Love is a Danger Zone.

XX-2-15

06.50 AM : Woke up, with a bitter feeling in my heart. I only got around 3 hours of sleep, and that really shows on my eyes. I forgot I turned 28 a few days ago... How fast time has passed since my arrival here in Neon City. I can't exactly remember what did I do last weekend, except it involves an ungodly amount of wine and ice cream. Ugh. My head is also pretty dizzy.

07.35 AM : After rushing to clean myself, get a decent breakfast, and drink my obligatory morning coffee, I'm good to go! Probably.. Still feeling a bit crappy, sleepy, and dizzy. Ugh. Neon's subways are not that good.

08.00 AM : Mere seconds away from being late. Meeting, bored, decided to go to the toilet and send my own conciousness away to Chaotica for a minute or so. Luckily, a minute here is an hour there, so, yeah, got a pretty dank-ass rest.

5.00 PM : Friends bonding time.. Emily invited me to her home, to watch some movies. Lots of popcorns and pizzas. Mmm. But she acted weird around me... Almost groping my boobs and all that. Eww. But hell me, free pizzas! No more dinner for me!

9.00 PM : Finally home. Screw bathing.

10.00 PM :

11.00 PM : Can't sleep... I'm still thinking about him. Him. Him. Him. That's the only thing that is spinning here, and heck, I wish I could get rid of it and become normal again. But yeah, I can't. Hiding it won't help at all.

I hate to admit it... But I've fallen in love too deep for me to scramble out of. Again. And as always, it will never, ever, end up well for me... Or for him. I wish it could happen to me, not him. I've seen what I could done to someone I love, and I wished I didn't do it.

Love is truly a danger zone for me, isn't it? Haha.

Goodnight.

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 - XX/02/2015
Log
Well, a few days ago I just turned 28. Just two more years until my third decade living. My family said they'll be coming over this weekend... Gotta clean this room. I don't want them to see my collection of empty wine bottles and documents. Hiding my sorrows, hiding the pain.