do is weakly writhe
>Your body is still not in your control
>”Please don’t struggle if you wouldn’t mind…”
>You growl at her
>Did Twilight abandon you?!
>You can’t think more on this, because Fluttershy is now nuzzling your manhood
>You need to find a way to escape this
>It causes it to erect and she goes back to fondling your member and scrotum
>You let out a yelp of protest
>Fluttershy looks at you
>”I’m making you feel good, Anon.”
>”Be good and show your appreciation.”
>If you could move you would spit at her
>You grit your teeth
>You want to kick her away
>Scream
>Anything!
>You shut your eyes
>You don’t want to see her win again
>”Fluttershy!”
>The sensations on your manhood stop
>It’s Twilight
>She uses her magic to drag you away from Fluttershy and steps in front of you
>You’re able to move a bit more easily now and you stand up slowly
>You put on your clothes while Flutterhy is quivering in place
>She’s been caught in the act
>You put your hand to the Canvas and activate it
>You’re shaking and looking away from the two of them
>You would be grateful to Twilight, but she just had to be certain
>To see it for herself
>And she let her touch you
>You’re angry and your Canvas displays it
>Twilight bites her lip nervously as she can feel what the Canvas is projecting
>She blinks to regain focus and scowls at Fluttershy
>”How could you? He didn’t want it Fluttershy!”
>”I can’t believe you would do such a thing!”
>Twilight groans
>”I didn’t want to believe it, but It’s even worse than I imagined!”
>Fluttershy squeaks and shakes
>”I wasn’t d-doing anything wrong!”
>”I’m sure he likes it….he’s just confused and needs love, and time.”
>She lowers her head
>Twilight points to you and the Canvas
>”Fluttershy that is an enchanted item it displays his true emotions!”
>Fluttershy is about to respond, but Twilight interrupts her
>”He’s afraid and angry at you Fluttershy, and he has a right to be!”
>Fluttershy’s eyes widen
>Her mouth gapes
>You feel satisfaction at this
>She cannot deny your emotions
>You look away from her, but you can feel Fluttershy staring at you
>”Sweetie…please…I never wanted to make you mad or scared…”
>You continue to look away from her
>She’s reduced to whimpering and then falls silent
>Twilight sighs
>”I don’t know why you’d do such a thing Fluttershy but I need to inform the princess.”
>Fluttershy looks at Twilight nervously
>”W-well at least the princess can f-fix our problems again.”
>She almost sounds hopeful or happy
>Like things will go back to normal
>Not like someone being brought to justice
>You don’t like her attitude about this
>It’s making you uneasy
>It doesn’t help that you don’t want to deal with Celestia, but now it seems unavoidable
>Twilight looks at Fluttershy for a moment
>She puts a hoof to her chin
>”Fluttershy, do you remember things that you didn’t remember before?”
>”Eep!”
>”N-no of course not!”
>It may be because you’re angry at her, but you don’t trust her
>You think back…
>When she did things to you, she talked as if it wasn’t your first time with her…
>You force yourself to look your violator in the eyes
>You sign to her, liar.
>Over and over
>She shrinks away
>Then she sighs deeply
>”Okay! I remember everything that happened.”
>Twilight’s eyes widen
>”Then the princess needs to know right away!”
>Fluttershy stutters
>”W-w-will y-y-you t-tell our f-friends?”
>Twilight thinks for a moment
>”Not yet, but only for their sake.”
>”If the princess gives me instruction to I will not hesitate.”
>You’re not going to bother with the others as this point
>They won’t believe you
>Twilight turns away from Fluttershy
>”We’re done here. Let’s go Anon.”
>You nod and walk with her out of the cottage
>”Wait! No! Sweetie!”
>Fluttershy calls after you with tears in her eyes
>”Don’t leave me again!”
>You don’t give any indication you heard her and keep walking
>The two of you leave her cottage far behind with her still calling your name
>The walk back to the Library was filled with tension between the two of you
>You don’t know if the princess was going to really help in all this
>Everything that’s happened recently was a result of her “help”
>Who knows if this is the only time she wiped your memory
>Are there other times you don’t remember as well?
>You fear that you’ll be forced into being a victim all over again
>And again, and again
>Twilight notices your uncertainty
>”Everything is going to be fine Anon.”
>She gives you a small smile
>You don’t react to her
>You’re not one to trust everything to be “fine” anymore
>It’s not guaranteed to be okay, and you don’t know what others have planned for you
>You’re beginning to think the only one you can trust is yourself
>Especially ever since Fluttershy raped you
>You look at Twilight
>Her smile falters
>She almost let Fluttershy violate you again
>You think Fluttershy still succeeded in violating you a little bit
>Twilight looks up at you with a sad expression
>”I know you’re angry at me, and I’m sorry.”
>How does she know that?
>You’ve kept a blank face
>You offer her a smile, but her sorry look still persists
>Then you realize
>The Canvas
>It’s been displaying your feelings
>It’s currently displaying: “Resentment, Distrust.”
>You deactivate it and turn your head away
>”I wasn’t entirely sure, and I needed absolute proof.”
