Mary-NoEndInSight

"Aliens" is code for a lot of people with some kind of romantic idea of being "gifted" with "contact" or some other such nonsense.

You look at me being the Monarchist Witch I am, myself an Abductee over the DECADES I've existed, then a rape victim from Hive Aliens post-transition, and you must think something like "Wow that's exotic, but it can't be that bad".  No, just no.

It IS that bad, so bad and invasive and disruptive of boundaries that I've usually got ten of them in my head talking to me all day long, then I get abduction events, some of them involve me being raped while being semi-conscious or unconscious or being conscious then made to forget the rape somehow, etc.  This stuff has happened hundreds of times and it's brutally crippling to my ability to live my life in any meaningful way, just all by itself....I could have started out life in a Progressive Republican family worth billions, transitioned when I was 12 years old, gotten on hormones, had surgeries, etc, and Hive Aliens just showed up one day and were like "Time for the rape" and I'd STILL be inhabiting a twilight zone reality where Hive Aliens fucked with anyone that tried to harm me as well as just anyone that tried to get close to me in general, so bad that I'd be completely socially isolated, everyone would think I'm basically bonkers, and my life would just be invaded more and more by Hive Aliens.

Now when you add that I come from a fairly poor background (only middle class in nominal ways at many points growing up) and have been very poor as an adult due to Autism and Complex PTSD, Epileptic fits, all the stress of not being myself before I transitioned, etc, once I transitioned and they started going to town on my ass, it took all of the inner strength I had to get to a place where what I was doing with them was sex work and NOT them raping me: they were so utterly invasive with me at times, that words don't even begin to describe it.

And they LIKED me by and large.  Imagine what they would do to people they mostly didn't like?  You cannot even fathom what they've done to me, so to say my life is somehow "less scary" than I imagine it is just to reify your cushy little world where having sex with Aliens would just be another feather in your hat.  You literally have no idea what the fuck you are talking about.  Not only have they invaded every facet of my life right down to fucking with the electronics in my home (along with Op4 Hive Aliens that truly don't like me) and then telling me telepathically they were doing that to get my attention, they've no touch tortured me at times when I got too angry on cam when I was doing cam work.

Like just that you could think that wouldn't be "that scary" is completely crazy.  You still want to live in a world where you've been through rough shit in life and you're like the biggest victim or something, thank fucking god you will likely never encounter Hive Aliens and they show you no regard, you've got no idea how privileged you are.

I prefer to do sex work with Hive Aliens and be in close physical proximate traditional Society with them because they've invaded my life so far, that only once they've put me in a position of power will things get better, if they actually do that; not until then, because their communications with me have become so intense that the only way to describe it is that I spend all day long and night long now, every hour of my waking state, communicating with them or Homo-Sapiens in my head.

I'm sorry, but you just have literally no idea what you are talking about, and reading books doesn't help you.

Supposing I COULD trust you and your bloodthirsty journo friends, you better have some kind of guarantee in place that there's a community or someone I could live with that you know who would then help us form a commune.  As it stands I don't see how that will be allowed in the immediate future due to my communications with Hive Aliens stating they probably won't allow it.

I'm sorry, it's great to imagine things here, but Hive Aliens are burdening me with more and more political responsibility, and there's no end in sight.




-Mary
(SucculentAngel)