1 10 15:51:08 <golgi>	even if i'm just spouting bs and i'm not a teenager, i'm still 20
1 10 15:51:19 <golgi>	i wish you could be less dense
1 10 15:51:59 <golgi>	i don't know how it wasn't obvious from
1 10 15:51:59 <golgi>	[15:22:13] <golgi> i more said i was straight so people like you and jimmyoshi would call me out on it~
1 10 15:52:04 <golgi>	[15:21:28] <golgi> my new year's resolution is to be more gay
1 10 15:52:04 <golgi>	[15:21:35] <golgi> i realized acting gay is way more fun
1 10 15:52:11 <golgi>	[15:33:48] <golgi> when have i been stable? ; )
1 10 15:52:11 <golgi>	[15:33:54] <golgi> being stable is boring
1 10 15:52:17 <golgi>	[15:35:01] <golgi> i like switching up my viewpoints all the time
1 10 15:52:17 <golgi>	[15:35:09] <golgi> and who i think i am
1 10 15:52:17 <golgi>	[15:35:16] <golgi> sometimes i say stuff i don't even believe just to see what other people say
1 10 15:52:32 <Yuki-chan>	You're in a state of psychosis
1 10 15:53:50 <golgi>	psychosis or just growing up?
1 10 15:53:57 <golgi>	you're quick to label me being a normal person as some disorder
1 10 15:55:21 <Yuki-chan>	You have the attitude of a valley girl!
1 10 15:56:03 <Yuki-chan>	I'm just worried about you, because it is one of the possible roads to suicide
1 10 15:56:42 <golgi>	oh look at this psychopath telling me that i'm going to commit suicide
1 10 15:56:56 <Yuki-chan>	I've been there, I know what it's like
1 10 15:57:10 <golgi>	i think i got to that point because i isolated myself and coddled myself too much
1 10 15:57:33 <Yuki-chan>	You've had a serious lack of coddling through most of your life
1 10 15:57:39 <Yuki-chan>	You've been emotionally neglected
1 10 15:57:45 <Yuki-chan>	Maybe much more than I have
1 10 15:57:45 <golgi>	i've had too much coddling
1 10 15:57:47 <golgi>	from my mom
1 10 15:57:53 <golgi>	my biomom coddled me too much
1 10 15:58:03 <golgi>	she didn't let me join the baseball team
1 10 15:58:08 <golgi>	she didn't let me take piano lessons
1 10 15:58:11 <Yuki-chan>	That is also emotional neglect
1 10 15:58:19 <golgi>	coddling == emotional neglect
1 10 15:58:23 <Yuki-chan>	I guess your mom is the jealous type
1 10 15:58:30 <golgi>	my mom is a jehovah's witness
1 10 15:58:32 <golgi>	that's what she is
1 10 15:58:35 <Yuki-chan>	It's emotional neglect because not allowing you to get outside of your bubble
1 10 15:58:44 <Yuki-chan>	Is seriously crippling your emotional development
1 10 15:58:47 <golgi>	yeah
1 10 15:58:51 <golgi>	that's what it is
1 10 15:58:55 <golgi>	so my response is get out of my bubble
1 10 15:59:13 <golgi>	i stayed too much in my bubble and went further into it when i had that whole jane shit
1 10 15:59:25 <golgi>	i'm doing the complete opposite now
1 10 15:59:37 <Yuki-chan>	Both of them are extremes
1 10 15:59:50 <golgi>	i don't know what kind of person just comes up and says "lol i hope you don't kill yourself"
1 10 15:59:50 <Yuki-chan>	Doesn't sound to me that you're finding a healthy balance
1 10 15:59:55 <golgi>	and i know you weren't joking
1 10 16:00:00 <golgi>	because you wouldn't have said it the way you did
1 10 16:00:08 <golgi>	well i have one
1 10 16:00:23 <golgi>	i think you tried as hard as possible to try to trigger me
1 10 16:00:24 <golgi>	i know you did
1 10 16:00:52 <golgi>	like
1 10 16:01:15 <golgi>	what kind of fucking person tells someone who's like "oh i'm gonna go try new things and new ways of life" that they hope they don't fucking kill themselves
1 10 16:01:27 <golgi>	like what are you trying to say?
