I love you so much but are so dumb melany and honestly I kind of fucking hate you like?? If you can sleep tonight and not wake up once in the middle of the night and check your texts to see if i called or attempted to text you or something then ok wow i really do hate you. I hate you so much. I hate you. I hate you. I have put so much of me into this for you to do this one week shit with me. You KNOW I want this to work, you KNOW I'm willing to do anything to make it work so what the fuck? I've tried so many things to just get closer to you like play league, play toontown, like anything that you're interested in, I even texted joey the night you were playing xbox so that I could finally be like yeah i play games get on xbox live so i can kick you ass like I wanted to be able to do that shit with you. I had to beg him to reply, 1, and then he agreed so that was cool. I don't give a shit if you move on within the next week because I will still be completely and madly in love with you like time away from you literally makes me go crazy and you know that. This time, I won't text tito or ely or anyone and ask them if you're doing okay. MAYBE JEN but only because I know how your mom's been acting and just wanting to make sure you're okay. I don't want to not talk to you and maybe this is your way of finally moving on and completely letting me go but I don't want that. I don't want anyone else and I thought I made that pretty fucking clear. You're my best friend. I tell you everything. I go to you when I'm mad as hell, sad as hell, you come to me when you're mad as fuck and sad as fuck. When you're sick, you talk to me and feel better, when you're upset you talk to me and honestly idk how that goes, it's 50/50 because I try to see your mom's side sometimes and i don't think you like that. I'm sorry!!! I love you so much why in the hell are you doing this? It literally went from yes we are ok to no i don't want to talk to you and that hurts me. Do not care that it hurts? Do you genuinely not give a fuck about me or is this you trying to convince yourself that you don't care? It's so hard to type with fake nails on I'm struggling and it's taking me 30 minutes just to fucking write this. All I can talk about to people is how much I miss you, I know we have had a shitty past, I know that but think about when we're actually together. I feel like it'll just go away. Like every mistake we've made will disappear and you have to hold on to that because that is what I'm holding on to. Fuck I just love you. I am in love with you, you love me too. You are in love with me and you are fighting because you don't trust me, you're afraid I'm gonna be whack as fuck again and I can see why you fear that, but life is about taking risks man and that is for sure what love is about and what we have is real fucking love. Get it through your fucking head, we are END GAME. LIKE IN THE END, WE ARE GONNA BE TOGETHER. We're gonna be together and your mom will just have to fucking suck it up and move the fuck on because that's just the way it is. I love you so much, you love me so much, this is stupid as fuck. If you want space, fine. If you want to talk less, just don't reply but don't cut me off. LITERALLY LIKE SOMEBODY THAT I USED TO KNOW IS ME RIGHT NOW BECAUSE YOU ARE LITERALLY CUTTING ME OFF AND PRETENDING LIKE YOU DON'T GIVE A SHIT, WHEN YOU DO.