>”….I screwed up.”
>You motion with your hand for her to stop talking
>You give her an annoyed look and walk on ahead
>She’s silent after that until you arrive at the library
>The moment you arrive you sit down where you once were
>Ready to write if you need to
>Twilight frantically writes a letter
>You’re not sure what she’s specifically writing
>You tried to look at it, but she wouldn’t let you
>You can only hope it gets a response soon
>Spike sent the letter, but confused at Twilight’s behavior
>Twilight couldn’t tell him, because he was young and the subject matter was unpleasant
>Spike points at you and mumbles
>”What’s he still doing here?”
>”Slumber party.”
>”Huh, doesn’t seem like the type. I thought you two only argued.”
>Twilight rolls her eyes
>”We’re still friends.”
>Spike snorts
>”Wait, it’s only a little past noon. Is he really going to stay here all day and night?”
>Before Twilight can answer Spike starts burping
>Eventually a small flame erupts from him and a scroll drops to the floor
>Twilight sends Spike out on some small errand
>As he grumbles out of the library, Twilight levitates the letter and opens it
>Your heart is hammering in anticipation
>Twilight clears her throat
>”My dearest most faithful student Twilight,”
>”Your news does not bode well for Equestria. I fear that Discord may have played a part in Fluttershy regaining her memories.  He is getting stronger Twilight, and we are still missing one element.  I must request that you and the rest of the elements appear in Canterlot immediately.  Mr.Anon must come as well. We need to resolve the conflict between Fluttershy and Mr.Anon. Do not let your friends know of Fluttershy’s actions, you must inform Mr.Anon to stay calm and pretend everything is fine. I know it may be painful for the two of you, but we cannot afford to cause more conflict between your friends. I will explain the details on your arrival. For now just inform everyp0ny that they are going to Canterlot to strengthen the attunement to their friendship and elements. Fluttershy is still Mr.Anon’s caretaker and is therefore responsible for him. Be sure to remind them of this to avoid too many questions regarding his presence on this trip. There are seven tickets attached to this letter. I hope you all have safe trip, and for a quick end to this crisis.”
>”-Princess Celestia”
>Oh no
>This doesn’t sound good at all
>Are you really going to have to act as if everything is okay during this trip?
>She mentioned resolution to all of this
>You’re not so sure it’s a resolution you’re looking for
>Twilight looks just as nervous
>But she also appears to be more optimistic about the whole thing
>You help her pack for the trip
>Twilight goes out and informs everyone involved about the trip
>You decide to pack a few notepads, but you don’t really have a bag
>Or an extra pair of clothes….
>Those are all
>”Over there”
>You’re not going back there even for clothes
>You still have that hay smell, you shudder
>After cleaning yourself as best as you can you resign yourself to reading books for the rest of the day
>Twilight comes back in the evening and you head off to bed
>She lets you take the guest bed
>You aren’t looking forward to tomorrow
>You don’t want to face her again and pretend everything is fine
>You’re not sure you can really do that
>Sigh
>You fall asleep with doubts still plaguing you
>You’re in a courtroom
>There are multiple judges
>Your friends are there watching you
>The middle judge speaks
>”So you would accuse Fluttershy of such a thing?”
>You nod
>”Answer us! Speak!”
>You point to your mouth and shake your head
>She frowns as if unconvinced
>”Very well, Mr.Anon if you will not speak, then we have others that will.”
>One by one each of your friends speak on the witness stand
>They laugh at your accusations
>They call you a liar
>An idiot
>All the while a judge will ask you to speak
>To defend yourself
>But you can’t
>You look to Fluttershy
>She knows what she’s done
>You glare
>But she smiles as if everything is okay
>Finally the judges decide to make a verdict
>”You have one final chance to defend yourself. Speak to us and we will listen.”
>You try with all of your effort, but all that comes out are weak grunts and strange noises
>”Very well, as punishment for slander against the element of kindness….”
>”We will silence you forever.”
>Suddenly you feel a pressure in your throat
>You can talk!
>You open your mouth to speak, but it suddenly shuts
>A sharp pain erupts from your lips
>Your mouth has been sown shut
>Your screams are muffled as Fluttershy approaches you
>She still has an innocent look on her face
>You begin to sign to her
>To request she tell them the truth!
>But your hands are gone
>Only stumps remain
>Fluttershy is now looking up at you
>”Don’t worry, I’ll take care of you…”
>You try to scream your mouth gets sealed even tighter
>You wake up gasping for breath
>You open your mouth
>It’s not sown shut
>That’s good
>It’s morning
>You wake up Twilight
>She jumps out of her bed and checks the time
>”Still early…”
>”We can go to the train station after breakfast.”
>You nod
>Anything to stall the inevitable
>Spike cooked the three of you grass pancakes
>You gave your pancakes to Spike
>Instead you were just sipping on your cup of coffee
>You brought a notepad and pencil and decided to discuss things with Twilight for a bit
>You write: “I’m not looking forward to this at all.”
>Twilight looks confused
>”Why not?”
>You write: “What if things just repeat themselves?”
