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Quas

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    I want to write to my Venezuelan fans, my countrymen, my comrades, my brothers, the indescribable realization I've had in my life in my latest days.

    I've lived most of my life disconnected from other people, thinking that there was something wrong about me, depressed, resentful. I've noticed Venezuelans are beautiful people, they are human beings who can feel many emotions.

    I grew up when Hugo Chavez ruled, there was a separation in the country: Chavistas and opposition. Somehow there’s still the same system in Venezuela, and what I've noticed is that this comes from feelings, completely different emotions. And the hatred towards each other, between your Venezuelan brothers, for me, was because of the way Chavistas acted; they were unreasonable, controlling, aggressive, full of anger.

    In my opinion, Hugo Chavez was an extremely intelligent man, and I'm not talking about what he had studied, neither the facts he knew; he was a human being who was connected to his emotions of anger in a way that he could transmit feelings to the crowd following him, he knew how to spark the ANGER people had inside, mostly poor people, who are constantly judged, and made to feel a certain way because of their economic situation. Anyway, he learned how to control all these people. Through this, facts did not matter. Whatever he said -some of these facts didn’t even need to be true- was irrelevant, it was the feelings, the WAY he expressed his speech, which formed his fan base. He controlled people and had nothing to fear, because there was nothing that bothered him, he didn’t personalize the feelings of hatred that people felt against him, nor the people who called him stupid or tyrant. He did not care about all this because the POWER he felt was amazing and he learned to control people with these feelings he let go, these feelings that he overcame in his life and that he stopped to justify or reason. He just let himself feel and connect with the rest of the people. He was an INCREDIBLE LEADER among men, due to his ability to connect with that anger in a way that moved his followers, not only because of that of course, but also because of his charisma and his other emotions that were so solid, so unmovable that it did not matter what he was speaking about. People who FELT a certain way towards him could connect with his emotions, it’s all human feelings. He took this power and abused his people, and with this I do not agree. Compassion towards others is much more beautiful to me, and I can look at it in that way, even though I might end up expressing anger through my feelings. I have just started feeling this lately.

    While I grew up I was a fairly intelligent human, others saw potential in me, but they also knew which things affected me, they learned how to make me feel in certain ways, and when I expressed myself with many emotions I was often disconnected, and internalized it all as anger, but without expressing it. I just held that resentment within me and exteriorized it through different behaviours: acting important, smarter than the rest, or just disconnecting from them. We human beings are like that, we internalize these feelings we receive from others to justify our own doubts, we judge others, we make fun of others, we do not have compassion towards other human beings, and from all this come the disconnection, war, suicides, lives filled with depression.

    In the last 3 days of my life, I shared and I related to people in ways that I had not done before, or even in ways that I hadn’t thought POSSIBLE, I can feel what people try to express, anger, fear, pain, doubt, I can confront something that does not sound right, and by doing this I forge an indescribable relationship, because I can hear the message beneath the mask, I can detect that emotion.

    We humans have things we want to hide from ourselves, we feel shame about specific things in our lives, we feel controlled by certain people, and under the control of others we rationalize the feelings that others express towards us, and vice versa. I will spend the rest of my life trying to connect with others and feel these emotions with them, and I hope to help heal their pain and heal people in the same pain that I have always felt and that has depressed me all my life, these HUMAN emotions.