[20:27] * Nyota knocks on the door, a muffeled voice can be heard through it. "Ah.. Blackberry_Jam..?"
[20:28] * Blackberry_Jam sits up in bed, not really sleeping so much as staring at the ceiling. There's an unlit cigarette in her mouth. "It's open, Stripes."
[20:30] * Nyota slowly opens the door and slinks inside, closing it behind her with a tailflick. A intentional tailflick. She looks over Blackberry_Jam for a moment before sitting down a few steps into the room. "Hey.. Ah, I want to talk." She has a sad frown on her face, looking down at the floor.
[20:31] * Blackberry_Jam is wearing a hoodie, with the same symbols on it as her beret. The sleeves are rolled up, so her tattoo is visible. The mare nods understandingly. "Of course." She turns and lets her legs hang over the side of the bed, patting the space next to her. "Take a seat."
[20:36] * Nyota looks up, confused for a second before standing up and takes her place on the bed. She's equiped in all her gear still, she hasnt acctually removed any of it while anypony was present. Scratching a forehoof awkwardly she glances at Blackberry_Jam. "Blackberry, what does a mare do when.. She lose everything, everyone?"
[20:40] * Blackberry_Jam crosses her hooves and hmmms for a moment. "Well... a mare who's lost everything has a few options. The first is usually to lash out at whatever took it, and well... that never ends well. The second is to push it aside, bottle up the anger, the pain, the sorrow." She looks intently at Nyota as she says that. "And third, she makes something new."
[20:43] * Nyota sniffs and grits her teeth. "And what if everytime she tries to build somethign new.. the past returns to tear it down..?" The zebra is on the verge too tears, she looks away from Blackberry_Jam, her forehooves pressing hard against the bed.
[20:44] * Blackberry_Jam puts a hoof on Nyota's shoulder and says, very quietly, "Then maybe she just needs a little help rebuilding."
[20:48] * Pantzar_ recoils away from the hoof. "I.. I dont.. " She looks up at Blackberry_Jam, a desperate, hopefull and sad look on her face. "Everytime I try, somepony get hurt, everyone I've know gets hurt! Because.. Because of me!" Unable to hold back tears any longer she flops down on the bed and curls up.
[20:57] * Blackberry_Jam retracts her hoof and shakes her head. "Stripes... Nyota... It's not because of you. The only reason your past keeps following you is because it wants to, it's not your fault."
[21:00] * Nyota_ shivers as she lays there, she's biting down on a hoof to hold her tears in. Muffled behind sobbing; "I just want it to stop.."
[21:01] * Blackberry_Jam grabs Nyota's hoof and moves it away from her mouth and frowns. "Then we'll make it stop."
[21:03] * Nyota_ looks at her hoof for a second then looking up at Blackberry_Jam, blinking the tears away. "I.. I can't kill my family Blackberry_Jam, I cannot.. "
[21:06] * Blackberry_Jam nods firmly. "Then we won't kill them."
[21:08] * Nyota_ looks confused, pulling her hoof back to herself, slowly sitting up.  "Then.. What do we do?"
[21:09] * Blackberry_Jam gets a slight smirk on her face. "I was going to suggesting staging your death."
[21:11] * Nyota_ sniffs and rubs her muzzle with a hoof. "Oh."  Blinking she suddenly realise what you just said. "Ohhh... But, we must be in the present of a assassin.. They have to kill me."
[21:12] * Blackberry_Jam taps a hoof to her chin. "So... what happens if the Wasteland gets you?"
[21:13] <Nyota_> "Ah.. Maybe.. They need to think I have died though, some proof."
[21:14] * Blackberry_Jam nods. "Like... a scrap of clothes, or something more personal?"
[21:16] * Nyota_ nods slowly, looking at the door for a second before back at Blackberry .. "Maybe it will work, perhaps my mane, or tail.." She looks up at her mane and back at her tail when she mentions them. "But the Sterekarri warriors needs to find it.. And be convinced. And they know about all of you now.." She sighs.
[21:18] * Blackberry_Jam furrows her brow in concentration. She leans back and flops into the bed. "This might be a little harder than I thought, but if we all put our heads together, this should be easy. Is... this what you want?"
[21:19] * Nyota_ looks down for a moment, frowning. "... yes, this or convince my people that magic is not too be feared."
[21:22] * Blackberry_Jam blinks. "Oooooh. Hmmm. That might be a little easier."
[21:24] * Nyota_ shakes her head. "Its something that has been rooted into the Serekarri tribe since before the bombs fell.. We.. I, I dont think we can, it woujld be suicide too try. Elder Serzy would have us all excecuted for aiding magic vielders."
[21:29] * Blackberry_Jam taps her hooves together. "Right... I mean... technically, most ponies in the wastes these days are magic users. I know I am, I wouldn't be anything if it weren't for medical magic. So... looks like we'll have to try and fake it."
[21:31] * Nyota_ nods slightly, a slight smile on her lips. "So, how shall I die?"
[21:34] * Blackberry_Jam smiles back just a little, glad to see that she was feeling a little better. "Someway that it would be almost impossible to recognize the corpse... We need a double."
[21:35] * Nyota_ raises a eyebrow, scratching at a forehoof and flicking her tail against the bed. "Ah.. Blackberry_Jam, I have stripes.."
[21:37] * Blackberry_Jam snorts. "No kidding. What I mean is, we need somepony who looks a little like you, and... is dead. Mane dye isn't too hard to come by, so that shouldn't be difficult. I was thinking that maybe an explosion, or something like a trap."
[21:39] * Nyota_ blinks. "Oh.. Of course... But it has to be done so they find ah, me." She frowns slightly. "This is not going to be easy.."
[21:40] * Blackberry_Jam nods slowly, giving a low chuckle. "It never is, is it. We'll talk to North in the morning... I get the feeling he's done this before."
[21:42] * Nyota_ slides off the bed. "I have the same feeling.. " She flicks her tail and starts to head for the door, glancing over her shoulder. "Asante, Blackberry_Jam.. Thank you so much."
[21:43] * Blackberry_Jam lies back in bed, smiling. "Asante... you know, I wish I could speak Zebra. It's a beautiful language."
[21:45] * Nyota_ flicks her tail, turning towards Blackberry_Jam, nodding. "It means, thank you. Maybe, I could teach you oneday." She gives a tiny smile then opens the door.
[21:48] * Blackberry_Jam waves a hoof and says, "Sie sind sehr willkommen, Nyota. Gut schlafen."
[21:48] * Nyota_ slinks out and closes the door with her tail.