>”I’m certain Princess Celestia will find a way to make things right.”
>You purse your lips
>You write: “It seems like she’s been trying to find a way to make things right for some time now.”
>Twilight sighs
>”Anon, you need to be optimistic.”
>You don’t respond
>You never took yourself for a pessimist
>But lately you’re not finding things to be optimistic about
>The recent traumatic rape doesn’t help
>The dreams
>And you suspect a part of you subconsciously remembers the memories you lost
>All of it is beginning to take its toll on you
>After breakfast the two of you make your way to the train station
>Twilight is looking at your Canvas
>”Anon don’t activate it while the others are around.”
>You nod
>Can’t pretend everything is fine if you don’t feel fine
>When you do arrive at the train station, Applejack is already waiting
>She must have gotten up really early
>Twilight and Applejack just chat
>Applejack briefly asks why you’re with her
>Twilight uses the slumber party excuse again
>AJ doesn’t question it and they go back to talking about the trip
>An hour later the others show up around the same time
>You avoid all eye contact with Fluttershy
>But she seems intent on being in contact with you
>Twilight gives you a sympathetic look, but motions for you to keep calm
>You can’t just act happy
>So you’ll just pretend she isn’t there as much as you can
>Fluttershy pokes your leg with a hoof
>You don’t turn around
>”Um sweetie, I packed your bag for you since you weren’t home…”
>You can hear a hoof nervously rub the ground
>”It has your clothes, a notepad, some pencils, and a snack for you to eat if you get hungry.”
>She moves into your vision and offers you the travel bag
>You take it wordlessly
>Rainbow Dash observes this and scowls
>”What the hay Anon?”
>”I know you can’t talk, but you could show you appreciate what she’s doing for you!”
>Your face remains as expressionless as ever
>The train arrives, and you don’t bother to respond to Dash or Fluttershy in some way
>You all board the train
>Twilight whispers to you
>”Try to act more normal.”
>You cross your arms
>This is bad enough
>The only way you’re going to get through this is by ignoring Fluttershy
>Still you can’t just isolate yourself immediately
>Its first class so everyone has their own little cabin
>Everyone including you is hanging out in Pinkie’s cabin
>She packed lots of sweets and no one can resist eating some
>You’ve just been listening to the conversation but not really reacting or writing responses to it
>They don’t notice and that’s fine
>You can feel Fluttershy staring at you
>Her friends are keeping her distracted
>That is until your stomach growls
>You hear someone approach
>It’s Fluttershy of course
>At the corner of your eye you see she has a chocolate covered cherry in her mouth
>She offers it to you
>You look away
>This doesn’t faze her
>She flies up to your eye level and tries to feed you herself
>You don’t open your mouth
>It just bumps into your lips
>You turn your head away
>She turns with you and places the treat into your mouth
>She then kisses your lips and lands next to you
>You swallow it, but glare at her
>You’re very close to losing your cool
>You notice your hands are clenched into fists and you’re shaking
>You stop shaking and relax your hands
>You sigh and go back to ignoring her
>Rainbow Dash growls
>”What is up with him?”
>Rarity giggles
>”I think he’s shy about their relationship.”
>What!?
>”I remember he hid in my boutique from her.”
>You suppress a shout of outrage
>You were avoiding being raped!
>It wasn’t because you were shy!
>Applejack chuckles
>”Heh those two were apparently playing a game.”
>You grit your teeth
>”They were ‘playing’ it in the barn.”
>Everyone except, Twilight, Fluttershy, and you laugh
>You’ve had enough
>You storm out of the cabin and walk over to your own
>You notice you’re being followed
>Sharply turn around
>It’s Fluttershy
>”I’m sorry that they were being that way sweetie….”
>You ignore her and keep walking
>She follows
>It’s unnerving and you want her to go away
>You put your hand to the Canvas
>You’re pretty sure using it with her around is fine
>Maybe she’ll get the message and fuck off
>The Canvas begins displaying your emotions
>It simply reads: “Infuriated.”
>This catches your stalker off guard
>Your face has been mostly expressionless
>Her ears flatten
>But then she holds her ground
>Fluttershy actually looks a little peeved
>”Anon, I love you no matter what.”
>”I can’t leave you feeling this way.”
>Bullshit!
>You sign to her, tell her she left you feeling this way when she raped you.
>”I didn’t d-do that!”
>Before you can counter that, Twilight shows up behind Fluttershy
>”Anon I told you not to use the Canvas.”
>You point to Fluttershy
>”Better safe than sorry.”
>You shrug at her
>”I can sense when you’re using it.”
>She then glares at Fluttershy
>”I do see that he had his reasons.”
>Twilight motions for Fluttershy to follow
>”Stay away from Anon!”
>Fluttershy hangs her head
>”But….”
>She doesn’t finish she just follows Twilight
>Your unicorn ally turns to you
>”I’m sorry they were acting that way Anon.”
>”They’re just ignorant about what happened.”
