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- Ahhhh
- >Nothing like a fresh cup of coffee in the morning
- >It's probably the best part of your day
- >As you sip, you forget about how bad the apartment you're living in is
- >You temporarily cease to care about the fact that you're headed to a slave's job with slave wages
- >You take this time out of every morning to calm down, and stop stressing about life
- >It's calming, gives you energy, and keeps life from driving you insane
- >After being framed for an enormous company scandal that involved somebody dying, the old desk job fired you
- >After finally getting out of jail, work has been hard to come by
- >You hate what your life has become now, but you'll be damned if you'll let it get to you
- >This morning ritual helps prepare you for the day ahead
- >Another day of back breaking labor at a train yard, where you stayed all day, and half the night before returning home
- >Sunday was your only off day, because legal fees and debt now demand that you work every single day
- >But on the plus side, intensive manual labor has made you strong, and thugs don't try to beat you up anymore, after you sent a couple to the hospital (which resulted in more debt because he sued and won)
- >If things keep up, you could be out of debt in another thirteen years or so
- >Good thing you haven't missed a payment
- >You finish your morning coffee, get the last bit of sleep out of your eyes, and put on your work clothes
- >Ready to go, you grab your breakfast and run
- >Even public transportation costs too much for you, so you have a solid half hour run to work
- >At the train yard, you don't slack off, because you've seen people get fired for that, and you can't lose this job
- >Half hour lunch break, and you finish the brunch you packed yourself
- >Hours later, shifts end, and you clock out
- >Boss comes out today, pulls you aside before you leave
- Anon! Just the man I wanted to see. Do you have a moment to spare?
- >Even if you didn't you feel like you have to, because he's never put up with anything he doesn't like
- >He leads you into his office, and tells you to take a seat
- Anon, I've been watching you work, and I think you deserve a raise
- >You must have visibly brightened at this, because he smiles at you
- A two dollar raise will be effective starting next week
- >You can hardly believe it
- >With the amount of hours you put in a week, this is a big sum more than what you were getting
- Thank you sir
- >You reply with a professional attitude, barely containing your excitement
- Is there anything else?
- >He shakes his head
- No Anon, you're free to go
- >You nod, say thank you, and head home
- >Things are looking better
- >Maybe you can get out of this shithole sooner after all
- >You hit the showers and go to bed, just to start the day all over again tomorrow
- >...
- >...
- >...
- *BEEP BEEP*
- *BEEP BEEP*
- *BEEP BEEP*
- >You groan, and slam your hand down on the alarm clock
- >Another fucking day living in this shit house, working in a shit job
- >At least there's a pay raise to be happy about
- >Yippee
- >The morning routine is as dull as ever, and as the coffee machine works its magic, you you look around
- >Nothing changes
- >Just the same worn down, tattered apartment building, the cheapest you could find
- >Only the basic necessities are here
- >A bed, table, stove, coffee machine, and a microwave
- >You keep telling yourself it's just temporary, and once your debts are settled, you'll move out
- >Live in the suburbs and work in an office again
- >A much easier life
- >And just like every morning while the coffee finishes, you remind yourself that you have at least a decade before that happens
- >You take your cup and sit down at the table, leaning back in your chair and taking the time to simply enjoy the bitter taste of life
- >Your frustrations and anger start to clear up, just like every morning
- >The routine is almost soothing, in a mind numbing kind of way
- >You drink the last mouthful all at once, closing you eyes and letting the chair fall back forward
- >But just as you swallow it, it turns into some sort of undercooked burger meat, making you gag and throw you eyes open
- >But you aren't in your apartment anymore
- >You're not even in a chair
- >In fact, you're not even you
- >You look at your jet black hooves, which are covered in blood
- >Then you look past them to see a mutilated pony corpse, it's face frozen as if he/she (you can't tell anymore, it's that bad) were begging for you to stop
- >You feel sick to your stomach
- >Not just from the ghastly sight before you, but from the very feeling of wrongness
- >You can't be here
- >You're at "home" drinking coffee before work
- >You're not here right now, you must be hallucinating
- >You have to be
- >You punch yourself in the face, but it does nothing except bring pain
- >In a frenzy, you keep beating yourself in a desperate attempt to wake up
- >This nightmare can't be real
- >But it can get worse
- FREEZE, SCUM!
