Karolek[P]> Ian
<Karolek[P]> So what exactly did averian say to you?
<Karolek[P]> About my tulpa
<Ian> Nothing. He just talked about you mostly.
<Karolek[P]> I need details
<Karolek[P]> What did he say
<Ian> DAMNIT  the logs are on my phone
<Karolek[P]> I need them
<Ian> I'm getting them
<Ian> Calm your tits
<Karolek[P]> That was calm. I was just telling you that I need them soon
<Ian> Well I have the,m
<Ian> them*
<Ian> Moved them to drive and have them in Chrome
<Ian> Prepared for spam?
<Karolek[P]> Yeah
<Ian> **** Logging started Tue Sept 02 2014 00:02:38 ****
<Ian> [00:02] * Starting conversation with Averian
<Ian> [00:02] * Averian flops
<Ian> [00:03] * Ian hugs, his left arm from mid shoulder-to-elbow thing down cybernetic and a tenth tail sprouting, also cybernetic, with a smooth, rounded end
<Ian> [00:04] <Averian> ...
<Ian> [00:04] * Averian slinks away
<Ian> [00:04] * Ian blinks a few times and tears up
<Ian> [00:04] <Ian> W-what?
<Ian> [00:04] <Averian> what happened to you?
<Ian> [00:05] <Ian> I don't know...
<Ian> [00:05] <Averian> ?
<Ian> [00:06] <Averian> well one doesn't lose limbs so simply
<Ian> [00:06] <Ian> I didn't lose it. My arm shifted. But I grew a tail.
<Ian> [00:07] <Averian> how do you grow robot parts? >w>
<Ian> [00:09] <Ian> Not sure. Could be DNA overlap from my leupak form. Which IS part of my DNA structure. >->
<Ian> [00:10] <Averian> ._.
<Ian> [00:10] <Averian> k
<Ian> [00:10] * Averian flops
<Ian> [00:11] * Ian lays down and curls up
<Ian> [00:11] <Ian> That's two negative reactions....
<Ian> [00:11] * Averian pokes your new tail
<Ian> [00:12] * Ian flops it
<Ian> [00:14] <Averian> it's not negative.
<Ian> [00:14] <Averian> I just don't know what to think of it
<Ian> [00:15] <Ian> I'm still me...
<Ian> [00:16] <Averian> yeah, I know.
<Ian> [00:16] * Ian hugs gently
<Ian> [00:16] * Averian hugs back
<Ian> [00:17] * Ian nuzzles gently
<Ian> [00:17] * Averian boops your nose
<Ian> [00:17] * Ian licks your finger =3
<Ian> [00:18] <Averian> :v
<Ian> [00:19] <Ian> What?
<Ian> [00:19] <Averian> Iuno
<Ian> [00:19] * Averian boops your tongue
<Ian> [00:20] * Ian licks your finger again! >=3
<Ian> [00:23] * Averian wips his finger on your nose
<Ian> [00:23] * Ian giggles
<Ian> [00:24] <Averian> hehe
<Ian> [00:24] <Ian> =3
<Ian> [00:28] <Averian> can I talk to you about something?
<Ian> [00:29] <Ian> Mhm. Anything =3
<Ian> [00:29] <Averian> I think Karolek is a roleplayer.
<Ian> [00:30] <Ian> How so?
<Ian> [00:31] <Averian> as in I  think his tulpas aren't real.
<Ian> [00:32] <Ian> Why do you say that?
<Ian> [00:35] <Averian> because they crave attention in a way that screams "just pay attention to me"
<Ian> [00:35] <Ian> What if they feel alone?
<Ian> [00:36] <Averian> think of the way you feel alone
<Ian> [00:36] <Averian> and the way I feel alone
<Ian> [00:36] <Ian> What about them?
<Ian> [00:37] <Averian> do you go seeking people and drama because you feel alone? not really.
<Ian> [00:37] <Averian> they seem to.
<Ian> [00:37] <Averian> it's something new every week, a depressed tulpa, a new merge, etc.
<Ian> [00:38] <Ian> I don't hear of those
<Ian> [00:38] <Averian> one just merged a little while ago
<Ian> [00:38] <Ian> How would I know?
<Ian> [00:38] <Ian> None have talked to me in  while.
<Ian> [00:38] * Averian shrugs
<Ian> [00:39] <Ian> Not even Abigail....
<Ian> [00:39] <Averian> what about Sherry and that one of Karoleks?
