Kotarou's badass monologue.

One day, I realized I had nothing.
I thought my pockets were filled with happiness, but really they were empty.
It shouldn't have surprised me, since I'd never made an effort to fill them with anything.
But I wasn't even aware of it.
I'd been leading an aimless, meaningless life.
Then suddenly, one day, it felt as though I'd lost a lot of time.
I could talk with anyone. Absolutely anyone.
But I had no close friends. Not even one.
It was obvious what that meant.
My life couldn't have been more shallow.
My childhood friend, Kanbe Kotori, was the only person I could talk to freely.
Yes...
...she was...my friend.
(...I'll do it all over.)
(And I'll do it better this time...)
An earnest wish.
But making it come true isn't easy.
Everyone struggles with that.
People don't find happiness automatically.
They have to work for it.
What is happiness?
Is it like youth? Then what is youth?
"Something bright and wonderful, I guess." Kotori once said.
"...who cares? Don't waste time thinking about it." Yoshino retorted.
A long time ago, someone else said it was "Life's tightrope walk."
All three of their opinions feel right to me.
It's wonderful, it's unknowable, and it's terrifying.
Of course it's a hard question. It has no answer.
But I decided to search for one.
Unfortunately, the flow of time was cruel.
In no time at all, it was summer. In the blink of an eye, it was fall.
Before I knew it, I was a sophomore.
I got worried.
I was still empty-handed.
I hadn't even glimpsed what I should be doing.
I'd just been wasting time...