- >A commanding voice screams from behind you
- >The command is so forceful and demanding that you actually stop mid punch and freeze
- >Then you get tackled to the ground
- >You don't know how they did it, but what's presumably a police pony manages to cuff your forehooves behind your back and drag you outside
- >The sunlight is blinding out here
- >By the time your eyes adjust, you catch a glimpse of easily hundreds of other ponies, all of different colors, staring at you
- >Then you're thrown into the back of a carriage, which is then shut, leaving you bound in darkness
- No.. Please, no! This is a mistake! I'm not a pony! I'm innocent!
- >The carriage starts moving, and a gruff voice calls from the front of the car
- SHUT UP! You crazy psychopath! We're taking you to the funny farm [spoiler]Where life is beautiful all the time![/spoiler]
- >You start freaking out even more, the feeling of nausea steadily growing
- >This can't be real
- This isn't happening; This isn't happening; This isn't happening; I'm just going to wake up and it will all be a dream
- >You start repeating this to yourself over and over and over again
- >The pony in the front keeps yelling at you to shut up, but you ignore him
- >Some time later, you've stopped repeating it out loud, and just said it in your head, curled up in a ball
- >You aren't even trying to look at anything anymore
- >Just quietly crying and telling yourself that it isn't real
- >You don't even notice that you've been placed in a jail cell until hours later when food arrives
- >You don't touch it
- >You're betting that if you get hungry enough, the dream will end, because that's what this is
- >Just a nightmare
- >...
- >Not much later, four guardsponies come as escorts
- >One of them explains that you're going to be questioned
- >You nod dumbly, still refusing to believe what's happening
- >They surround you and push you on from behind
- >Two of them are unicorns, and the other two are pegasi
- >Not that it matters much, because you'll be waking up soon, you just know it
- >they bring you into a questioning room, clearly the kind that you can be observed in
- >They strap you to a chair, and you sit there alone for a few moments
- >You're closing you eyes, trying to wake yourself up
- >You even try biting down on the inside of your mouth and on your tongue to induce enough pain to snap out of this dream
- >Nothing changes, though, but you keep going at it
- >Soon a pony comes in, closes the door behind her, and sits down across from you
- So, Mr Smoky Bolt
- >What kind of name is that?
- That's not my name
- >She shakes her head
- Honestly Smoky, we don't have time for this. I need some answers from you
- >She pulls out a folder of papers, lays them out, and pushes them out towards you
- >Among them are pictures of an orange unicorn
- >Who you recognize as the mutilated pony back in that room
- >You feel nauseous again
- I hope you feel sick about what you've done. I need you to answer routine questions
- >You don't look up, you're still trying to settle your stomach, as well as a creeping doubt
- >It isn't working well
- Now, why did you kill him?
- >Without thinking, you answer
- I didn't. he was like that when I got there
- >Wrong answer, obviously
- >But curiously, she doesn't comment on it
- You say your name isn't Smoky Bolt. What is it?
- >She's angry, but sounds genuinely curious
- Anon
- >Your stomach churns again, and the doubtful feeling is starting to grow
- >This....
- >This might not be a dream
- >But fuck it, you're still trying to wake up
- Well then, if you didn't kill him, who did?
- >She asks, and something is becoming clear
- I... I don't know...
- >You say, looking her in the eyes (freakishly large eyes)
- >You can see the gears turning, judging you
- >And she's judging you insane
- >You can tell that nothing you say will really help you
- >Or even change your standing
- >The only way to win a losers game
- The victims blood is on your hooves. So I'll ask again. Why did you kill him?
- >Is not to play
- Jealousy?
- >....
- Money?
- >...
- A mare?
- >...
- Hatred?
- >Her mission has been accomplished
- Hmph. Hatred and revenge only breeds more of the same
- >She got you to respond
- >But she wasn't prepared for that
- Then what was the motive?
