Alice-TheTruth

And if I did murder anyone for CIA as a Butch Woman pre-transition, I can assure you it was a ton of cis straight males.

In case you haven't been paying attention to anything I've been saying here (and I doubt you have) I have talked here for YEARS about murdering cis straight males and torturing them.  That's not because I'm primarily assigned to AFABs and in denials, that's not because I'm primarily attracted to cis gay men and am gay and in denial, it's not for any other reason than the simple solitary fact that I think cis straight males are fucking garbage that spend all of their time trying to ruin everyone else's fun online, or control people socially and sexually offline, not giving a FUCK about anything else.

Why do you think I avoided Society with Cis People for the most part pre-transition?  Because I couldn't stand you as cis people pre-transition.  And I can't stand you now, four years after I transitioned.  You don't give a fuck about me or those like me, stop lying to yourself, you care about trans people that hinge to ways of thinking sexually and socially that YOU approve of, that YOU expect, you don't give a fuck about a single thing I'm typing here, that's why I've blocked and ignored scores of you elsewhere and could care less if you spontaneously dropped dead tomorrow.

You care about trans people if we fit your narrative, that's what.  Someone like me?  You don't give a fuck about me, and you won't be givin' a fuck about me 10 years from now, like you believe a fucking word I am saying.

That's what's sad, what I've said here regarding my past is basically true with some details altered to protect myself, and it's not my fault you don't care, and I don't care that you don't care, and I don't care that you think I owe you or anyone AMAB or AFAB sexual interactions or social interactions of whatever sort you want with me, rather than the sexual or social interactions that do NOT harm me.

I don't care.  Not everyone has the same kinks or processes their trauma in the same way.  I process mine through resistance, violent resistance if necessary....

I can talk here about how I'm a pacifist and I'd take it and I'd get my ass beat by everyone until I am blue in the face, we both know I would fucking kill any of you if you tried to harm me given what I've been through in life.  The people that are actually wimps are the ones that talk SERIOUSLY ALL THE TIME ABOUT HOW THEY'D FUCK UP EVERYONE ELSE IN A RING OR IN A REAL FIGHT OR WHATEVER: people like me who say we are wimps and will take it if at all possible and try to take it if at all possible and JOKE about fighting here in pastebin, are in fact people who would, to your face, fucking kill you, if we in fact decided that that time, we'd had enough and we weren't going to take it.

Stop acting like I wouldn't.  You know I would if I really didn't want to take it.  And I've been in fights pre-transition where I put three fully grown men on the floor multiple times through sheer rage and hatred, you've got no idea what is inside of me and no respect for it.

You should start respecting what I've been through if YOU want to feel safe around me.  I am almost always loving and sweet and kind, and almost always will take any form of violence or rape thrown my way (and have) but if I am pushed too far, I can kill anyone that I can think of; there is that training I went through, and that hatred and rage sitting inside of me comprised of resistance to people who could give a fuck less but sit around acting like they care.

You don't fucking care, and you don't fucking fool me.  You care because you want to control me socially and sexually, you are kind and nice for the same reasons; you don't do a fucking thing to change the quality of life of anyone like me unless we play along in your bullshit world where you care about us.  You don't fucking care.



-Alice