>You nod
>It was still unbearable to pretend everything was okay
>You enter your cabin and lie down on the bed
>You don’t leave the cabin after this
>You just think about what’s going to happen when you arrive at Canterlot
>No one really checks up on you, and you’re glad for that
>You check your travel bag
>Fluttershy packed everything you needed
>There was also a sandwich
>You ate it very slowly
>You were suspicious that she did something to it
>Nothing happened though, so you go back to lying down
>You do nothing else that day, only really preparing to go to bed and then sleeping

>You are now Fluttershy
>You are in Anon’s cabin
>It’s bed time and everyp0ny else is asleep
>You get under the covers with Anon
>You climb atop his chest and embrace him
>Press your head against his chest
>The sound of his beating heart soothes you
>You’re very worried about Anon
>He’s angry at you and has been keeping to himself
>Your friends assure you that he’s being shy or just rude to you
>But you know it’s because he didn’t like the love you shared
>And Twilight is encouraging him to not love you
>You can feel yourself glare
>Before she got involved Anon definitely enjoyed it
>But he never said he loved you back…
>Ever since you confessed in the cottage
>And he really does seem angry
>You sniffle
>You whisper to Anon
>”I want to h-hold you close Anon *snf* like this.”
>”To feel *snf* your warmth and smooth skin.”
>A few tears drop on his face
>You wipe them away
>Maybe he’ll never let you this close to him again
>That would be awful, just awful
>You kiss his cheek and move over to his ear
>You nibble it lightly
>Then you breathe on his mouth and nose
>This causes Anon to breathe back at you
>You loved to do this
>To exchange breaths and warm
>You exhale again and he exhales back
>You do this for a few minutes and then settle down into his chest
>Anon might not like you sleeping with him
>But you can’t stop loving him
>And you have a promise to fulfill
>”I love you, I care about you, and nothing is going to hurt you.”
>You let out a sigh of content as you doze off

>You are now Anon
>You feel something warm and heavy on your chest
>You freak out
>You push Fluttershy off of your chest
>And scream
>Extremely loud
>What the hell is she doing?!
>Fluttershy backs away from you
>You glare angrily but stop
>Everyone rushed over to the sight of you glaring at a cowering Fluttershy
>Twilight stepped in and told them everything was fine
>Fluttershy nodded slowly
>Everyone was relieved but still were unhappy with you
>You didn’t care
>You know you’re not in the wrong here
>Twilight shoots Fluttershy a dirty look
>Fluttershy gives her a defiant one
>You go back to ignoring everyone afterwards
>The train arrives at Canterlot about an hour later
>A few guards are waiting for your group
>They escort all of you to the castle
>Twilight takes over from there and escorts everyone to the throne room
>It seems like Celestia isn’t taking any other guests today
>She’s the only other one in here right now
>It makes you a little uneasy for some reason
>She smiles warmly at all of you
>You all bow a little
>”Rise, everyp0ny there is no need for that.”
>”You are all probably wondering why I have summoned you here.”
>You know exactly why
>You glare at Fluttershy
>Celestia continues
>”We are here to strengthen the power of the elements.”
>Applejack clears her throat
>”I beg your pardon your highness, but I think we represent our elements well enough.”
>She smiles at her friends
>”And I think we’re all closer than family.”
>Celestia loses her smile
>”Unfortunately that bond needs to be stronger, for what’s to come.”
>She grimaces
>”And for some reason the connection you all share to the elements is weakened.”
>Fluttershy is shaking
>She must know it’s her fault
>Twilight glares at Fluttershy and you do as well
>Celestia gives you both a pleading look
>You comply and stop glaring
>Pinkie Pie is curious now
>”Why so all of a sudden?”
>She wears a very thoughtful expression, but it looks goofy instead
>Celestia gets a more serious look
>”I am afraid to say that an old enemy is in danger of reemerging.”
>Everyone’s eyes widen
>”As a consequence of the weakened connection, Discord is gaining power and may be able to escape again.”
>The room erupts into muttering and questions
>No one wanted to deal with Discord again
>You heard some of the stories about their triumph over him
>He was not easy to defeat
>”Girls, please remain calm.”
>”He is still sealed away, but we need to redo the seal.”
>”We will test your power and then we will try to improve it.”
>Rainbow Dash smirks
>”Yeah! He’s nothing to worry about!”
>”If we can kick his flank while he’s moving, we can do it again while he’s a rock!”
>Everyone else nods in agreement
>You’re not at ease though
>How is Fluttershy going to be brought to justice?
>How will she resolve that?
>You keep asking yourself this as Celestia has guards escort you to a guest bedroom
>You can only hope that it wasn’t a mistake to come here

>You are now Twilight Sparkle
>The princess had you all meet at the statue of Discord
>He still was in his pose of terror
>Everyp0ny is wearing their element
>Despite everything appearing calm you know they’re nervous
>But they have a confidence you don’t
>You look at Fluttershy, this is her fault
>You can’t believe she raped Anon
>And that she won’t admit it
>It’s one thing to do something so horrible to a friend
>But for her to deny it?!
