Joshua
hey hey
Metal
'sup?
Joshua
not much, just checking in on you
Metal
I'm okay at the moment.  Yesterday sucked, but i'm alright for now
Joshua
want to talk about it?
Metal
I worked 16 hours then came home and almost had an anxiety attack.  But that's about it really
Joshua
mhm
sorry to hear that
Metal
I need to ask you something more personal.  Because this is hurting me a lot.
Joshua
mhm?
Metal
Why have you and Sharky become so distant to me ever since you guys started hanging out with Drimu?  We all used to hang and chat and things and then lately the only thing I feel is being distant.  I mean, you check in on me.  I'm confused.
Joshua
I didn't start becoming distant when I started hanging out with drimu. I was hanging out with drimu at the same time as I was as you.
I've been extremely busy moving home from school, seeing a therapist, and registering for classes
Sharky's had a bunch worse shit happen to her, so that's her thing, I guess
Metal
I've been told of some very hurtful things that have been said in regards to myself.  I'm not saying that you've said them, because that isn't usually how you are.  In addition the night_court group have also been spreading nasty rumors about people, myself included.  This is why I have been distant.  Sometimes it brings those things up in my mind
Joshua
Sorry to hear that, man. Rumors are nasty things
Metal
It's a large part of why i've been going through emotional upheaval and why I removed myself from almost all moderation spots until I can be stable
Joshua
I understand
you know, you don't have to say things like "I'm not saying that you're saying them"
Metal
I did not want you to think that I was accusing you of it.
Joshua
I'm a big boy, I can read into situations. you don't have to assure me :P
Metal
Well, the point is, i've gone from pretty much being in a place where I wanted to actually get involved with research and experimenting with things in order to benefit the community, to getting angry enough that I want to watch the community burn.  And that's a shitty way to feel.
Joshua
yeah, I mean, I understand having issues with the community
Metal
The only solution I can think of really is just to step out of the community for a little while and let those things pass.  I'm hesitant to make that decision.  But it's not getting better
Joshua
Do you want my honest advice?
Metal
I wouldn't have started the conversation if I didn't.
Joshua
;)
You tried only opping when necessary
didn't help
you're trying not modding at all
it seems like it isn't helping
Metal
I've been putting this conversation off for... a long time.
Joshua
you might really need to take a break, man
Joshua
you know?
Joshua
metal?
Metal
sorry, i had to move from one building at work to another lol
yeah.  I know.
I don't want to be angry and spiteful
Joshua
no one wants that