:)

does anyone feel like they wont succeed
you pour your heart out but all you do is bleed.
failing at every attempt you make,
to try and improve yourself through all the drugs you take

going through depression
fighting off the evils
at your own indiscretion
mentally twisting your way through hell
only to hate yourself more than anyone can tell

self loathing and pain running through my veins
my minds screaming out
trying to get me to step away
while I want to set up a noose
and hang myself til these feelings are shook loose

and the loneliness and depression slip away
all during that final and hopeless day
where people walk into my room to see me
and leave with nothing to say

I'm sorry is all ive heard all my life
nobody is willing to stand up for someone
even if it means saving their life
empathy is all we feel
while others just want to feel the steel of the knife
cutting away
slicing today
in half
as we hold back a tear
all we wanted was a hug
but nobody would come near

shunned and disregarded
as an outcast we stand
because nobody is willing to take our hand
and help us along
after we trip and fall
reminding us that relative to everyone
our life is so small
and meaningless
so why even live at all?

this pain doesnt eb and flow
it just stays with you
until the day that you go
sometimes it rests in the back of your mind
other days it's suffering all the time

well you know what?
im sorry for wasting my life
im sorry for everying that didnt turn out right
im sorry i exist at all
but i'm not sorry for  what i became
because i tried to stay happy and live day to day

I guess things dont always go right
like the best laid plans george and lenny had in sight
but i guess that's alright
as long as you help me end my self harm
and be my george that take me to my farm
just take me to the rabbits and lay me out to rest
and I swear I'll no longer be a pest

-Casp3r