>You’re seething
>Everyp0ny else is treating her normally
>You wish you could tell them, but the princess has told you not to
>Right now she is watching over you
>You gulp
>You don’t want her to be disappointed so you suck it up and face the statue of Discord
>One by one each pony rises into the air
>You rise into the air as well
>You can feel your connection with each other
>For a moment it feels like this will work
>The power and warmth that spreads through you is intense
>Then you try to release it
>And nothing happens
>You all fall down and it fades away
>Confused looks spread through your friends
>Rarity stammers
>”W-what happened?”
>Fluttershy happened
>You want to say
>Celestia looks sadly at all of you
>It hurts to have disappointed her
>”Do not worry. You just need to spend time with each other, here in Canterlot. To fix any grudges or problems some might hold.”
>Celestia looks directly at you
>She caught you frowning at Fluttershy again
>You know this was directed at you, and Fluttershy
>Celestia then announces
>”Within two weeks this will be resolved.”
>”That much I can assure all of you.”
>You’re glad she has faith in you
>But will Fluttershy be able to atone for what she’s done?
>Will Anon ever accept her again?
>You don’t blame him if he doesn’t…


>You are now Anon
>You’ve been pacing your room bored out of your mind
>It’s been a few hours now
>And it’s late afternoon
>Finally there is a knock on the door
>You open it
>A guard is there
>”Mr.Anon I am here to escort you to the personal study of Princess Celestia.”
>Your eyes widen
>This is it
>Time for answers
>You follow the guard for what feels like an eternity
>When you do arrive he motions you into the room
>It was much smaller than you expected it to be
>It has a cluttered desk, a large bookshelf behind it, and couches on both sides of the room
>Celestia is behind the desk
>She remains expressionless
>So do you
>”I know Fluttershy has mistreated you.”
>”And I am truly sorry for that.”
>”However, I need this conflict to be resolved.”
>What is she getting at?
>You cross your arms
>”While you are staying here, I am going to have you to resolve this conflict.”
>”Every day I will have guards escort you and Fluttershy to this room.”
>”And you will communicate with each other.”
>Your mouth gapes
>Is she serious?
>You point to your ears
>Hopefully she’ll pick up on this
>”I am serious. Every afternoon for three hours.”
>You’re pissed
>This isn’t justice!
>You want to storm out of here
>But you know you have no choice
>She is making you do this
>Because in the end you guess it doesn’t matter if you’re given justice
>She cares about Discord staying where he is
>You really are just a pawn
>In all of this…
>You’re not sure what Celestia is thinking
>You know this isn’t going to work
>Fuck Fluttershy and fuck this
>You bury your head into your hands
>And sigh deeply
>”Please Mr.Anon, try to cooperate.”
>Celestia genuinely seemed to be pleading with you
>But you ignore her
>Just like you ignore Fluttershy as she enters the study
>”Do not try anything on Mr.Anon, Fluttershy.”
>Fluttershy nods nervously
>Celestia then leaves the two of you alone
>You sit on a couch
>Fluttershy tries to sit next to you, but you move to the other couch
>”Um Anon….I just want you to be happy…okay?”
>She fumbles with her hooves nervously
>You turn your head away
>Remain expressionless
>There is silence for a good half hour
>And then she tries again
>”Anon?”
>No response
>”I love you…”
>You continue to ignore her
>”Please….do something, give me a sign…”
>”Anything….”
>She begs you for the remaining hours
>You don’t comply
>And the talk ends
>A week passes, and they all end the same way
>You ignore her, she begs you to acknowledge her
>Today you’re planning to do the same as before
>You’re sitting down on one couch
>She’s on the other
>”Anon, what will make you happy?”
>”I’ll do anything to make you happy….”
>You glare
>You’re not in the mood
>You respond for the first time
>You sign to her, you want her to go away!
>She whimpers
>”I-I can’t d-do that….”
>”I want to stay a part of your life Anon….”
>You sign to her, because she wants to violate you
>”I haven’t violated you!”
>Her voice grows desperate
>You sign to her, ask her why you are both here then
>She becomes silent after that
>The talk ends and you both go your separate ways
>You don’t leave your room
>Only to eat with the others do you leave
>They talk about their attempts at using the Elements of Harmony
>They suspect one of them has done something bad
>They’re right, but you and Twilight remain silent
>You haven’t really interacted with Twilight
>You’re a bit upset with her too
>She couldn’t really know the princess would assign you to work things out with Fluttershy
>But you’re still frustrated
>After eating you remain in your room and then sleep
>That night you begin to dream again
>You’re in pitch black
>The only sort of light is emitting from a statue
>It’s Discord
>”It’s quite unfortunate that Celestia isn’t giving you the retribution you deserve.”
>”Especially since you’re at a disadvantage with Fluttershy.”
>”She remembers everything, you don’t.”
>And what is this guy going to do about it?
>”I don’t have enough power to do it myself…”
>”Buuuut, I do know a way you can.”
>”Celesita, she’s in possession of an important letter.”
>What letter?
>”Long story let’s just say you made a letter about killing yourself.”
>Killing yourself?
>What happened?
>”If you read it you’ll find out.”
>How did she end up with it?
>”Celestia has it, to make sure no one accidentally reads it.”
