hello, stan. i have a few things i'd like to say to you, please hear me out.
i really want to apologize to you for my actions from yesterday and i reflected last night (i barely slept) and i felt really, really guilty. your words kind of hit me. i, myself, don't understand why i blocked my own 'friends'. yes, i do want the attention but not the 'attention seeker' kind. i just want to be noticed by people and that includes you and owen. i was extremely rash towards you and my old friends and i would like to apologize for that as well. i act on impulse whenever i get angry and frustrated. i admit my mistakes.
i still want to be friends with you, though. i want to be friends with everyone. i want to go back to the past before everything happened between our friendship (including owen), but what's done is done. i am so angry at myself for my own actions and i'd currently like to stab myself with a knife.
this may or may not be sudden to you but please forgive me. i'd go to the any extent to change for the better and reconile with everyone. you may not want to be friends with me right not but please, forgive me.
i'm sorry.