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- 3/27/14, from a hospital bed in ABQ, the third hospital I have visited
- in the last 72 hours in a valient but failed attempt to drive back home
- (while being followed all the way):
- ~~~
- Family, friends,
- If you're reading this, things have not turned out well for me. This is
- an effort to get the truth out to help others that may be facing
- similar predicaments. I hope you can catch those responsible someday,
- for the sake of everyone. Please consider that despite my silence on
- these matters, you may be subject to great danger by simply just
- knowing me.
- ~~~
- Fellow scientists and hackers (in the MIT sense of the word),
- This should serve as a wake-up call: at minimum, don't be careless like
- me. Read [4], and keep the dream alive as best you can.
- ~~~
- I applied to NSA in Spring 2011. I had just lost my job at the MIT
- Lincoln Laboratory and was considering a second bid at a PhD,
- continuing to take classes on campus. I was exploring several possible
- opportunities at the time, and the variance was high: on one end of the
- spectrum, I was thinking about starting a company with my flatmate, and
- on the other I was considering returning to the world of federally-
- funded R&D projects by joining a robotics lab at CMU.
- To establish context, this was before the Snowden disclosures. I had
- met a few (supposedly) ex-NSA throughout school, and all of them were
- sharp characters. My assumption at the time was that the AT&T spying
- scandal during the Bush presidency was not representative of the whole
- place. Plus, all states enguage in this stuff: to not do so would put
- one at great disadvantage.
- The NSA interview process drug on and on. After some discussions over
- the phone, I ended up filling out a huge form primaily about my work
- and residence history called the Q-86. My recruiter, Brittney Lundie,
- was considering me for the C2DP program, as a "cryptologic computer
- scientist". I would help mathematicians implement algorithms to run
- against big datasets - right down my alley, as I spent a lot of time
- studying database systems in grad school.
- Eventually, I assumed NSA had lost interest and I took a summer
- internship at a robotics lab run by CMU in Pittsburgh, NREC. NREC was
- located near the Allegheny River in the Lawrenceville neighboodhood.
- The first few months there I rented a room within walking distance of
- the lab that I found through Craiglist.
- The woman that owned the house at 4405 Milgate St. was Odile Hobeika.
- She was living there with her boyfriend Taylor Hahn. There was also an
- upstairs bedroom she rented to a friend, Lindsey Yoas.
- While I was at NREC, NSA finally came through to me with an offer of
- employment. It was dependent upon me flying out to Baltimore, MD and
- passing a variety of tests, including a polygraph. The interview
- process was interesting [1], but I returned to Pittsburgh with the
- impression that I had done very poorly on the polygraph and wouldn't
- get the job.
- A week later, things got strange in the worst of ways. One night, I
- woke up in a sweat, heart pounding, being jarred awake by an
- involuntary muscle contractions. The contractions primarily consisted
- of uncontrolled shrugging and leg jerking. This combination made it
- impossible to sleep, and I ultimately went to the ER, where they
- ultimately gave me Xanax and sent me home, suspecting a panic attack. I
- spent the next couple days wearing a Halter meter, wondering what was
- happening to me and if I was going to survive.
- At the time, the event could plausibly have been related to work
- stress, but was supremely suspicous. First of all, I had never
- experienced any sort of panic attack or emotional breakdown prior to
- this (even in far more stressful times [2]). Second of all, everyone in
- the house happened to be out when this occured (for everyone to be gone
- for days at a time almost never happened).
- Third, and most obviously,
- it happened immediately after I failed my 1st NSA polygraph.
- Fourth, I
- am now dying at the age of 29 from presumably some other unexplained
- illness.
- I spent the remaining months afterward trying to recover. My sleep
- quality seemed low, my ability to concentrate was shaken, and my memory
- seemed to fail me more often. I thought I might have been poisoned, but
- wasn't convinced. I was still taking Xanax every night to get to sleep.
- At the end of the summer, NSA got back to me and said I needed to do a
- second polygraph session, that I hadn't failed but they "just needed
- more data". Though I was certainly in no shape to do so, I went back
- anyways; you can guess how well this went. At the end of the summer I
- received my rejection letter.
- NREC continued to drag its feet on hiring me on as full-time as well.