>”Reading it will trigger your old memories…”
>You can’t steal it
>”Convince her.”
>”She’s getting desperate Anon and she’ll give it to you.”
>You’re not sure if you want the extra memories
>The ones you have are bad enough
>Discord sighs
>”You’re being her pawn Anon. Going along with everything she wants.”
>He laughs
>”Maybe you enjoy when others make choices for you.”
>Fuck this guy
>You’re not going to be his pawn either
>But you do want Celestia to at least give into one demand
>If she wants you to talk to Fluttershy
>She’s going to need to
>You wake up abruptly
>It’s still early in the morning
>The sun hasn’t risen yet
>But you’re going to see the princess
>You walk out of your room
>There are no guards for your room
>Only your friends are being guarded
>Although you suspect that’s to keep Fluttershy from going to you
>At night
>You’re thankful for that
>You walk for about twenty minutes
>You begin to walk down a hall, but realize you don’t know where she is
>Or if she’ll talk to you at this time
>You turn back but realize you’re lost
>”Mr.Anon….”
>You turn around
>It’s Princess Luna looking up at you
>You’ve only met her once, she’s reclusive apparently
>You’re not sure whether this encounter will be good or bad
>”You understand us?”
>She really does talk a bit strangely
>You nod
>Luna gives you a sterner look
>”Why are you out of your bed?”
>”We have been watching you and you have been wandering the castle for some time now.”
>You don’t know how you’re going to communicate this
>You should have brought your notepad and pencil
>You always forget
>Damn it
>You guess you assumed, Celestia would have something for you to write with when you arrived
>Playing charades with a princess is going to be very awkward
>You point to her
>”Me?”
>Then you raise your hand
>To visualize her as taller
>To your surprise she picks up on this
>She sighs
>”It is always for my sister….”
>”She is sleeping Mr.Anon.”
>You try mouthing the word “important”
>Mouthing words was always a bit tricky, but people usually understood it
>”Im….imporant?”
>You nod
>”We are not sure if we should do this.”
>”However, she has told me to take thy requests and actions seriously.”
>”We will bring you to her, but this had better be for good reason.”
>She turns around and begins to walk away
>You follow her
>It is actually a very short walk
>Mainly because she did not wait for you
>And took many sharp turns
>You arrive at Celestia’s bedchamber
>Luna talks to the guards outside and they let you in
>Luna is inside the room with you
>”Sister.”
>Celestia awakens slowly
>”Hello Luna, and Mr.Anon?”
>”He would like to speak.”
>”We are not sure what his reasons are, but we assume they are important.”
>Celestia nods
>”Thank you Luna, you may leave him with me.”
>Luna nods and leaves the room
>Celestia looks at you patiently
>You motion for something to write with
>Her horn glows and a quill with paper appears
>No ink on it
>You test it
>It writes as if there were ink
>That’s magic for you
>You write: “Fluttershy told me about a suicide letter I once wrote.”
>You write: “I would like to see it.”
>Her eyes widen
>She shakes her head
>”No Mr.Anon, I cannot. It may strengthen Discord.”
>You raise a brow
>”The more you two are in conflict, the stronger he will get.”
>You write: “Why would this increase the conflict.”
>”Because it will return your memories.”
>You almost gasp
>Discord was right
>You write: “I won’t be able to settle my grievances with Fluttershy if I don’t remember all of them.”
>Celestia is silent for a moment
>She closes her eyes in thought
>”Alright.”
>You begin to feel anxious
>You’re really going to remember everything
>Her horn glows again
>It takes some time, but a small crumpled letter appears
>She levitates it over to you
>You spread it open and read
>It mentions the bunny census
>The rape and loss of virginity at night
>Being drugged and sucked off by Fluttershy in the hospital
>Being molested in the bathtub
>Almost getting raped in her cottage again
>And eventually your plan to kill yourself
>Though it was to fake your death
>You remember that now
>Tears run down your eyes
>It all comes back to you
>All at once
>And it’s agony
>Most of all you look at Celestia
>She really did screw you over
>All of you
>Even if it was to save Equestria
>You’re shaking with anger
>You write: “Some help you turned out to be.”
>Celestia doesn’t respond for a moment
>”You still must communicate to Fluttershy, Mr.Anon.”
>”This will be resolved in some way.”
>”This one is the best.”
>You don’t like the sound of that
>But there’s nothing you can do
>Still you’re not as afraid of Fluttershy anymore
>No you will not become a victim
>You’re going to get it through her head
>You’ll communicate with Fluttershy alright
>You nod to Celestia to show agreement
>The paper and quill disappear
>”That is good to see. I will send a guard to escort you back to your room.”
