love and other /lit drugs

Bitterness fills the void of your absence. My days are spent in longing as i wistfully stare at the sun in hopes that I will one day stand by your side in its light. The morning of realization begins with my spit cascading from my second story window onto the ground below. With its mighty splat I realize that a woman such as you Alexis deserves more than I could offer. The summer wind blows cold as I realize my epiphany is beyond sincerity. A sarrow voice whispers, "you will never love again,". What absurdity, for as long as I live, I love.

Well thats it. Hopefully I didn't go to creepy. I guess that's hard because I don't really know you. It would be awesome if we became pen pals or something. I dont have a pen pal, and I truly would like one.

I'm sorry for the love letter, you may notice that I never explicitly said "I love you". This is because love is a pretty strong word and I've only really loved one other person outside my family(thats female) and we went out for almost a year.

That being said, you seem very interesting and I would like to continue correspondence.

With admiration,
Anonymous

P.S fill free to refer to me with a name of your choosing(Maybe Ishmael, Solomon, ect.)

--------------------(me)
Oops, almost forgot. I think we should sometimes send songs and stuff to each other. So here's one: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vAN6UZHpaNc. I guess if I were to describe the song - it's like walking down an alley in San Francisco at 3am coming off an MDMA high. Then around like the 2:50 mark, it's like seeing the love of your life trying to kill herself a few hundred yards from you. I would say the song ends right when you're right next to her and about to stop her.

Just my opinion though, and honestly in different listens I feel something completely the reverse of above. What do you thinkz? Also send me something, i ruv muzzic

------------------(her)
 Hello
Thank you for the love letter. i'm kind of stunned. i thought it would be a dick pic or something but it was actually really lovely. and i like the song a lot too.
here are two of my favorite songs, the first relatively new and the second is one of my old favorites.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c3BFUVzRtMo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZYodKP5JrA

I'm not really sure how to respond to a love letter, especially from someone anonymous. Have we met before? And why Ishmael or soloman as aliases?


-----------(me)
The songs you sent me are pretty awesome. The first one reminds of a time when I was on a hotel roof in budapest with friends and I probably put on the best intoxicated ballet performance of my life (im usually not big on the drugs and alc stuff, but like they say when in rome(or in this case budapest)) which was then followed the next day by the best plane ride ever(if you have the chance to have a sex on a plane; dont hestitate, just act). Its always nice when songs remind you of memories like that.

The second is also beautiful and the music video is out of this world. Both are overall definite additions to my library.

By the way, we have definitely seen each other before. Well at least I've seen you, but im assuming the experience is mutual because I do stand out in a crowd decently(in a good way according to my female sources, but they can lie sometimes though).

 And I just like the names Ishmael and Solomon to be honest. But I mean theres no point in using a name since we'll be reffering to each other in the second person im guessing.

Seeing as you definitely know your way around music, what about movies? Like what are three movies that you really really like?


---------(her)
i understand what you mean about songs reminding you of memories. sometimes you hear something and it stirs an emotion or memory deep inside of you. where have we seen each other? do you mind me asking what prompted you to write to me and to reach out to me in this way?

i am a huge star wars nerd and always have been. besides star wars, i'd say my other favorite movies are blue valentine, l'enfant d'en haut and the breakfast club. i really am drawing a blank on movies right now but i'm sure I'm forgetting some. how about you?


---------(me)
It's pretty hard not to absolutely love Star Wars, though I'd probably pick Lord of the Rings over it(im sorry). The only one i've seen out of the movies you mentioned is the breakfast club, but I'm torrenting the other two as I type. My top three are probably City of God, Trainspotting, and American History X but Ill probably say three entirely diff movies if you ask me again later. If you havent seen them I'd be glad to find a way to send them to you because theyre on my computer.

As for what prompted me to reach out to you this way; that is a sorta difficult question. Like I've heard about you before and I saw(more like casually stalked I guess) your various social media outlets, and I was like I really wish I knew this person.

With that a myriad of options developed. I first considered that good ole facebook approach(we arent friends but we have a lot of mutual friends). But messaging you "hey" is just so awkward and mundane. Like if I were lucky you would respond with "hey, do I know you?". And then I predicted all the autism I never knew I had would suddenly envelope me and our conversation would end there.

Then I was like oh wait. Ive never written a love letter to anyone before. And like I could probably figure out a way to do it anonymously so I dont get completely embarrassed. Then with a "fuck it, whats the worst that can happen" attitude I found your ask.fm.

Overall I'd say I made a pretty good call, I mean this email convo is pretty raw. As for when did we see each other, it was at a basketball game.


-------(her)
Unfortunately, I haven't seen any of the lord of the rings movies, i guess I've always just been a die hard star wars person and just haven't really gotten around to seeing lord of the rings i suppose. i love trainspotting though! ewan mcgregor has been one of my favorite actors since i was very young. i haven't seen the other two but i've heard of them and caught brief synopsies.

im glad you decided to talk to me now that we've established a connection slightly deeper than a "hey". i think you made a good call too so far. i dont think I've ever gone to a basketball game besides a (anon school) home game, and i doubt you go to (anon school).


-------(me)
Lord of the Rings is def worth a looksie. Some highlights: i think one of the movies won like 11 oscars, Frodo's main homie(Sam) is the probably most awesome loyal simpleton sidekick in all of literature or film, 100% garuntee youll fall in love with Aaragon or Legolas(probs both). Overall all three movies of it deserve a place in the western canon(i feel like thats a thing).

...u love trainspotting and ewan mcgregor???  stop being perfect. I absolutely love this scene (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wqgkZDbe4Xk), and I really like his outfits throughout the movie. Also the word "shite" has had a place of prominence in my vocabulary since watching the movie.

You'll love city of god. Its just beautiful in every way. Bookmark this link: http://www.sockshare.com/file/DLX3H92ZAD4W8CK# and you can watch it later sometime.

I dont go to (anon school), but like how did you know? Am I not (anon school) material :(?

side note: this long form communication is very inspiring. Like today I wrote a poem during study instead of just playing bball or talking to my friend about how we should start a book club so we can read more(this convo happens more than i care to admit). Its like 7/8ths done and I can share it with you if you want later.

Random question: how did you get the nickname (anon nickname)?


-------(me after 2 days of no response)
Ok so Im assuming the reason why you arent responding is because the fact that Im a shite human being and that I've written similar love letters to other girls has come to your attention.  I guess theres no point in lying to you at this figurative "spork" in the road. What happened was that initially I thought you were cute and stuff but I was just fucking around. I was just sending random messages to a few girls anonymously and then I had fun responding. Usually the girls were just like "lolol"/"ewwwww" but you threw this curveball when you turned out to be actually really interesting.

I promise no one else knows about this email convo on my end. Like it honestly made my day every time you responded because no girl has girl has ever seemed so interesting over just like text conversation to me before.

All in all, im sorry for being a complete asshole and though I would still like to talk to you I completely understand if you wish the opposite.


also heres this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3HQLTwIIHXo     at least I can say im not 110% terrible because you met reggie because of me. hah?

----------(her)
Hi
Yeah I figured it out. I'm sorry but I don't know if i want to continue this conversation if you are going to insist on staying anonymous I just don't feel comfortable especially now that I figured it out. You could be anybody and I don't know where this conversation could end up. So if you would like to reveal yourself that would probably be for the best