1 10 16:02:02 <golgi>	like i feel like that's worse than telling someone to kill themselves
1 10 16:02:20 <Yuki-chan>	It seems you've become accustomed to twisting statements just for the sake of self-defense
1 10 16:02:23 <golgi>	like at least when someone tells someone to kill themselves, even seriously it's like okay well they're more just outraged
1 10 16:02:39 <golgi>	but if you're wishing someone doesn't turn suicidal, like what kind of fucking person do you think i am?
1 10 16:02:46 <Yuki-chan>	I'm trying to help you and you react like a politician who's just been stung by 100 killer bees in his rectum
1 10 16:02:52 <golgi>	i feel like if i was actually suicidal, that'd be worse for me
1 10 16:03:03 <golgi>	i know your intent
1 10 16:03:11 <golgi>	but it's like
1 10 16:03:18 <golgi>	you have so little faith in me
1 10 16:03:18 <Yuki-chan>	I know very well that you've got plenty of your psychological problems, so do I
1 10 16:03:23 <golgi>	that you think i'm going to turn suicidal
1 10 16:03:27 <golgi>	i'm not like you slimeball
1 10 16:03:31 <golgi>	i'm not a fucking lunatic
1 10 16:03:40 <Yuki-chan>	It's true, I have very little faith in your success based on my recent talks with you
1 10 16:03:49 <golgi>	how am i not successful?
1 10 16:03:50 <Yuki-chan>	And I think you are becoming a lunatic
1 10 16:03:55 <golgi>	are you fucking kidding me?
1 10 16:04:11 <golgi>	this past semester has been probably the best, even though it was the hardest and i got slammed
1 10 16:04:21 <golgi>	i've had so much fun
1 10 16:04:23 <golgi>	even though it was hard
1 10 16:04:33 <golgi>	i felt energized more than ever
1 10 16:04:46 <Yuki-chan>	I think you're in a manic state
1 10 16:04:50 <golgi>	tell me how i haven't been successful
1 10 16:04:56 <golgi>	instead of labeling me as a psychotic
1 10 16:05:04 <Yuki-chan>	The whole thing has destabilized you
1 10 16:05:09 <golgi>	the whole what?
1 10 16:05:15 <golgi>	defend what you said
1 10 16:05:18 <golgi>	you're just making more statements
1 10 16:05:23 <golgi>	give me an example that doesn't involve you
1 10 16:05:32 <Yuki-chan>	Working hard, studying hard
1 10 16:05:40 <golgi>	and that's supposed to be bad???
1 10 16:05:43 <golgi>	are you kidding me?
1 10 16:05:46 <golgi>	holy shit
1 10 16:05:56 <golgi>	because as i see it, the only time i supposedly go "manic" or "psychotic" is when i have to talk to you
1 10 16:06:03 <Yuki-chan>	It does take its toll on people
1 10 16:06:04 <golgi>	and you're not going to believe me
1 10 16:06:10 <Yuki-chan>	I believe you there
1 10 16:06:27 <golgi>	and i don't know how it isn't obvious that the only time i get truly manic is when i talk to you
1 10 16:06:41 <Yuki-chan>	I question everything you say
1 10 16:06:43 <golgi>	working hard and studying hard is what i was supposed to do
1 10 16:06:46 <Yuki-chan>	I easily see where things don't follow up
1 10 16:06:48 <golgi>	that's not the reason
1 10 16:07:01 <golgi>	the reason is because you say shit like you think i'm suicidal and try to coddle me too much
1 10 16:07:08 <golgi>	and try to discourage me from making "bad decisions"
1 10 16:07:13 <golgi>	you're like a fucking parent
1 10 16:07:30 <Yuki-chan>	Well yeah, don't forget I'm 9 years older :P
1 10 16:07:51 <golgi>	i know you're 9 years older but maybe if you were truly 9 years older you'd recognize that someone at my age hates this shit completely
1 10 16:07:53 <golgi>	they fucking hate it
1 10 16:08:01 <Yuki-chan>	Am I discouraging you from any decisions you make now?
