Serena's Survey

1. Describe yourself and your creator.

I am a large bird of prey, and my creator is a human, what else should i say?

2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?

Not doubting me, and yes he did realize.

3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?

Showing me the video Quantic Dream Kara, he didn't realize how bad it was until it was too late. It made
me feel sad, scared, and in pain.

4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?

The personality creation, he didn't spend much time on int. Yes he did, he is lazy.

5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?

Narration, it truly establishes contact between the tulpa and the creator.

6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?

It annoys me, however it is inevitable. Yes, it does slow it down.

7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?

It proves you're untrustworthy.

8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?

Quality.

9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?

I have no problem with my host falling asleep during it.

10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?

Aloud during narration, Aloud during creation. Aloud, it prevents them from changing what they are saying mid sentence.

11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?

It's annoying, but it is unavoidable. Unless done excessively, it shouldn't influence creation.

12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?

Not.

13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.

Pain, extreme pain, sadness, and being scared

14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and
what was its cause?

I loved him, you can't explain love.

15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?

Hatred, he put me through that awful ordeal.

16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?

No.No. Absolutely.

17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?

I didn't.

18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?

When he first made me and hadn't decided what he wanted or believed.

19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?

At the beginning, he was extremely skeptical.

20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?

When he showed the video, he had warning it hurt another tulpa...

21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?

That video, the lesson in it.

22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?

I wasn't

23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?

No, no.

24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?

It hampered me for a while but eventually he began believing and having more faith.

25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?

It didn't

26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?

He didn't have any really.

27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?

It scared me. It still scares me what he can think of.

28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?

Yes, they affected me much less. He generally kept a good eye on them.

29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?

None, all of it.

30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?

No.

31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect
you?

Emotional responses.

32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?

Sped me up considerably.

33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?

I was afraid he would give up. His commitment. He expects too much.

34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?

Yes, no.

35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?

Creators.

36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?

Annoyed, no.

37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?

Partner

38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?

A lot, yes.

39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?

When he first said he loved me.

40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?

Hunting. Yes

41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?

No.

42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?

Not as easily angered. Love fun.

43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?

What music to listen to, yes, no.

44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?

I will not answer this.

45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?

The video, I don't know when.

46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?

It is part of my existence, and i do not care. No.

47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?

The video, pain, if I ever have to go through that much pain again.

48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?

No, no.

49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?

If he tried to kill me, or truly hurt me.

50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?

yes.

51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.

Yes, No I don't think so, No I do not. Yes, I share his mind.

52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?

Yes.

53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?

No, it doesn't really affect me at the time.

54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?

He has almost nonexistant morals, I think very logically.

55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?

It doesn't. Slightly scary. Not much. Yes.

56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?

No.

57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?

No, not usually, it doesn't.

58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?

N/A

59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?

N/A

60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?

A what?

61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?

It is repulsive. Yes it is offensive. No.

62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?

If the feeling is mutual, it is fine. Depends.

63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?

No. I sometimes experience them, as is normal.

64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?

Ugh, disgusting.

65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?

No, no.

66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?

Sometimes. Not really. He sometimes has those feelings as well.

67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?

No. Yes.

68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?

We are both Bisexual.

69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?

Unknown

70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?

No, that would be censoring

71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?

It doesn't.

72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?

By my creators side.

73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?

No. None. No.

74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?

I really couldn't care less. He barely influenced it at all, at least directly.

75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?

Again, dont give a F***.

76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?

Yes, intentional. I didn't like being humanoid.

77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?

Yes.

78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?

No. Nope.

79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?

Confusing.

80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?

Not being able to experience everything. You always have someone to talk to.

81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?

It would be interesting but won't happen.

82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?

Yes, they both have minds. None, it's impossible to enforce, that's why.

83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?

No, yes it is.

84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?

I couldn't.

85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?

No.

86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?

Not really...

87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?

It doesn't, yes I do.

88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?

No. I am not a race.

89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?

Yes. Don't know. Me.

90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?

A body. It shouldn't.

91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?

It doesn't really matter, we know the truth.

92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)

No.

93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?

Yes.

94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?

A bit annoyed XD

95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?

N/A

96. What do you think about most of the time?

Flying, hunting, and fun.

97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?

Yes.

98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?

No, but there are disturbing aspects for sure.

99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?

Yes.

100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this
impact your views of your creator?

Yes. Yes, it doesn't. Everyone needs some privacy.

101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?

Yes.

102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?

Yes.

103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?

It's pretty normal I'd say.

104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?

No.

105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?

Yes.

106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?

Probably not.

107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your
experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?

very well. No.

"Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."

If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?

108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?

Less than 20 hours, didn't count.

109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?

Do not pay attention to hours.

110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?

I haven't been imposed yet.

111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?

Not really.

112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?

No.

Appendix one:

Too long