i want to talk about my experiences in the last week and how to learn from it
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idk thats not really a good description but i guess ill just start
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every year in Berlin theres this big consumer electronics expo. I got a job there. ill go to uni in october so i have a lot of time, and took up that job
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I'm 18, turned 18 2 days ago :)
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anyway, my job was to put VR goggles on people, sit at the info desk etc, all that stuff
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Thanks!
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anyways, i actually liked work a lot
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and the people i worked with
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but they were all like 5 to 10 years older than me. most of them anyways. we werea group of 12
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6 of them just wanted to work a few days and get the money, but me and some others were actually hanging out after work etc
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the thing is, im 18 but have barely any social skills
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the only people i can call friends only love playing minecraft etc
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so anyways i took this opportunity to just throw myself out there and i loved it
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but im not really that comfortable with myself yet
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and its really depressing to think what all the people ive worked with, what they probably have been doing for their eigteenth birthday
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its really important its like the 21st in the US
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ive probably hugged more people in the last 7 days than in the last 7 years lol
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so there was this afterparty at the end, and i was there and after a few beers went on to awkwardly take part in the dancing
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thats just one of the things that i missedo ut on learning earlier
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i feel
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while other people my age would be experienced in all that already
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i dont know jack shit about clothing like, i used to just randomly grab something from my wardrobe back in high school
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i started putting a bit more effort into it, hetting more clothes i liked online etc
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but i still have no idea what im doing lol
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same with my hair
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i have a general idea of what i want, but not how to achieve it, if it would look good on me etc
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and so anyway, what i forgot to mention
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on that aftershow party with all the people who worked for that company (the #1 german tv station)
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ARD
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(its not really a company)
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there were like 2 other guys who mustnt have been much older than me
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like 18
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and they were sticking out of the crowd like sore thumbs
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although they were dancing etc as if theybe been doing it all their lives
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so how about me im not only 5 years younger than my peers but also have no idea how to act in those situations
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i mean it did go well over the time at work.. we got along really well and we said we have to meet again
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but im not sure if thats just a phrase
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also theres lollapalooza coming up this weekend im sure some of them will go there
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i think thats fun but ive also never been to a festival before
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and again i feel like i'd be sticking out like a sore thumb between all those cool people who dress well and look good, id be sticking out
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ând when i go to uni in october, its for computer science
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but i dont know how to find friends at uni outside the people i also go to lectures with etc.
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thats pretty much it, for now.
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like, if my people from work, were still in a group chat, are like, lets go to a bar on friday, id be like yea sure lets do it, but i wouldnt know how to order etc
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https://youtu.be/d7skRPLGEOI?t=14m7s this is me
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i look soo young
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im hoping i can remain friends with them
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oh that also reminds me
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me, a coworker of mine and another girl that was working in the hall near us took a taxi home
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paid for by the taxpayer :p because ARD is one of the two german state tv channels
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if thats the right way of putting it
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anyways she said something about i need to ___ my friends
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forgot what it was
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and i was jokingly like, go ahead, were here
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and she said, no, my real friends
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im not upset about that anyways
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and we were all really drunk so you shouldnt put too much on whats said in that context i guess
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but its just sad that i couldnt call anyone a real friend
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but hopefully when i go to uni. and ill want to figure out the hair styling and fashion part out by then so yea
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thats enough for now :)
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i hope you can get an idea of whats going on in my head and write something