* :Chloe Lombardi nods, casually walking to the south: *
* :Chloe Lombardi sits her elbows on the railing, chin in her hands as she glances up: *
Chloe Lombardi : How've you been lately?
* :Xavier Crass leans on the railing beside her before responding.: *
Xavier Crass : Well enough to come see you~
Xavier Crass : Chole, you seem rattled.
* :Chloe Lombardi chuckles, it fading into a neutral look, "Do I really show it off that much?": *
Xavier Crass : Absolutely so, I can feel your vibrations through the metal..
Xavier Crass : What are you afraid of?
Chloe Lombardi : Changing too much.
Xavier Crass : Yourself? Your, life? Is it that you wanted something to stay the same?
Chloe Lombardi : Ever since I've been going more and more into this aspect thing, I feel like I get angrier e
asier. He did say I'd change, but..
* :Chloe Lombardi frowns a bit, kicking a pebble off the bridge into the water: *
Xavier Crass : But what, Chole?
Chloe Lombardi : Not this much.
Chloe Lombardi : Karn told me to go seek out someone who can probably help... so I'm going to try that.
Xavier Crass : There is no such thing as free power Chole. The more you want, the more you must sacrific
e.
Xavier Crass : And yet you were saying you were becoming stronger, for me.
Xavier Crass : Did you think i wanted this for you?
Chloe Lombardi : You, as well as myself.
Chloe Lombardi : Nah... but I knew it wasn't going to be such a smooth road.
Chloe Lombardi : It just all poofed in at once.
* :Chloe Lombardi chuckles: *
Xavier Crass : Hehe.So you've gain more power of the bear aspect.
Xavier Crass : In reality, too much if you need to seek help.
Chloe Lombardi : Anger er.. was just never really something I dealt with much. So I'm not sure what to do
with it.
* :Chloe Lombardi shifts, still leaned over on the banister: *
Chloe Lombardi : Shale gave me a book on meditation... think I'll try that too.
Xavier Crass : How can you say such a thing? Did not your circumstances bring out anger?
Xavier Crass : Feeling weak...
Chloe Lombardi : I still feel kind of weak. Not so much physically, but uh hm..
Chloe Lombardi : In my head? Hard to explain...
Xavier Crass : Try to. Are you saying you feel as if you're losing a mental grip?
Chloe Lombardi : More like a social one...? Like I'm not good enough for people.
* :Xavier Crass gently placed his hand on her shoulder: *
Xavier Crass : Chole, you speak nonsense. Excuses. There is only a handful of people whom acceptance
Xavier Crass : you've ever cared about.
Xavier Crass : As for the others, be yourself. Be peaceable.
Xavier Crass : Speak in a manor that's meant to upheld unity...
Shale Lynn has logged in.
Xavier Crass : If that is something they can not adjust to, then pick your company elsewhere.
* :Chloe Lombardi nods some, sighing tiredly and leaning against his side, "You're such a smartypants.":
*
Chloe Lombardi : I never meant to drag you down here to talk to you about this, I just wanted to give you a
moment of peace where you didn't have to think about others so much or work.
* :Chloe Lombardi chuckles quietly: *
Xavier Crass : Haha, Sometimes the interactions i have amaze me.  I've always like
Xavier Crass : learning of people.
Xavier Crass : I am a busy person, yes.
Chloe Lombardi : Oh psh, as if you don't have some strange things following me sometimes. What is it, p
eople? Magic?
* :Xavier Crass laughed lightly.: *
Xavier Crass : Silly girl, why has it not occurred to you that we simply know the same people.
Xavier Crass : And they talk to one another about everything?
* :Chloe Lombardi huffs, "How am I supposed to know people talk about me!": *
Xavier Crass : Why would you think they don't? That is a clear sign of the value you have for yourself.
Xavier Crass : I hear many things.
Xavier Crass : Like people, who hardly know me, say they think You and I are madly in love with each other
.
Chloe Lombardi : It's not that I don't think I'm worth being talked about.. I just don't expect it.
Xavier Crass : Only a fool, doesn't accept fact and truth.
* :Chloe Lombardi looks up at him, quirking an eyebrow with a slight flush on her cheeks: *
Chloe Lombardi : Well I know it's fact now! That uh, people talk about me.
Xavier Crass : I didn't say it was negative either. But the gossips accuracy needs improvement.
* :Chloe Lombardi looks down the river, "Well. I do have feelings for you. I just didn't want to focus on them
.": *
Chloe Lombardi : I wanted to.. focus on helping me. And you through helping me.
* :Chloe Lombardi looks upward at him after, serious about what she'd just said: *
* :Xavier Crass paused for a moment. and looked down at her: *
Xavier Crass : Do you want to know what I truly need right now, Chole
Chloe Lombardi : Not a lover, I'm sure.
Xavier Crass : No. I do not.
* :Xavier Crass pats her shoulder: *
Chloe Lombardi : I figured.