>You’re led back to your room
>You sleep in later afterwards
>When it is the afternoon you hear a knock on the door
>You bring a notepad and a pencil this time
>You make sure to wear the Canvas
>You used to be apathetic to this whole experience
>But now, you care
>And it makes your walk to the study almost exciting
>When you arrive you settle down on one of the couches
>It looks like a beautiful day outside
>You can see from the windows
>The room itself looks rather nice and relaxing
>But you’re anxious not relaxed
>Fluttershy enters soon
>You look at her this time
>She smiles at you
>This is someone you used to trust
>You look at this familiar sight
>With her soft yellow coat and long pink mane
>Those teal eyes that look at you with wonder
>Those wings that used to make you think she was like an angel
>But behind it all was someone that broke your trust
>She sits down on the other couch
>You’re both silent for a while
>Then you write to her
>You write: “I remember everything.”
>She gasps
>”Oh sweetie, that’s great!”
>”But, you’re not happy with me…”
>You write: “You’re damn right I’m not happy with you! You committed crimes against me! You should be locked up!”
>Fluttershy frowns sadly
>Her eyes plead with you
>”I didn’t I’ve only been loving you.”
>You write: “You took away my virginity at the cottage that night. You were my best friend! And you raped me!”
>Fluttershy shakes her head
>You sign to her, it hurt you
>”Sweetie I know you w-were a bit uncomfortable when we did it…..but hopefully the physical pleasure you felt….um made up for it.”
>You put your hand to the Canvas
>It reads: “Pain, Distrust, Anger.”
>Her ears flatten
>She begins to tear up
>”Anon-“
>You raise your hand for her to stop
>You write over and over: “It didn’t make up for it! It didn’t! It didn’t! It didn’t! It didn’t’!”
>You write the phrase on a whole page
>You tear it out and throw it at her
>You growl at her
>She’s softly crying
>She looks you in the eyes again
>”Why Anon?”
>You don’t answer
>She looks upset
>”*snf* Why don’t you want to be intimate with me?”
>Tears run down her eyes
>On a new page you write: “You know why. You’re a pony and I don’t want to be with a pony that way.”
>Fluttershy shakes her head frantically
>”B-but I could help you get over t-that! You could tell me your fetish! Or what would make you more comfortable! Anything!”
>You shake your head
>You sign to her, too late
>She sobs and gasps
>”I love you!”
>You shake your head and go back to writing
>You write: “But I don’t love you, at least not in the way you love me.”
>Fluttershy lowers her head
>”What would you have me do Anon?”
>”I love you so much and I can’t help it! I couldn’t just hold it in forever Anon….”
>She wipes away her tears and looks at you again
>She smiles sadly
>”I would have to hold it in and never have the chance to be loved back.”
>”To never express how I feel about you, that would be awful for me Anon.”
>You almost feel sorry for that
>She looks as if she’s about to embrace you, but she stays on her couch
>”I find you so beautiful Anon, more than you could possibly imagine…”
>”I needed to be with you, sweetie. I needed to give you my love.”
>”I just w-w-wish you found me attractive and that you could feel the same.”
>You write: “I can’t force myself to be attracted it’s just how I feel.”
>You shake your head
>You write: “And that is no excuse for rape!”
>You feel yourself give her a hurt look
>You feel a great sadness wash over you
>She looks sympathetic
>You write: “It hurt me so much, Fluttershy. That you took my choice away from me, and you of all ponies would know why that would hurt me.”
>Fluttershy’s mouth quivers
>She nods
>You write: “That’s the worst part. I trusted you Fluttershy, you always believed in my choice and that I had the right to make a choice just like a pony. You treated me so kindly and respectfully before.”
>You sigh
>Fluttershy hides behind her mane a little
>You write: “It made everything you did to me so much more painful. You became everything I hated in the world Fluttershy.”
>Fluttershy begins to cry again at this
>”I’m sorry Anon!”
>”I never wanted to make you feel so bad!”
>”I wanted you to feel good, and loved!”
>”If I knew this was going to happen, I w-wouldn’t have done any of those things to you….”
>She sniffles
>You write: “They can’t be undone. We’re going to carry this with us for the rest of our lives.”
>There’s a moment of silence as you let that sink in
>Things won’t change no matter what happens
>Even if there’s justice
>She still betrayed you
>You’ll have to look back at your life
>Raped by the one you cared and trusted for in this world
>Your loss of innocence
>Your virginity
>The life you shared with her
>You want it back
>You wish you could be with her as a friend again
>You’ve been through so much together
>And you never wanted it to end
>It’s all gone now
>Fluttershy is still sobbing
>”You hate me now, I know it….*snf*.”
>You fight tears
>You exhale
>You use sign language for this statement
>You felt it was better at conveying this than writing
>You sign to her: “I don’t want to hate you.”
>You maintain eye contact with her
>”Oh Anon, I don’t want to be out of your life!”
>”Not after all we’ve been through!”
>”I love you, and I just want us to be happy again…”
>You write: “I loved you too. Not in the way you loved me…but I loved you.”
>Fluttershy gets a hopeful look
>”Maybe we can g-go back! Go home and go back to the way things were!”
>You write: “I’d have to forgive you first.”
>”Of course I want you to forgive me! I want to make things right again sweetie!”
>You do too
>You write: “On one condition.”
>You write: “Admit you raped me.”
>She’s silent for a moment
>”I made you sad and uncomfortable and I’m sorry for that. But I didn’t commit such a mean thing to you.”
