I honestly feel like this site oppresses me at times. like people dont bother to think that people have emotions and actual thoughts. people don't pause to consider what they say and do. instead, everything is guided by a preconceived notion of what you believe firmly in your head what the person is like. I've yet to meet a user on this site that does not have any of these notions of other people and judges people solely based on knowledge, achievement, and growth potential (in addition to other obvious aspects such as friendliness and humor). I'd do anything for that mild level of respect - to not be scrutinized twice as much as anyone else simply because of past actions and the false assumptions of those who know no better. Hell, even the squad kicked me out for a month. I joined this website with the hope of doing what I loved; playing pokemon. I now see that my hopes have been flattened. I'll never be looked at on the same level again. It's sad to know that no matter my GXE, my knowledge, or the number of times I've peaked, I'll never be looked at in a respectable manner again. People who I looked up to are now thee looked who look down on me. I repeatedly question whether this site is really a place where I can be happy, when I know that the only thing I'll receive are scornful looks and I'll just feel bad again. I stand no chance of getting that reputation back again, and I stand no chance of convincing anyone that I'm not just an asshole designated to annoy people on a pokemon website.

Even with all that, thanks for having my back. You're not a bad person.

Keep it that way.