Notes to self/To do list

Stop depression eating, I've probably gained like 5 pounds in the past 2 months alone, I miss it when she cared about what I ate. I miss her.
[edit: I was wrong, I'm not gaining any weight.]
Don't fucking cry while Skyping PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING EVERYTHING THAT IS HOLY AND SACRED IN THIS WORLD DO NOT LET HER HEAR ME CRY.
[edit: this one is going to be hard. Just let the true scared vulnerable Tyler she knows speak.]
Tell Chill he wins, and to leave her alone.
[edit: he's gone.]
Maybe check myself into the hospital, I'm not okay.
[edit: this might be good, but I may be fine.]
Explain to mom that things between her and I didn't work, and to cancel the plans to New Zealand.
[edit: try not to cry.. I can't let my mom see me cry again.]
Remove her on Wildstar and to stop going to PS, she doesn't want to see me anymore anywhere.
[edit: maybe just remove on wildstar and namechange on PS, or maybe neither! Have hope!]
Cry in my room for the next month or two.
[edit: her leaving? a month or two is an understatement prob, but if she stays I'll prob cry of joy.]