>You feel some anger return
>You bitterly shake your head
>You sign to her, then no.
>You can’t forgive her then
>”*Snf* I have a promise to you Anon, I need you to forgive me!”
>”I love you, I care about you, and nothing is going to hurt you!”
>You cringe
>You’re pissed now
>You breathe heavily
>It’s too late for promises!
>You write: “If you really loved me, you wouldn’t have betrayed me! If you really cared you would have respected my choice!  Worst of all you hurt me where it mattered most: my heart.”
>You get up and storm out of the room even though you still have a couple of hours left
>This time you can’t fight the tears from your eyes
>She sobs loudly from inside the room, but you just keep walking away

>You are now Twilight Sparkle
>The failures to use the elements are beginning to get to everyp0ny
>Sometimes you would blame each other
>Other times a few of your friends were lost in thought
>Hoping they were doing things right
>Your latest attempt hasn’t gone any better
>But you’re all willing to try again
>You and your friends form a half circle around Discord
>You focus and try to connect with one another
>The familiar sensations course through you
>You all rise into the air
>But you all abruptly fall
>That was your worst attempt yet
>You look to Fluttershy
>She looks miserable
>Did something happen?
>You turn to Celestia
>She shakes her head and sighs
>Your heart sinks
>At this rate things seem to be getting worse
>Your friends all mutter to each other
>They’re wondering if somep0ny really has lost their element
>You look at the statue of Discord
>Your eyes widen when you see he is in a different pose than before
>The statue looks like its laughing
>You shiver

>You are now Anon
>It’s night again
>You’re not sure if you even will attempt to deal with Fluttershy again
>You sigh
>There’s a knocking on your door
>Wonder what they need from you at this hour
>Maybe they’re mad that you left your chat with Fluttershy early
>You answer it
>It’s a guard
>He tells you to follow him to Celestia’s bedchamber
>What could she want now?
>You arrive there quickly and enter
>She’s waiting for you there, and wide awake
>Her expression is sad
>You don’t like where this is going
>”Mr.Anon, as you know I have tried to settle your dispute with Fluttershy.”
>You nod
>”However, at the rate it is going….we do not have time for it anymore.”
>Shit
>What the hell is that going to mean for you?
>”Discord is much stronger than he was in the past week.”
>You cock your head, and motion your confusion
>”Everything is making him stronger.”
>”Your memories, her memories, your anger, Twilight’s anger, the distrust already forming between the elements, and most of all…..simply you.”
>You?
>”Your existence in this world was never meant to be Mr.Anon. You changed things just by existing all of our destinies and this world.”
>”It is because of this that Discord wants you, to use you to free him.”
>”You are not safe here anymore Mr.Anon, not in Canterlot.”
>What the hell, then what is she going to do?!
>”I am sorry, but tomorrow we will have to wipe you, Twilight, and Fluttershy. Again.”
>No! You just got done with that!
>Not again!
>You growl loudly
>This is bullshit!
>You should have known this would happen!
>You shake your head
>Not again
>Celesita gives you a guilty look
>Almost ashamed
>”This time it will be different. I’ll make sure you’re always being watched, to guide you every step of the way.”
>You punch a wall
>She doesn’t stop you
>She sighs
>You’re tired of being moved around and manipulated by her
>You’re just so tired
>”I am sorry, but I must….”
>You leave without signaling a goodbye
>A guard escorts you back to your bedroom
>You settle in your bed
>But you put your face into your pillow and scream into it
>It can’t end this way
>It just can’t
>You drift off to sleep, still frustrated
>You find yourself in a maze
>A light appears in front of you and you follow it
>A voice begins to emit from all angles of the maze
>”I told you so.”
>”You never listen.”
>It doesn’t make you any less angry
>You’ve never been so angry
>You scream upwards
>You drop to your knees
>”Nothing will change with Celestia.”
>”It’s going to keep happening over and over and over…”
>The light circles around your head and then flies into your face
>You’re given visions of Fluttershy
>Her molesting you
>Violating you
>Your friends not believing you
>The struggle to keep her away
>Over and Over
>It feels like an eternity
>And when it’s over you’re still begging for it to stop
>You run as the light follows
>It leads you into a clearing
>There is the statue of Discord
>The light enters Discord
>The statue moves
>It extends a claw to you
>”I know you want retribution.”
>”I know you want things to be right again.”
>”I know you’re angry.”
>”No one can help you, but me.”
>Before you can put your hand to his claw you wake up
>It’s about four in the morning
>You gasp for air
>Your hand touches your chest and you accidentally turn on the Canvas
>You get out of bed and leave the bedroom
>You can feel something in your head
>Leading you outside of the castle
>You’re angry
>You are Anon and you want your retribution
>Your Canvas displays one word
>It reads: “HATE.”

>You are now Twilight Sparkle
>You were sleeping when you are woken up by a familiar feeling
>The enchanted necklace you gave Anon is using your magic
>You shake
>You can feel what he is feeling to an extent
>Your eyes widen
>You need to stop him!
>To get the others
>Before it’s too late
>”Oh no…”