- >Still don't have to play
- >They can't exactly force you
- Are you going to say anything, or am I just wasting my time here?
- >Then she mumbles something else under her breath
- Still getting locked up for life
- >You jerk your head back down from staring at the ceiling and stare her right in the face
- >She notices, but does nothing, just gathers the papers back up and leaves
- >The four gaurds come in after she leaves to escort you out
- >And through them, you see her let out a pent up shiver of fear
- >You now realize she'd been holding her composure in that room over her fear of you
- >From her point of view, you can't possibly be anything other than a deranged murderer
- >You feel bad for a second, but then you remember that she's probably a piece of your subconscious
- >Because you won't accept that this isn't a dream
- >That this is real
- >But doubts are creeping in
- >You can't remember when you've felt ill in a dream
- >Or smelled the half cleaned prison
- >With only one cell
- >Yours
- >When you get thrown back in your cell, you hear a guard mutter
- Monster
- >What could your subconscious be trying to tell you?
- >Or maybe...
- >...
- >No
- >You won't believe that
- >Not...
- >Not yet
- >As you tell yourself this, you start to drift off
- >Before you know it, you're dreaming
- >You know you're dreaming because you're looking at a book and are reading words as you think of them to be read
- >You don't recall dreaming within a dream, but you wouldn't be surprised if you just forgot about it
- >Most dreams are like that
- >At some point, the dream became an adventure through a forest
- >Most of your half-lucid dreams turn into adventures
- >This one is no different, and you let your subconscious take you along on the adventure
- >Just as the miracle sandwich of spaghetti is within your grasp, a rattling and creaking noise wakes you up
- >Wakes you up
- >...
- >You can't wake up from a dream within a dream like this
- >And smell the floor
- >And taste your morning breath
- >And hear the shuffling of hooves
- >And feel the weight and dirtiness of your body
- >...
- Fuck this gay earth
- >You say out loud
- >This isn't a dream
- >This damn thing is real
- >And it pisses you off
- >You glare over at the cell door and find breakfast waiting for you
- >...
- >A plate of dandelions
- >Seriously?
- >Hunger from not eating earlier takes over and you down the whole thing
- >It didn't taste bad, but still tasted like flowers
- >Pony anatomy?
- >Speaking of, you have hooves
- >Not hands
- >But hooves
- >So....
- >How
- >The fuck
- >Are you holding this bowl?????
- AAAAAUUUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!
- >You throw it against the wall
- >That does nothing to answer your questions or blow off much steam
- >You are a murderer here in this body
- >Just fucking wonderful
- >Now people will never trust you or try to be close to you again
- >You punch the wall with your hoof
- >It makes a satisfying noise, and didn't really hurt
- >So you keep thinking about all the stupid shit you'll have to put up with
- >And hit the wall as hard as you can for each one
- >You'll be in jail again
- *Punch*
- >They probably believe you to be a freaking lunatic
- *Punch*
- >That's going to mean freaking unnecessary therapy
- *Punch*
- >Probably going to be diagnosed with some bullshit because you don't fit with what they think you should be like
- *Punch*
- >You hooves are starting to hurt, but your anger isn't even close to leveling out
- This bullshit....
- *Punch*
- >And you probably aren't even on earth anymore
- >Earth doesn't have talking ponies, dammit
- *Punch*
- >Even if you wanted to see your parents or coworkers, you can't
- *Punch*
- >Not that it matters, they're all a bunch of dicks
- *Punch*
- >You've left one shit life behind for a shittier life
- >Is there a god?
- *SLAM*
- >You finish your set of blows by slamming both hooves into the wall
- >Cracks are now evident
- >You can see through some of them, and you feel satisfied with that release of steam
- >Now it's just a low simmering anger
- >You know, the kind that's easy to put a cap on
- >Or, they would be, if the noise hadn't summoned the guards
- What's going on in h-....
- >The combination of your glare (byproduct of being pissed) and the clear view of your recent feat shut them up
- >They start whispering to themselves
- >But you can still hear them
- That crazy monster just broke the wall!
- >...
- How can we lock it up if it can do that??
