please kill me

29. november 2014
00:23 - Snowl: I removed from OTAS
00:23 - Snowl: for...
00:23 - Snowl: Le Murkoff?
00:24 - Evil: no
00:24 - Snowl: why kill?
00:24 - Evil: Because activity on TS and flagging on, and s2k is not stronk enough
00:24 - Snowl: sigh
00:24 - Snowl: k
00:30 - Snowl: one more chance m8?
00:31 - Evil: Nothing personell friend, you had the chance to improve on activity and all that
00:31 - Snowl: I couldnt take the chance tho
00:31 - Snowl: and now I have the time to do it
00:31 - Snowl: Like full time now due to my play production being over. It literally took up every hour of my weekdays
00:31 - Snowl: and my weekends
00:31 - Snowl: I was going to start my activity improvement tommorow
00:31 - Snowl: Please?
00:32 - Snowl: At least give me the weekend to show
00:32 - Snowl: I can improve my activity
00:32 - Evil: Sorry friend, you need to be activy 24/7 and be ready to flag. If you can't do this all the time then you will not be able to be in the faction.
00:32 - Evil: You have had plenty of time
00:32 - Snowl: but-
00:32 - Snowl: I couldnt use that time
00:32 - Snowl: Now I can
00:33 - Snowl: Please, my play practices were literally from three o clock in the afternoon to ten o clock at night
00:33 - Snowl: not to mentionn the school that starts at six in the morning
00:33 - Snowl: I swear to god, I have full time now to do this
00:34 - Snowl: I get that I havent been active, but the only thing blocking me from activity is gone. I can be on OTA now. I can be ready to flag up. I have the TS app, I can flag on it in seconds when asked. I will be on whenever a CAB is on, I will follow your orders, I will be there for sweeps, I will do anything to proove to you I can stay in the faction
00:35 - Snowl: Please Evil, one more chance so I can show you I am good enough to stay within this faction. If I dont improve activity if you give me another chance, black list me
00:35 - Evil: You can always re-apply
00:36 - Snowl: Evil, I am literally putting up my right to apply for one more chance. I am serious when I say, I will take a black list if my activity doesnt improve when you give me another chance
00:38 - Evil: It is nothing personal friend, and also. There is no such thing as remaining in the faction and then getting blacklisted if you do not improve.
00:38 - Snowl: thats how far I am willing to go
00:38 - Snowl: to keep my whitelist
00:39 - Snowl: Please Evil. I know its not personal, but I didnt have the chance to be active for hte past few months. But belive me, I fully have the chance now. I just got freedom very VERY recentley. I was about to put that into effect. Please. I am begging you. One chance to show my worth and improvement.
00:40 - Evil: ''For the past months''
that sentence
 is enough for me to say no.
00:40 - Snowl: I exagerated
00:40 - Snowl: I was there during sweeps, the dropship crash mini event, the deployement for the big event,
00:41 - Evil: You do realise that inactivity and all that jazz should have caused you to be de-whitelisted earlier right?
00:41 - Snowl: I took activity on whenever I was OOCLy able to access this computer
00:41 - Evil: we gave you like 3 more weeks than we wanted, because we gave you a chance
00:41 - Evil: been inactive for too long
00:41 - Snowl: Thats because I was cast into the fall play
00:41 - Snowl: and it literally ate up EVERY HOUR OF MY DAY
00:41 - Snowl: It is over. I have complete time to devote
00:41 - Evil: Sorry friend, re-apply in a couple of weeks.
00:41 - Snowl: please, dont do this
00:42 - Snowl: I;ll do anything
00:42 - Evil: You've had your chance friend and you managed to get involved in something that caused you to lose this, and asking me over and over will not change anything. Because in the end, it's not my call to make.
00:43 - Snowl: Whos call is it?