- Eventually I left, not wanting to be retained an intern forever. A
- curious thing started around this time. I began to be solicited by
- random people on LinkedIn. At the time, my assumption was that someone
- at Lincoln dropped my name in the appropriate hat. I spent Christmas at
- my mother's house, taking a break and feeling out leads, many from
- LinkedIn. In January, I interviewed with Radius Intelligence in San
- Francisco, a local business search company founded by some Berkeley
- students.
- Radius was hard work (especially in my enfeebled state), but I enjoyed
- it overall and learned a lot. This finally seemed to be the start-up
- dream I had read so much about on Hacker News; I was pumped to have
- finally escaped the world of defense. The big downside was volitility;
- lots of folks had been fired from Radius in the past. After a
- management shake-up though, most of the engineering team left in a
- short period of time; I did as well.
- Because of the volitility, I used Airbnb to stay in various locations
- throughout the city. I needed to make a living somehow, but was also
- hedging against the possiblity of being attacked again.
- After Radius, I started experiencing scary encounters with what could
- have been random people, but I now recognize were field agents. The
- first was on the street in Belmont right before the start of PyCon
- 2013. I had seen him earlier in the day and said "deja vu".
- This agent explained to me that he had been raised from an early age to
- protect the Jewish people, and made a refence to Israeli intelligence.
- He further explained that another holocaust must be prevented at all
- hosts and that humanists were wrong about Islam, that it was
- fundamentally incompatible with the western world. He talked about
- trying to infiltrate student groups and seemed very interested in me in
- particular. He then claimed to have many friends in the FBI and said
- some negative things about Obama.
- I stood there wide-eyed and listened, puzzled and scared, trying not to
- argue any points with him: he seemed articulate and genuinely
- convicted, and I feared he might be powerful. I shook his hand in an
- effort to get away, and he recommended I read several controversial
- books, including "The Third Choice" and "The Arab Mind".
- I had another discussion with a street agent several months after I
- started a new job at Crittercism. At the time, I was living near UCSF.
- He was reading a copy of the "Shia Revival"; later, I came to learn of
- these shorts of gestures as "signaling". He first asked if I was in
- trouble (as if he knew that was the case). He then asked why I chose to
- live in San Francisco instead of Boston. Finally, he said "SF is not a
- friendly place", seeming to imply it was time to skip town.
- Late last year, after going on leave of absence from Crittercism to
- better focus on my health problems from the event in Pittsburgh, I ran
- into the third agent as I was leaving the office of my GP.
- She asked a complex question out the blue, along the lines of:
- "If you knew someone associated with the Red Army, and they offered you
- a job that would be a huge promotion, but you weren't OK with what they
- were doing, would you take it?" I immediately thought to myself: "Which
- Red Army? China? Russia?". I then said I wouldn't unless there were
- special circumstances.
- She then asked me: "If someone did something terrible to you, but you
- couldn't prove it, what would you do?" At this point I tensed up,
- realizing that she was aware of my poisoning. She proceeded to tell me
- a story the husband of a diabetic friend of hers killing his wife by
- giving her too much insulin. Note that diabetes runs in my family. At
- that point, I assumed she meant a job with NSA (and I sure as hell
- wasn't going to take any job that would put my family at risk like
- that).
- Her prediction did come in handy. When I last returned to SF, a man was
- waiting for me in the food court, and offered me a job with a Swiss
- Bank with an unbelievable salary. He listed off a variety of perks of
- Switzerland, and noted it was more socialist. I was afraid enough to
- humor the idea in front of him, not sure if he was US and feeling me
- out or foreign and trying sway me. I later looked up the bank, and it
- has a bad reputation in the financial community as being a place where
- Jewish treasure was aggregated and kept after WWII. It was this moment
- I realized there were at least two groups involved, that they don't get
- along, and that they both somehow have me on their radar screen.
- Thing is, why am I so important? Because I'm agnostic and have worked
- on federally-funded projects in the past?
- Perhaps it has to do with my father, who held a few genuine socialist
- viewpoints. Most of his political viewpoints were disgusting and
- unfounded, but it's hard to distance oneself from blood: was I
- perceived as a threat because of them?
- So as you can see, it seems I haven't had much control over how this
- process has played out. I don't understand it, either: I've been
- fumbling around in the dark and if I knew what was going on, I could
- probably have made some decisions to save myself. As is, it seems like
- I am being picked on by at least one and possibly two extremely
- powerful organizations. Maybe they are acting upon me to learn more
- about each other; I don't know.
- So at this point, the best I can do is to bow out gracefully.
