Rin - Viridianscape

I woke up today just past the dream I had.  The dream didn't wake up, only me.

I wonder if I'm still dreaming.  I might be.  I have no way of really knowing.  But with this room and everything in it looking normal as ever, I pay it no mind.

Tuesday, right.  Not a weekend, so I got class to go to.  I don't really wanna go, though.  I kind of like learning, but I don't like class.  In fact, I'd rather lose my mind than go to class.

I think I might do that.  How does one lose a mind?  Forget about your own mind, maybe?  No, you have to use your mind to forget about your mind.

I think I might have to just distract myself instead.  Go to something or somewhere I like.

Emi hasn't shown up today.  She's always on time.  She's not on time this time, so she must be lost in time.  Or maybe busy with a boyfriend.  I don't know.

I know how to get up and walk, though, so I do that.  I make my way to my door and nudge the handle open with my knee.

There are a couple of girls walking the halls as I pass by.  They say hello, I repeat it back.  I don't know them but I know they like to say hello.  Maybe I'll make use of that later.

I walk down the path, out of the site of the dorms, to a place only a few people know.  A small gate near the back of the school, rarely used, mostly covered with moss.

I wonder if moss grows lonely.  Like in a place such as this.  Moss doesn't have a brain but it seems to know what it's doing.  It seems to like growing in lonely places.

Maybe I shouldn't question that.  I also like being alone.  And staying in the same place isn't so bad.  Maybe I am moss.  I don't know, though.  Not today at least.  Today I move, today I see more than just the moss on the door.

I push the door open with my head.  I see many trees and green weeds ahead of me.  It's as if this forest had always covered this entire hilltop, and there'd never been a school.

As long as I don't turn around, that's how it'll feel to me.  A massive forest that I've been lost in for a while.  I definitely feel lost.

Why would I even turn around?  Why would I not just keep wandering to see what I can see today?  I won't be here tomorrow, today has to be it.

I've heard of people following a path in a forest.  I don't know of any path, and I don't plan on getting lost.  Lost on my path anyway.  I'm already plenty lost in my mind.

I'm sort of struggling between the forest and my mind.  This forest is really nice.  Maybe I could pay it just a little more mind.

I take a look around for a while, studying the bark on each individual tree.  But I'm not evaluating on anything ultimate, just gazing at the interesting patterns on each strip.

I keep going on, my mind still thinking of the trees, my feet going as forward as they can.

Before I know it, my feet hit flat grass.  Very flat and well-kept, like going into a brand-new classroom without any shoes on.

I let my toes grip the surface, taking in the feeling of this nice floor.  Well, it's probably a lawn, but it's so uniform.

I look around.  Noticing that I am not currently inside of a house, I rule out carpet as the material under my feet.

I gaze to the left, then to the right.  Fences.  And there are plants here.  Colorful ones, with flowers.

There's a lady there, too.  I only noticed her now.  I was focusing on plants and she's not a plant and I don't know.

But she's there.

I'd better go somewhere else.  So I do.

I pass a few trees and leave sight of whatever yard I wandered into.  I feel kind of sorry for that, but it was a very nice lawn.

I didn't have time to tell her, though.  What I wanna find isn't in some lawn, it's somewhere out here.

But not in the forest, either.  Not at all.

I keep wandering through the wooded area.  The terrain is rough.  I quickly thank the trees around me, as I like that they are there.

I see trees, lots of trees, for a long time.

I'm in the middle of a conversation with a very nice grandfather tree when I reach a clearing.

Everything is bright, almost blindingly.  They have told me in the past not to stare at the sun but I do it for just a moment, to see what it might look like.

I have a very weird thought as if the sun is me and I know it.  I look like... what do I look like?  Round.  Round and really bright.  No, that's the sun and not me.  I still feel a little bright though.  Maybe I can be part of the sun?

But I've been told I should not look at the sun.

I guess I should not be the sun.