In case winter deletes it

Holy fuck. I'll start with that because I know all my comments are going to be instantly downvoted (I beg of you please not this one).
I haven't gone through in detail because obviously this is comprehensive as fuck. and I even don't fully grasp it.
I.... I don't want to believe it. I don't want to believe everyone was right all this time to an extent.
I have moved on past the accusations for months, almost years since people gave them any real credence. I have even begun to regard them in a completely joking manner.
I'm going to be cliche as fuck here. Real talk. I have thought about, I've gone so far as to even look up viewbotting sites (especially after being viewbotted blatantly before). I would never go as far as this.
I've had insane growth since I went full time thanks to just hundreds, not thousands of viewers. I've had the best year of my life probably. FUCK.
Is there a possibility of viewbots being automatically turned on whenever I turn on my channel. How many are there. Is it happening when I stream on NVIDIA too? I honestly would like more detail and want it public.
Can someone break down this in simple terms, as I am actually convinced. This hurts a lot.
EDIT: This post doesn't hurt as much as the validity of it.