00:43 - Evil: Allah
00:43 - Snowl: Seriously Evil
00:43 - Snowl: this serve
00:43 - Snowl: is the closest thing to a life I even have
00:44 - Snowl: my life in general is just so godamn miserable and this is the only thing that lightens my day. Having these whitelists, all of them, it makes me happy. I enjoy RPing as diffrent people. I like pretending I am not me for a day. Thats how pathetic I am. I spend 24 hours on this thing on weekends alone. I will srsly devote my whole day tommorow to being on my OTA if thats what it takes
00:45 - Evil: Okay, it's not like you are banned from the server, you just don't meet the factions expectations.
00:45 - Snowl: but-
00:45 - Snowl: I can meet them
00:45 - Snowl: I have whatever time it takes to meet them
00:46 - Snowl: this is how much it means to me. I am fourteen godamn years old. If I could fucking drive and not be crammed in play practice against my will, (My parents forced me) I would devote my time for those spots of inactivity
00:47 - Evil: Okay, could you not try to guilt trip me?
00:47 - Snowl: I am not trying
00:47 - Snowl: I am just asking for this final chance to show you I have the time to devote to this faction. I get, I didnt have time. I should have been dewhitelisted ages ago. This time is diffrent. I have the time, I have the mic, I have what I need
00:49 - Snowl: Hell, I even attempted to get involved in that Contact event. I had plans- I knew I was going to have more time after that damn play was gione
00:50 - Snowl: https://www.lemonpunch.net/threads/a-small-note-distributed-around-the-sewers.22699/
00:50 - Snowl: wrong link
00:50 - Snowl: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vodd6C5ryUU
00:51 - Evil: But you don't have what we need, sorry. You can re-apply in a couple of days, a verdict will be made on the following application. If we deem you worthy to get back into the faction you will be re-introduced into the faction and all that jazz. Until then, take this as a final /no/ from me and continue on about your day.
00:52 - Snowl: Why cant I just reapply today
00:52 - Snowl: god this is making things even more harder for me
00:52 - Evil: No, you need to abide by applicatory rules
00:52 - Evil: failure to do so will result in an instant deny.
00:52 - Snowl: Well how amny days is a few
00:53 - Snowl: This music is literally a reflection of how desperately sad I am over all this shit. I have no day to even fucking continue anymore. ITs just Eat, get ignored by everyone, play this, sleep
00:54 - Evil: I wish you luck with White Ford and your new rebel group.
00:54 - Snowl: Yeah, of course they put me in charge of a dead faction
00:54 - Snowl: and a cringey rebel group
00:54 - Snowl: just admit it. I am a fucking failure all around
00:57 - Snowl: Im just not going to flag off
00:59 - Snowl: Iv'e got aaalllll night
00:59 - Snowl: to show my acitivtuy
01:00 - Evil: Alright, I think it's time that you take a couple of days off your computer and find something to mend your mind for the time being, if you feel this way about a vidya game then I do feel bad for you. This is taking a turn for the weird and cringeworthy side now. Stop now.
01:01 - Snowl is now playing Garry's Mod. Click here to join.
01:01 - Snowl: how long was that ban?
01:02 - Evil: Buy another game on steam
01:02 - Evil: and just like
01:02 - Evil: play it for a while
01:02 - Evil: just
01:02 - Evil: play a different video game
01:02 - Evil: and enjoy it
01:02 - Evil: please
01:02 - Evil: for the sake of god
01:04 - Snowl: I cant.
01:04 - Snowl: this is al I can play
01:05 - Snowl: You dont think I try to enjoy other things? I just cant.
01:05 - Snowl: this is all I have.
01:05 - Snowl: just let me suffer in silence.
01:06 - Snowl: Best part-
01:06 - Snowl: you are probbally going to share the hell out of this
01:07 - Evil: Not really, I don't do that sort of thing
01:07 - Evil: I could have posted a thread already
01:07 - Snowl: and to answer your question,
01:07 - Snowl: I am not AFK at the trainstation.
01:07 - Snowl: Im just sitting here.