Xavier Crass : And try not to sound so self-defeated...That wasn't what I was going to say
Xavier Crass : What i need...
Xavier Crass : Is to be completely honest with you.
* :Chloe Lombardi stands up straight, hands on the railing still: *
Xavier Crass : My way, is becoming the persona needed for the occassion. It may be highly conceited of m
e
Xavier Crass : to say this, but you lead me to believe my presence was a positive motivation for you.
Xavier Crass : That it helped fuel a desire to improve yourself.
Chloe Lombardi : You're making it sound like I've used you.
Xavier Crass : And yet you've taken nothing from  me, so how can that be so?
Xavier Crass : As I was saying..
Xavier Crass : That is who i am, to you.
Xavier Crass : Beit mentor, friend, and unexpectedly, love interest.
* :Chloe Lombardi chuckles, "You have been for a while.": *
Chloe Lombardi : People just keep telling me I focus too much on it... so I just let it be for a good long whil
e.
Xavier Crass : Was I, in the prontera flower fields, when we would lay ontop of each other?
Chloe Lombardi : Well I'll admit you got me pretty riled up back then.. mm. Was that after the Geffen mess
? It started a good long while after that.
* :Xavier Crass stood up. taking a few paces towards the bridge.: *
Xavier Crass : And yet, was I still, when you were romantically involved with Van? I think so, and do not.
Xavier Crass : For that moment in time, you were as warm water.
Xavier Crass : Both hot and cold.
* :Chloe Lombardi frowns, "I never actually did fall in love with him. Maybe it was best I didn't.": *
Chloe Lombardi : I felt what it was like to have someone say it so quickly to me... and it felt weird.
Chloe Lombardi : We sort of started drifting apart after a couple months.
Chloe Lombardi : I guess at the time it did? But it doesn't really bother me now. I think he made the right c
hoice to stay with his family.
Xavier Crass : That brings me no comfort. As what you were attracted to, was convenience. And forwardne
ss.
Xavier Crass : That is the only real explanation for being with someone you do not fully love.
Xavier Crass : While at the time you owe me no explanation
Chloe Lombardi : It never meant to bring you comfort. What I said. I just had to get it off my
chest.
* :Chloe Lombardi smiles faintly, "I felt so happy when you asked me for help, about improving
yourself.": *
Xavier Crass : We hardly see each other, because that is how i want them to be. I can not
rightly be more than I am
Xavier Crass : right now.
Chloe Lombardi : I know.
Chloe Lombardi : I expect nothing. If I did, I'd be crying and fighting it.
Chloe Lombardi : I just want to keeping helping you. Like how you asked back then.
* :Chloe Lombardi smiles, "I already came into saying how I felt knowing it was one sided,
Xavier.": *
Chloe Lombardi : I just had to say it.
Xavier Crass : From now on.Your improvement is for you. I have benefited in a different way.
An unexpected way even to me.
Chloe Lombardi : And what's that?
Xavier Crass : Hehe, being the real me. Not just someone i decided to be to help a woman in
need.
Xavier Crass : I'm saying I've reached my goal.
* :Chloe Lombardi smiles still, "Good.": *
Chloe Lombardi : You better not go disappearing on me now, though. We're still friends, and
you still better come visit.
* :Xavier Crass smiled, running a hand through his hair.: *
Chloe Lombardi : Even if it's only once a month, I'll have a smile on my face when that once a
month is. We're still friends, regardless of how little we see each other.
Xavier Crass : Though your smile is fake, rest assured that is it not my nature to abandoned
my friends
* :Chloe Lombardi pouts, "My smile isn't fake, how rudeeee.": *
* :Chloe Lombardi chuckles: *
Xavier Crass : Another Van will appear in between. But that's life. I hope you retain the
strength you've gain so far.
Chloe Lombardi : Eh, I'm not counting on it. I think it's time I stop thinking so much about
having someone and a family...
Chloe Lombardi : It's just not in the cards right now.
* :Xavier Crass shook his head lightly.: *
Xavier Crass : Im sorry. For whats going to happen after I leave.
Chloe Lombardi : What's going to happen?
* :Xavier Crass doesn't respond.: *
Chloe Lombardi : You think I'm going to cry?
* :Xavier Crass doesn't respond.: *
* :Chloe Lombardi frowns a little, looking worried now: *
Chloe Lombardi : Xavier... you're worrying me.
Xavier Crass : Well, in anycase.. was there anything else you wanted to tell me?
Chloe Lombardi : Just that I was happy to see you again and try not to drive yourself crazy at
work.
* :Chloe Lombardi smiles faintly: *
Xavier Crass : If i can handle death, i can handle life.
* :Xavier Crass winks: *
Chloe Lombardi : I suppose I should let you go then, huh? Can't keep death waiting forever.
Xavier Crass : Hehe, i suppose not.
Xavier Crass : Have a good evening, Chole.
Chloe Lombardi : You too, Xavier.