I overcame it all

I overcame it all

I look back at how far I have come since  my fall,
I remember hitting rock bottom not caring at all.
I remember cutting myself because I felt so bad,
When I looked on the mirror disdain is all I had.

I remember trying to numb the pain with drugs,
But deep down all I wanted was hugs.
I never knew I could feel this way.
I hated life every single day.

I felt ashamed when they touched me that way,
I was so young,  what was I to say.
For years I have  lived with a secret that I detested.
I can't believe that I was molested.

The shame of that word has hunted me for years,
and in my life brought so many fears.
I use to stand wondering if I was a girl or a man,
And pray in my heart that it wouldn't happen again.

It took sometime but now I'm free,
I realize those were not my thoughts inside me.
I can assure you there is someone who loves and cares.
One who will protect you,  and challenge him no one dares.

If you have suffered abuse or molestation their is no need to be ashamed. It was not your fault and you are not a terrible person.  God loves you and what happened to you hurt his heart. Let's pray together God I don't know why this happened to me but I no longer want these feelings of shame and not knowing who I am in me. I ask you to take them out of my heart and I invite you into my heart. I believe that you sent Jesus to die for me ,I acknowledge I am not right with you forgive me of all my sins and feel my heart today. In Jesus name amen.
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