Who would have thought my life will turn out this way? I didn’t.
There was a time when I thought this world was a good and happy place. As a child, my whole world was
innocent. It wasn’t until I went through puberty and started desiring girls that my whole life turned into
a living hell. I desired girls, but girls never desired me back. There is something very wrong with that. It is
an injustice that cannot go unpunished. There is no way I could live a happy life with such a scenario.
 Not only did I have to waste my entire youth suffering in loneliness and unfulfilled desire, but I had to
live with the knowledge that other boys my age were able to have all of the experiences I craved for. It is
absolutely unfair and unjust. In addition, I had to suffer the shame of other boys respecting me less
because I didn’t get any girls. Everyone knew I was a virgin. Everyone knew how undesirable I was to
girls, and I hated everyone just for knowing it. I want people to think that girls adore me. I want to feel
worthy. There is no pride in living as a lonely, unwanted outcast. I wouldn’t even call it living.