- >It grates on your nerves
- >A lot
- What's to stop that thing from... killing again?
- >*Snap*
- You shut your DAMN MOUTHS!!
- >You scream at them
- >They lock up and remain silent
- Go somewhere I can't you hear you, shitheads
- >You grumble, and go back to the warm sunlight
- >The guards stand there in shock
- What are you waiting for?!
- >That sends them scrambling away
- >You were right
- >These bastards don't even see you as the equivalent of human
- >It's almost enough to make you punch the wall again
- >But your hooves hurt
- >For now, you just stare outside through the cracks
- >Gradually getting angrier at your lack of freedom
- You can see a distinct void near the actual building, but in the distance you see the normal ponies
- >Just going about their business
- >Some of them are even stopping to lay down in the grass, soaking up the sun and staring at the sky
- >God damn, you haven't had the chance to do that in many, many years
- >And just fucking perfect too
- >Now you just may never get that chance
- This damned place...
- >You mutter to yourself
- >And you keep staring outside, trying to get a glimpse at the actual sky
- >But all you can get are slivers of blue, and snippets of grass and ponies walking by
- >Eventually you just stop letting it anger you and stare instead at the ceiling
- >Which doesn't really help, but it doesn't make things worse
- >So you sit, waiting
- >Waiting for the next retarded thing to start happening
- >It doesn't take too long
- >Some pony comes down the hall and up to your door
- >It's a unicorn mare with a blue coat and yellow mane, with a satchel on her back
- >She has the guards open the door
- Smoky Bolt, come with me
- >Yeah, no
- No
- >She doesn't expect this
- I'm sorry, what was that?
- >Wonder why
- I said no
- >The anger bleeds into your voice, and you can tell just by the reaction of her and the guards
- Well, it's been determined that you need therapy, and I was told to come and get you and
- >She starts gushing out words, clearly nervous
- >You hold up a hoof and silence her
- I said No
- And don't try to make me
- >You left that threat open ended
- >That did it for her, and she closed the cell door, scuttles backwards, then briskly trots away, clearly eager to leave
- >Which is fine by you
- >Solitary confinement is better than therapy for shit that never happened to you
- >You half heartedly wonder what they've diagnosed you with
- >If murder isn't common here, and that's why they call you a "crazy monster," then there are a few possibilities
- >They might just think that you're broken, and delusional
- >Or maybe that you angry at yourself for murdering the pony
- >God damn, either way it would mean stupid therapy sessions that wouldn't get anything done
- >You lie around like this for what must be hours before nightfall and dinner come and go
- >You fell asleep a some point, but you don't care
- >Only rage is on you mind now
- >While you slept, somebody managed to reseal the cracks and strengthen the door
- >Probably magic
- >There are unicorns around here, after all
- >Looks like they don't want t take chances on you escaping
- >Just fucking wonderful
- >Now you can't even see the outside world that you may never be a part of
- >Another bowl of flowers comes in, through a slot
- >Another grumpy morning with nothing but a freaking bowl of flowers to "enjoy"
- >You still can't understand how the hell you can grab shit without fingers, but you don't pay it much attention
- >This hellhole is already terrible enough without trying to rationalize that
- >But lo and behold, It can always get worse
- >Just as you finish eating, that same pony comes back, this time with three more guards
- Smoky Bolt, it's time for your therapy session
- >Ha
- I thought I told you already. No
- >She doesn't hesitate this time
- Well you're going, weather you like it or not
- >She has the guards come into your cell and try to herd you out
- >But you did warn her
- No.
- >And when the first guard went to push you, you leap to your hooves, giving an uppercut blow along the way
- >The other guards back up a bit, looking to the therapy mare for help
- >You stand calm, ready to deck whoever tries to make your already shit predicament worse
- >The mare actually runs off!
- >You and the guards are baffled for a moment, until she returns with more guards
- >Then the fear goes out of the first group, and they all come forward to drag you away
- >This reminds you of the fights you got in back in prison
- >Back when you were still angry at everyone
- >And they tried to group up on you
- >Their mistake
- >And it's about to be replicated
- >You don't know pressure points of this anatomy, but you do know where the joints are
- Come with me, Smoky. Don't make us use force...