<Ian> [00:39] <Ian> Stephen? Nope.
<Ian> [00:39] <Averian> they still dating?
<Ian> [00:39] <Ian> Mhm
<Ian> [00:40] <Averian> :/
<Ian> [00:40] <Ian> What?
<Ian> [00:40] <Averian> it's kind of bad that they haven't talked to them
<Ian> [00:42] <Ian> I guess.
<Ian> [00:42] <Averian> anyway from what I see karolek uses these "characters" to express emotions and to have social contct without reprocussion
<Ian> [00:42] <Ian> I haven't seen that
<Ian> [00:43] <Averian> it makes more sense if I put it this way
<Ian> [00:44] <Averian> Karolek is typically the quiet one, right?
<Ian> [00:44] <Averian> he doesn't say much, he's a bit conserved and behind the scenes
<Ian> [00:44] <Averian> while his tulpas are usually way out there, some of them sex, some of them drama, some of them other aspects
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<Ian> **** Logging started Tue Sept 02 2014 00:45:50 ****
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<Ian> **** Logging started Tue Sept 02 2014 00:46:24 ****
<Ian> [00:46] <Averian> how much of that did you get?
<Ian> [00:46] <Ian> He talks to us sometimes.
<Ian> [00:46] <Ian> All of it
<Ian> [00:46] <Averian> <Averian> while his tulpas are usually way out there, some of them sex, some of them drama, some of them other aspects
<Ian> [00:46] <Averian> <Averian> and he's had really messed up backstories for some of them too
<Ian> [00:46] <Averian> that also?
<Ian> [00:48] <Ian> Minus the back stories one
<Ian> [00:48] <Ian> And he STILL talks to us sometimes. My reply hasn't changed.
<Ian> [00:49] <Averian> I just think his whole tulpa thing is a bit fishy
<Ian> [00:49] <Averian> especially when they merge so much and there always seems to be a new one
<Ian> [00:49] <Ian> I think he's him and I should leave him be.
<Ian> [00:50] <Averian> yeah but it's something to question
<Ian> [00:50] <Averian> critical thinking
<Ian> [00:50] <Averian> 2am thoughts
<Ian> [00:51] * Ian shrugs
<Ian> [00:51] <Ian> Stuff happens
<Ian> [00:52] * Averian grabs your cheeks with his palms and squishes your face a little x3
<Ian> [00:54] * Ian giggles and makes a fishy face
<Ian> [00:54] <Averian> you don't like thinking too deeply, do you? x3
<Ian> [00:56] <Ian> I do. Often. But it's 2 AM where you are, and your thinking process is inhibited by a desire to sleep fueled by melatonin.
<Ian> [00:56] <Averian> not at all.
<Ian> [00:57] <Ian> Nope! =V
<Ian> [00:57] <Averian> I don't have a regular circadian rythm. I'm the most awake right now than I have been all day
<Ian> [00:57] <Ian> ... Oh wow.
<Ian> [00:58] * Averian gives you some tea and sits beside you
<Ian> [00:59] * Ian yips and sips a bit before putting his tails around you
<Ian> [00:59] <Ian> ^-^
<Ian> [01:00] <Averian> so what do you think? is he using them as an attention catalyst or is it just a coincidence?
<Ian> [01:00] * Averian wraps an arm around you
<Ian> [01:01] * Ian leans into you and sips his tea
<Ian> [01:01] <Ian> That's a good question...
<Ian> [01:01] <Ian> I want to say it's a coincidence, but that's probably skewed because of Abigail...
<Ian> [01:03] * Averian sips his tea too
<Ian> [01:03] <Averian> I don't like making accusations like that but once I sat and took a thought it all seemed to fall in place
<Ian> [01:05] <Ian> I never really thought about it. I just left the dude to his shit and minded my own business.
<Ian> [01:06] <Averian> Yeah.
<Ian> [01:07] <Ian> I guess I just..... I....
<Ian> [01:08] * Ian tears up
<Ian> [01:08] <Averian> you?
<Ian> [01:08] <Ian> I'm just a loser...
<Ian> [01:08] <Averian> no... don't say that... you're not.
<Ian> [01:11] <Ian> But I am.... I was too wrapped up in false hope Abigail was real....
<Ian> [01:11] <Averian> well, you know I'm real.
<Ian> [01:11] <Averian> and I'm attracted to you.
