**sic, notes taken after ingesting MDMA (unedited)**

**sic, notes taken after ingesting MDMA (unedited)**

just before 2pm: notice lighting in fav music videos (oh no - marina), love music but doesn't sound differnt
less coordinated 2pm
calm aty .032 not wory but nort dopey
uninhibtted soft singing nerar window!
spacey at 2.09
210 off tv
2.15pm sensual peeing, not pleasauralbe though, kinda automatic and unfelt
2.14pm obervation while writing notes - i'm less pedantic (time idfferent, lookig at different closks)
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2.23pm memory affected, but it's not anxiety producing to forget - forgetting tasks i'm on..less inhibited to do tasks i was avoiddding that seemed hard like the math for my debit card what's left and todo, and  clarity account
2.40 - music wonderful, hard to implement task i've thought of since i forget,! see chat log, but msuci kinda addictive,,,lost time worry...i mean not worred about not being productive
2.44 - start to feel less like parents are agreesive, and more like they are victism who need therapy!...and by therapy i'm gonna make sure i'm not an asshole to my kids and others! how good of m and society to facilitate....wow colours of room nice warm red
2.47 kinda feel drunk but not stupid, just slower, without negative body load of alcohol
3.42 - not totally uninhibited, didn't want to play emotianl abuse videos when L and V where here
holy shit last hour went really quicly
**switched to taking notes on my phone**
305 play with water to test if shower worthwhile doesn't feel extra special
Realise shirt has been on backward whole day haha
Feeling superpositi
Scratched self and it hurts longer than usual but it's okay

315 cooler dancing mother ducker contacted couple of people lol

538 !33! A!3been a constant sorta pleasant calm open spaced out slightly not nauseous feeling for some time not derealised spaced out though unlike m

Able to look t people no social anxiety

But still OCD

5pm **redacted** Thursday

This isn't empathy , my affect e and theoretical empathy doesn't seem calibrated, I just feel caring haha

Discaggregate benefits and aggregate costs effective altruism podcast

First opera French?

Alternatively this IS EMPATHY AND MY INTELLECTUALISTIONS of theory of mind WER WRONG!

MRP store

Tango Argentina welsh church near melbourne xentsal

Bank of melbourne sponsored night raves

Brandon berg gate



Right and Wrong had a Fight, Right killed Wrong but died along

Substanta nigra fmri

People are million times less judgemental than I assume an I am so I'm gonna ditch that paragon

Avoid poor people is okay equals self control

Productive

Mate roll once more while talking with whole family therapy

Narcissism Like **redacted name** momentary stuff or **redacted name**  is only bab if they feel shame or u shame them for showing their pride

That YouTube guy feels a Shame

Thought more but overthought less
Worried less
Mission accomplished

1233 Questioning assumptions: so you need to do a super specialise career path skills to have a good career?
No

When I'm thinking of a service or product in society for a job I am hyper focussing on the hardest part for me!

Regarding dislike for hookah **redacted name** sus take that feeling and hold on to it don't let anyone take it away from you

847am it raises the importance of consideration even till now and my concern

933am in retrospect far less paranoid yesterday than today