- >Ha!
- >What a riot
- Ditto
- >You reply
- >Then the command is given to drag you out
- >And all hell breaks loose
- >Popping sounds are audible as you swing low and take them out at the joint in their front leg
- >And when they figure out how to avoid that, you you aim for the shoulders and back of the neck
- >All with the same rage fueled strength that you had breaking the wall
- Somepony do something!
- >One of them yells, before you hit the back of his neck, rendering him unconscious
- >Even as more arive, you find that their bulkiness from armor, while protecting them, is making them a little too slow
- >On top of the fact that you're on your back feet, standing up
- >Using punches and kicks to deliver blows
- >Soon, all of them are down
- >All 20 or so of them
- >You take a moment to get back on all fours and catch your breath
- >As you do, you see that therapist mare come rushing around the corner with something
- >Is that...?
- *Shoomp*
- >In the split second you have, it registers that it is indeed
- >A dart gun
- >It hits you right in the left shoulder area
- >And now everything is
- >...
- >Colorful
- Ahhhhh
- >You just sink down onto the floor
- >You must be loopy
- >You don't even care that the guards have started getting back up and taking you out and down the hall
- >You are strapped into a chair
- Hmmmmmmmm?
- >You regard the restraints with a fun curiosity, before moving on to the little dust particles floating around
- >If you connect the dots, they make shapes and squiggles!
- >This is getting fun!
- Hmmmmmmmmmm....
- >You start humming
- >It turns into the song "What becomes of the Broken Hearted" by Jimmy Ruffin
- >You sing it in your head
- As I walk this land with broken dreams
- I have visions of many things
- Love's happiness is just an illusion
- Filled with sadness and confusion,
- What becomes of the broken hearted
- Who had love that's now departed?
- I know I've got to find
- Some kind of peace of mind
- Maybe
- >As you hum, you keep connecting the dust spec dots into the people who abandoned you in your past
- What.. um... What are you singing?
- >You don't reply to her, you just start singing
- What becomes of the broken hearted
- Who had love that's now departed?
- I know I've got to find
- Some kind of peace of mind
- >...
- Maybe.
- >The therapist mare doesn't know how to react when you finally stop singing that song and just stare at the dots
- >Still letting them take the shapes of people you used to know, love, and trust
- >When she finally finds her voice, she speaks
- What do you mean by that?
- >You don't answer
- >You don't want to
- >Even through whatever drug she shot you with, you know that this won't get anywhere
- >She takes your silence as her cue to start talking again
- Well, you're a special case. You're all over the papers
- >She slides one in front of you
- Equestria's first murderer in over 1000 years
- >You don't even hesitate to shoot back your reaction, as much as it makes you sound in denial
- I never murdered anybody
- >But what catches your attention is that you can't read the paper
- >At first you think it's the drugs making you loopy
- >But even with concentration, you can't read it
- >The letters are some sort of hieroglyphics
- I can't read that
- >She looks at you curiously
- No, really. What does it say?
- >She doesn't answer you
- >She just magiks a spinner with a multicolored swirling pattern onto the table
- >You feel something force your head to look at it
- >Then it starts moving
- >And you can't look away
- >The loopiness from that dart and the hypnotic spinning colors are too much
- Now, let's start with the basics
- >You just nod your head, still in a half-aware trance like state
- What is your name?
- >
- Anon
- >She jots something down
- Tell me, Smoky, where did you work?
- >
- At the railway station
- >More scribbling
- How did you get fired?
- >
- A scandal
- >More scribbling
- >The therapy session contines like this
- >She asks a question, you answer while staring at the spinning hypno wheel
- >And then she corrects you
- >And your half glad she does
- >You can't believe you forgot that you worked in a press room
- >And you don't know how you forgot that you resigned
- >But at the same time, another part of you is trying to answer these questions
- >What part is that?
- >Where are these... other answer coming from?
- >At the end of the day, you are sent back to your cell, confused
- >Who's memories are whose?
- >Who are you?
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