<Ian> [01:14] <Ian> I THOUGHT she was real.... I guess I'm just more of a fool than people say...
<Ian> [01:14] <Averian> look, this community can be decieving.
<Ian> [01:14] <Averian> some people are assholes on the internet
<Ian> [01:16] <Ian> But..... What if he's not a role player?
<Ian> [01:16] <Averian> then where will the relationship go?
<Ian> [01:18] <Averian> do you plan to be married to someone elses  tulpa for the rest of your life? :/
<Ian> [01:18] * Ian curls up
<Ian> [01:19] <Ian> I did.... For a moment.... I guess.... I.... I'm so stupid...
<Ian> [01:21] * Averian sighs and hugs you tightly
<Ian> [01:23] * Ian starts to cry
<Ian> [01:23] * Averian strokes your head gently
<Ian> [01:24] * Ian puts his arms around you and cries harder
<Ian> [01:24] * Averian wraps his arms around you
<Ian> [01:25] <Ian> I'm such an idiot ;~;
<Ian> [01:26] * Averian licks your cheek gently and hugs you tight
<Ian> [01:28] * Ian nuzzles
<Ian> [01:29] <Averian> it's alright...
<Ian> [01:32] <Ian> I don't know what to think....
<Ian> [01:32] * Averian rubs your ears lightly
<Ian> [01:33] <Averian> you just have to think critically, you know? don't get blinded.
<Ian> [01:33] <Ian> B-but what if..?
<Ian> [01:33] <Ian> So many variables.... So many different possibilities....
<Ian> [01:34] <Averian> what is the likelihood that abigail would be able to switch, have karolek be willing to meet and spend time with you, etc etc.
<Ian> [01:36] <Ian> Well karolek probably wouldn't let us do that because he is, from what I can tell, near homophobic.
<Ian> [01:36] <Averian> ._.
<Ian> [01:36] <Averian> so... what were you thinking? :/
<Ian> [01:37] <Ian> I don't know ;~;
<Ian> [01:37] <Ian> I'm an idiot.... Just ignore me...
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<Ian> [01:43] <Averian> no, stop.
<Ian> [01:43] * Averian kisses your lips lightly
<Ian> [01:45] * Ian blushes
<Ian> [01:45] <Ian> Why..?
<Ian> [01:46] <Averian> because you're not stupid.
<Ian> [01:46] <Averian> and I love you and the girls.
<Ian> [01:47] * Ian starts to cry again
<Ian> [01:51] * Averian hugs tight
<Ian> [01:52] * Ian hugs back
<Ian> [01:53] * Averian nuzzles and strokes your tails
<Ian> [01:54] <Ian> I'm conflicted...
<Ian> [01:54] <Averian> what about?
<Ian> [01:55] <Ian> I don't know what to do....
<Karolek[P]> Dude
<Ian> [01:55] <Ian> I love her....
<Ian> [01:56] * Averian sighs deeply
<Ian> [01:56] <Ian> But she could be/probably is fake....
<Ian> [01:56] <Ian> And I...
<Ian> [01:56] <Averian> but do you love her or the concept of her? wouldn't it be great to find someone just as good if not better in the real world?
<Ian> [01:56] <Ian> I don't fucking know anymore....
<Ian> [01:57] <Ian> I don't know the answer to your question...
<Ian> [01:57] <Averian> hmmm...
<Ian> [01:58] <Averian> well it seems you have a lot of thinking to do :/
<Ian> [01:58] <Averian> but to me what you had wasn't a healthy relationship.
<Ian> [01:58] <Ian> Why do you say that?
<Ian> [01:59] <Averian> well how often did you get to see her?
<Ian> [01:59] <Ian> Whenever she isn't busy...
<Ian> [02:00] <Averian> when is that?
<Ian> [02:03] <Ian> Whenever she's not busy in her Wonderland
<Ian> [02:03] <Averian> ugh.
<Ian> [02:03] <Averian> how often do you get to see her? -_-
<Ian> [02:04] <Ian> It changes. Every week.
<Ian> [02:04] <Ian> Sometimes not once a week....
<Ian> [02:04] <Averian> is that healthy for a marriage?
<Ian> [02:04] <Averian> is it even any excuse that she's "busy in the wonderland" it's not like she has some sort of job where a bunch of people depend on her :/
<Ian> [02:06] <Ian> She does have a job...
<Ian> [02:06] <Averian> and what does she gain from doing it?
<Ian> [02:06] <Averian> less time with you.
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