1 10 16:08:16 <golgi>	of course you fucking are
1 10 16:08:22 <golgi>	telling me i'm destabilized and manic
1 10 16:08:24 <Yuki-chan>	I'm not going to pander to you by holding back telling you the things you hate
1 10 16:08:38 <golgi>	you're wrong
1 10 16:08:40 <golgi>	that's what i hate
1 10 16:08:44 <golgi>	if you were right i wouldn't hate it
1 10 16:08:49 <Yuki-chan>	I've known you for a long time and the changes I see worry me, because your reasoning seems mostly a bunch of loose ends to me
1 10 16:09:10 <golgi>	you still haven't given me a good defense for
1 10 16:09:15 <golgi>	[16:03:40] <Yuki-chan> It's true, I have very little faith in your success based on my recent talks with you
1 10 16:09:24 <Yuki-chan>	It's my intuition
1 10 16:09:29 <golgi>	your intuition sucks
1 10 16:09:34 <golgi>	i know it from the fucking email convos we had
1 10 16:09:39 <golgi>	actually it might be ironic, but not talking to you is making my life easier
1 10 16:09:44 <Yuki-chan>	It was right most of the time
1 10 16:09:49 <golgi>	no it fucking wasn't
1 10 16:09:52 <golgi>	god
1 10 16:10:04 <Yuki-chan>	Not talking to me is making many people's lives easier
1 10 16:10:08 <golgi>	yes
1 10 16:10:15 <Yuki-chan>	So it's up to you~
1 10 16:10:27 <golgi>	it's because your intuition is psychotic and dark and that would be perfectly fine if it wasn't fucking unrealistic and conspiracy theory
1 10 16:10:36 <golgi>	i'm more mad about the latter
1 10 16:10:49 <golgi>	if i was a more logical person i would care zero about the former
1 10 16:11:03 <golgi>	i care a little about the former
1 10 16:11:15 <golgi>	like
1 10 16:11:20 <Yuki-chan>	It's easier to not talk to you about anything serious
1 10 16:11:30 <golgi>	it's because how can you be serious?
1 10 16:11:37 <golgi>	you're more of a lunatic than me, and i'm pretty crazy
1 10 16:11:47 <golgi>	it's like you're being ironic to me
1 10 16:11:50 <golgi>	like you say it's caring
1 10 16:12:01 <golgi>	and i know you mean it
1 10 16:12:08 <golgi>	that it's caring from your point of view
1 10 16:12:12 <Yuki-chan>	The way you talk reminds me very much of a nuclear reactor on the brink of meltdown
1 10 16:12:21 <Yuki-chan>	You are very overheated
1 10 16:12:29 <golgi>	but how do you not see half the shit that you say is utterly fucked up?
1 10 16:12:37 <golgi>	and fucked up okay, but flat out lies
1 10 16:12:45 <Yuki-chan>	It's politically incorrent, and not very encouraging or inspirational
1 10 16:12:46 <golgi>	i get mad about people having misinformed intuition
1 10 16:12:53 <golgi>	i don't give a shit about the latter
1 10 16:12:57 <golgi>	you're fucking projecting on me
1 10 16:13:07 <Yuki-chan>	I could say the same for you, but alas...
1 10 16:13:16 <golgi>	yeah but i'm fucking truthful
1 10 16:13:26 <golgi>	my intuition isn't perfect but i'd say it's pretty damn good
1 10 16:13:52 <golgi>	like you literally took the worst possible way to say stuff, not only is it lies but it's not even inspbj
1 10 16:13:59 <golgi>	inspbj and lies is terrible too
1 10 16:14:15 <Yuki-chan>	Why would I lie?
1 10 16:14:21 <Yuki-chan>	Point out my lies
1 10 16:14:21 <golgi>	i think you're not even aware that you're wrong
1 10 16:14:22 <golgi>	that's the thing
1 10 16:14:25 <golgi>	suicidal
1 10 16:14:31 <golgi>	you still haven't given me a good defense for
1 10 16:14:34 <Yuki-chan>	I know you're not suicidal now
1 10 16:14:37 <golgi>	[16:03:40] <Yuki-chan> It's true, I have very little faith in your success based on my recent talks with you
1 10 16:15:04 <golgi>	but the fact that you think i'm going to become that, like i'm not saying it's 100% certain impossible but the fact that, that's the thing you highlight
1 10 16:15:12 <Yuki-chan>	Prove me wrong
1 10 16:15:17 <Yuki-chan>	That's all it takes~
1 10 16:15:25 <golgi>	yeah i'll fucking prove you wrong
1 10 16:15:35 <golgi>	my life right now rules
1 10 16:15:47 <golgi>	i'm one of the few people on the internet who doesn't loathe themselve