- [1] Interview Process
- We stayed at a hotel nearby Fort Meade. They fingerprinted and
- eyescanned us in the "Friendship Complex". I was taken aside and driven
- to tour the main facility, which was absolutely unreal in terms of
- size. They had me speak with a few different engineers, all of which
- could essentially tell me nothing.
- Notably, one of the early condescending statements by the woman
- conducting the first polygraph for me: "You realize this is the
- National *Security* Agency, not the National Science Agency". I sat
- there, flabbergasted.
- [2] Hard Things I've Experienced Before This
- Shortly after high school graduation, my father threw me out the house.
- He tried to prevent me from communicating with my mother and the rest
- of the family by threatening them (physically). I had to put myself
- through undergrad/grad school. No breakdowns in this entire period, but
- a lot of taking it a day at a time. I snuck a cell phone to my mom, my
- only way of talking to her for years.
- [3] Discrediting This Letter
- Some things to consider when someone eventually claims I'm either crazy
- or a spy.
- First of all, I largely owe my college education to government money in
- the form of generous scholarships or pay: I received the Missouri
- Bright Flight scholarship and spent a year of undergrad working in
- government-funded R&D labs (NASA and Sandia).
- Second of all, my boss at Sandia wanted me to stay there instead of
- going to grad school at Wisconsin. If I had been a spy, wouldn't I have
- stayed? A similar thing could have been said about my time at Lincoln
- Laboratory (I deliberately remained an intern so I could spend more
- time taking classes on campus).
- As for crazy, well, if I'm crazy at least it got me through school with
- no financial backing, woo start-ups, etc.
- In the event someone tries to fake some other terminal message from me,
- know that this is the only document I've ever written explaining all of
- this. The handwritten version of this letter contains the MD5 hash of
- this transcript.
- Possibly paranoid here, but at one point on the street in SF, a young
- white man in an offensive t-shirt walked up to me with a hat on and
- struke a pose, as if he knew me. His friends immediately started
- snapping photos; I thoughtlessly stared at them for a moment.
- Call me paranoid again, but at another point on the street in SF, an
- old Chinese man with what appeared to be a shaky hand asked me to help
- him write an address on a letter. I thoughtlessly did so.
- [4] For Scientists: My Greater Concern
- Based upon my experience, I fear many freedoms, especially freedom of
- religion, could be threatened by the abilities of NSA that have come to
- light recently. Advanced collection networks like this are the perfect
- tool for weeding out "undesirable" people from society; when needed,
- they should be constrained carefully!
- That said, in this case, I think we're seeing at least two different
- intelligence agencies competing with each other on US soil. I fear that
- one of may irrationally view all atheists and agnostics as undesirable
- or likely to commit violence against those of faith.
- Regardless, whenever you build such a massive collection network, you
- run the risk of its data being used by a third party, either through
- sharing agreements or hacking. It is indeed an existential threat to
- our democracy, especially during things like [5].
- Most importantly, remember that the US surveillance network is very
- real! I know this not from using it, but from having been followed by
- agents using it for the years after the polygraph. Both Facebook and
- Google were watched in great detail for me.
- [5] Cold War 2.0?
- Several friends have asked me prying questions about my economic
- beliefs over the course of the last few months (I assume prompted by
- investigators). It seems like I'm caught up in the middle of a conflict
- between Judaism and some sort of European socialist organization. Guess
- that's what I get for being agnostic? I can't imagine my own country
- doing this: I've received far too much good advice from friendly
- strangers from the home country over the last few years. It's got to be
- a foreign hit.
- But who? Well, if the Israelis are at fault then perhaps I was got a
- drink with the wrong person in SF, or posted too a liberal article
- about US income inequlity in grad school. Ask around, I'm definitely
- not a socialist firebrand that wants to do away with private property
- and put everyone in townhouses!
- That said, I think it's also likely that the Europeans are involved. A
- bumped into an old Airbnb host of mine in SF recently, John Beauchemin,
- while eating sushi in the Mission. Or rather, he walked in the door and
- immediately started buying more food and drinks: a latino friend of his
- brought some of it over. That's my best guess. John expressed some
- radical anti-religious beliefs while I was staying at his place (e.g.
- "You should visit southeast Asia: one of the few places in the world
- Christianity left untouched"). Since someone foreign just tried to
- recruit me, my guess is that he wasn't the only one that was feeling me
- out.
- Wish I knew the answers; guess you'll have to figure them out.
- - James Jolly
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