(I only talk about the reaction to GA for as long as this "post" originally was supposed to be)

I've concluded that I have a very annoying mental reaction to general anesthesia.

It allows me to think about many things that I want to think about, and it makes my creative ideas flow with such ease that I feel like I'm going to reinvent modern technology, which sounds fun.

Now, if you don't already know how much someone who has ADD/ADHD will talk, and how annoying it can be that they never seem to stop?

That's the tip of the iceberg. It usually comes to be about 1 of every 7 or so thoughts I came up with will actually leave my mouth. That's why they don't shut up. They feel like they haven't even gotten to the important bit of their freaking introduction of a topic they thought was important enough to talk about, and that's why it sucks for them no matter what the person they are speaking to, because they can't finish this idea, and they will be silenced long before it feels like they might be getting to the conclusion.

I already have explained more than I really should have, but I'm on a tangent that has to be completed. I haven't been able to stop the one that I began this morning, which was probably thinking why I have been so productive lately, and that stems a freaking galaxy of just barely related points that obviously have to be mentioned. I felt like I only had spoken to people for a quite minute amount of time compared to what I usually get them to listen to, but I easily spent at least 2 hours total explaining the same thing in a different order, because that must make it a riveting-ly new subject from the one I encumbered them with 3 minutes ago.

This isn't even a post now that I would make, because it seriously might have about 2 relevant and minimally important points that mixed in with everything else.

I wouldn't even want to say this is insanity, because I am aware in the time after I talk or write about something, that I just went on a tangent again.

I don't blame people when they tell me I've said enough, or find it annoying that I speak so much, or find me to be an endless source of irrelevant gibberish that "definitely sounds like a cool idea" at maybe two points during the ramble. I'd join them in the agitation that comes to anyone that isn't lucky enough for me to make one single statement, and can't understand how the hell I can still be talking. I do it afterwards, and I find it not one bit degrading, because I know that I can be this annoying talkbox, but it really isn't in my mind to imagine what I would be like if I could think normally and conclusively.

I enjoy the constant spikes in curiosity from every single thing that shouldn't really invoke this happiness that it's a thing that is cool in some way that I supposedly know in my mind. I enjoy the times where I create a freaking amazing piece of some material because I used whatever pinpointing focus energy that everyone else uses constantly, in what ends up being hours at once, and that is where I find that I do have something in here that eventually rises from every other useless tidbit. I can learn everything about a random subject and imagine how I could make something better with that knowledge, and while I never can apply it, I always enjoy just absorbing a subject completely, and applying that somehow into my life (I'd love to be able to just sketch what I am thinking of at any point in time, so I can use an image instead of describing it in extremely vague detail that was so specific mentally, 5 seconds beforehand.

Come to think of it, it's like a computer that only opens images in notepad, despite that obviously being the most useless method of "showing" what should be an image.

I'm basically comparable to a normal OS, but take away the ability to read the final outputs from a program, and only show the source code that is in my own proprietary language that has massive optimization issues that seem very obvious and fixable to the user. I know I'm supposed to be showing you the actual image, but I am not aware that the wall of ascii vomit is not what I am supposed to show you, and I don't understand why the user gets so confused and angry when I felt like I did it without any issues. I show so much of the information I am processing as the esoteric and mega-bloated root ideas that it came from, because I am not aware there is a different way to do that job, because everyone else assumes that every OS should be able to show the normal version of the output info in a normal way, and blame the computer as a whole for being "complicated, mysterious, and unable to do what it is made to do".

If there were more computers that used that messed up OS, then maybe, MAYBE, the normal OS developers can look into it, find out what the root of what is automatically done for the majority of the computers sent out with said OS use, and use the console to define how to properly do the stuff that the OS is told to do.

Unfortunately, it isn't too common for the OS to mess up in the way I describe, and seeing as how there are endless amounts of normal computers that can do the job instead because it's not hard to just ignore a few corrupted OS copies and use another normal one because they know it will do it right the first time, rather than investigate the source of the corruptions, and fix them all to be as good as the normal versions.

They would also notice another interesting trait of the corruptions that they never found in a normal copy.

On a normal version, it would be expected to take a bit of time to actually show the result of a search, or open a file/program. It's okay, because it's so common that they never decided to see how fast they could make the OS run.

But, if they somehow figure out how the hell the corrupted copies can be fixed, they notice, even when it was still corrupted, that info was displayed almost instantly, and it knew when a bad result was shown, and tries until it gets the correct one displayed. It also handles a much more involved workload that works with dozens of problems in small portions, but can solve them all in a much faster time compared to a normal OS.

I know that I'm talking way too much, and I know that it makes you annoyed.

Maybe it would help, if you tried to look into the root of what creates the extra stuff, and fix that instead of just suggesting that "you should really just stop talking this much" or suggest that the OS should be using the default programs for an image, and if you actually went to look, you'd see that it doesn't have that default installed, and try to search for an alternative in another part of that OS.